Yea...
1 young man with a dream to lead, wrote a song when he was 14, had a goal that his words would get him seen.
Went out late one night to drink
had a few shots and decided he should get up on the roof top and sing. No one noticied when he fell until the girl screamed. Hit his head on the concrete and broke his neck clean. Oh What a tragedy another dead teen   But the saddest thing was the call from a record agency he missed cuz he couldn't see the screen. You never know who's Layin face down in the street, you could be lookin at the one person who changes history

In the middle of a storm, a young man stands torn.
In the same spot, freshness comes to the clothes worn.
As it pours on the earth, the boy stands freezing and warm.
Clean is a new feeling, to a boys skin so worn.
young as as he is, this feeling is only bested by being born
shivers course over his skin, until he sees the dirt wash away again.
He loves the world, and no hate lies within him.
Alone under magical skies, hes long forgiven his mothers sin .
She left her only son,  thought his young life would end.
But mystic energy picked the boy from the floor.
Brought thoughts to his head and gave him  land to own.
in return for the worlds cold lands, a voice was given to lead him until he became a man.
a brilliant boy still stands feeling beauty drip into his hands.
His legs felt that it was beauty to great to stand.
His knees collapsed as the weight if his past washed from his back.
Only grown by what things he lacked, a solitary boy thought himself the stories  of the world.
sadly to say his human brain still gave him fear and pain.
Even in a perfect world the greatest feeling was the dirt washing away.
Long since forgotten the boy lives on.
his knowledge is different but far from wrong.
If you listen close during a storm, you hear him singing his beautiful song

all i  want is down chick
a right by my side down to rid chick
i dont want no fake *****
all i want is a real chick
that can put up wit my crazy ****
cuddle on the couch watching netflix
as we takin **** rips
cuz baby dats just how we doin it
if you aint down wit it
just quite it, i aint down wit yo ***
im down with a fine *** chick thats down to smoke some grass
ready to role out wit the homeboys and smash
a down chick that ll tell me when she want it

i dont want no dumb *****
i wanna chick that gets its
a chick that when she makes a commitment
she sticks to it  
i want down chick not a snitchin ***
i just wanna chick that ll ride wit me yo
be loyal to me stick by my side
i dont need no fake hoes
i need a chick thats ride or die

Dear unknown, (s)
.      I won't use your name or hint to how we relate. Not cuz im afraid but cuz im real and **** is only talked by fakes. This is for one person no people and my whole state.
now that weve made the mud clear I have alot to say. so sit down and pay attention to what I Wright on this page.

     To start ill say that im not trying to blame, point fingers or hang anybody.

I was a ganster at a young age learned all lingo and how to hang can't stop a kid who was never raised if you wanna talk about bein in a cage or what it takes

I work hard every day, every 2 weeks i get paid
every house I paint, i work all day, for quality not just pay.
I rarely see the owners and those I do mostly wave.
I don't expect much, its just nice to here a thanks.
I've been a painter for 2 years and iv never gotten a tip
Iv never asked for one why would It be expected
when i got a small envelop as thanks i was excited.
I looked inside it and  i couldn't believe my eyes
i can't express how much 60 dollors brightened my life.
you are of a few on earth who keep my hope for humanity alive
so thank you very much for noticeing our efforts
It helps to know that someone appreciates how hard we work


.                   sincerely,dennis

Maby I was cursed at birth to sin over an over again,
Throwin caution to the wind if I oppose what they want I win,
Can't tell a young up N comin **** nothin an have em listen.
Taught myself the meanin of a mission never fear an slipin ain't real when it comes to Killin
Black clothes cover me from my head to my toes so nobody knows I'm lurking in the shadows.
Little 22 ready do work on you punk mother *******
Talkin smack on some real gangster *** soldiers and you in trouble
Catch yourself lookin at a young white gang banga lookin to prove something to ya
Act withouta crew to jump in an say somethin cuz until your dead he done wit you
Hustle in school on the low key ain't tryin to be cool
I just love ta feel money in my pocket and  fresh clothes that when you ask I can say I bought it
Momma used to teach me rap songs and had me recite em to her dopin friends
Said I could be anything if I keep my mind open
Never thought I'd catch a case and spend 3 years away
Or smokin dope with me would ever be thing
But I guess it's OK I was 18
Actin like a man puttin grown man problems in my hand to deal with on my own.

Some times I look around, deep breath leavin my chest, face marked with a  frown, thinking **** how much would a chance change what pain Im feelin now.
If I had grown up in a diffrent town.
If stable was a way to describe my life would I have ever learned to be down.
Would I still fear Sleepin cuz my dreams bring the faces of the people I seen gunned down
Maby I would have some money someone gave me thinkin I'd do something good with it....
Haha **** I wish

If I change today, make a plea with God that I'll do things differently will he show himself and embrace me??
Or look at the lives I've takin and turn away
Leavin me to stray down a darker path where I can't find the light of day.
**** what they told me led me astray.
Dreams come true when you work hard they ain't free.
I'm smarter than most my age. Makin it work for my girl and me.
No help from anybody, lookin far off into the distance no love to be seen
Just a world against me, corrupt by the ones leading.
But the upper class don't see.  
Nothin makes sense in a backwards country money hungry people talkin out they *** about poverty.
But they don't see, laws sayin it's better they sleep on the streets than in a trailor parked in town.
Rather see a dead family than one strugglin to get they feet on the ground

first day of school
an im dressin fly
first day of school
an im ****** high
first day of school
an im lookin for my crew
cuz on the first day of school
we down to ride

i woke up in the morning
filled my lungs wit some smoke
i early morning ****
i just wanna blaze
**** my grades  
i got straight A's in life
cuz i strive for the top
and think before i talk
cuz i walk the walk
straight in the front doors of the high school
pass the a cop in the hall ways
and im hella blazed
but he dont faze me
what he gonna taze me
cuz i smell like hella dank green
i got **** on me
half an ounce homie
and he can test me
ima cheat and pass it
homie sayin chech  
so i sayin chong
and he pass it
so i hit it
till i die i ain't gonna quit it

Baby, i love you plain and simple, we met through friends and for that  i say to them, thank you.
I still remember that first day, looking at you in the window I caught your gaze.
I lost the words I meant to say and for a moment I wondered if you felt the same way.
we spent the rest of the day in each others company, and later that night you decided to stay.
i never asked you out on a date, i just expected you to understand why i treated you sweet.
i saw us together and you were who i wanted to keep, so i offered my room as a safe place to sleep.
it was you and me week after week,even if it wasnt always easy we never went to sleep in defeat.
Its been 15 months at least and our relationship Is still going beast. Were working through the hard things so i hope the future is what we think.
you are the love of my life and no meteor,  bullet or train will ever change the way i feel when you name our baby's with my last name.
I will never change how much I want you in my life so please be patient and behave

Ridin straight down crooked  lines  on the highway  havin good times the fly way Losin our minds. Expecting to die any day.

Reckless behavior noted like the numbers on my pager calling to wager a price for a rush of danger no granger given by a stranger

This life tries the souls of good men always has since the world began it ain't stoppin till the world's end I'll never die since I'm known as sin

Shoot me down in a dule containing 2 fools who believe there fit to rule over the hood with the biggest crew but the smallest win

Ghetto dreams die 1 by 1 every scream that haunts the shooter of the gun in there dreams stress of anothers death on there chest makes livin a test


Count every breath as you walk in a bigger homies
Steps lookin to end up in the dirt locked in a chest with blunt layin on your chest

Breath free and walk tall in streets when you a one man beast without a doubt about weather yo could stomp an entire crowd

Respect the gun quite or loud loaded or empty real or fake the symbolism of the souls it could take purposely or by mistake it takes 1 bullet to dig a grave

a kid, leaned up on a wall,
standin in an ally way, same one he inhabits day after day
perfect position for a fiend to find a friend,
but he aint around when the police come lookin,
turnt the corner he's bookin, merch is already hidden
money never left his pocket.
cant afford to find out what happens if he lost it
his profit pays the bills,
feeds his parents addiction , and gives his siblings there meals
he makes every dollor his family has,
stays out till the sun come up sellin bags,
in the morning he steps inside a home
he technically owns gives his mother her morning dose.
goes to make toast for a kid who cant eat cuz his belly ach,
stars to finally doze  till his father walks out wakin him up with a broken nose .!!!!
just to escape what he knows its back to the ally he goes.
till the sun go down and the morning shows.
a thinkig  problem he cures with notes. made to the beats he hears bumpin down the  road.
cant hear the words so he uses his own
simply astar to be just wait till the world know his name.

Good morning everybody. I watched the sun set last night.
now its  slowly getting brighter Makin its way higher.
I'd bet the sun peaks  from the mountains in about an hour.
Im gettin ready to take my second shower I need to rinse the chemicals off  that I been sweatin for a while.
Atleast sweat means my system is clean and the next batch can't keep me *****.
I'm only really worried cuz i haven't slept all weekend
got to work in a little bit with my girls brother
and i just took a peak on the mirror
im healthy but my pupils look like serving plates.

Look,
.       I have a knack for putting my nose where it dont belong.
Learned about drugs way to early on
now im too far gone
cant hardly Wright a song
My pencil keeps slipin from my sweaty palms
Bullets drippin from my pours like a rookie terrorist dropin bombs   -  of course.  -
got regrets i can write em in blood put em in an envelope stamp, sign and send em along
But who would ever put in wtighting all that they've donevwro

I'm a player see, tough as nails and ******* love my body. Dudes got a problem cuz im new in town and there girls want me. Words spread quick when the new kid is a violent convict. I didint tell my story quick, so when i heard that my file slipped and somebody started s

If I could of course I would,
collect my thoughts  all bad or good
Give a **** what you bang in the hood,
I care  about knowledge in my own way regrets at something you wish  had,
Just cuz I've done bad don't me I look back
The present is where im at   working for the future  its mor of a hhd

I just need to express some ****, I don't want to Wright a poem or a song, I want to talk stupid jump to conclusions and make no sense.
I dont care if im wrong or not, im high and ******. In a situation like this, **** Makin Sense im'a sit awake all night  randomly switch topics. and wright ******* so random it can't be right.

Once apon a time somewhere that the government couldent find, a middle aged   man found a rip in the the sky.  He couldent  feel it so he spent every day observing the odditie and  feeling its force stronger by the day. At night it disappeared and came to light when the sun would shine. He left his home in the bush with out anything to survive. His wife couldn't bear life so before he left he teasd her like he wanted ***. Just as she felt wet he backed up and said," every man likes ***, every man loves Brest's, bear skin and biting necks. I am no exception to the weakness of men but iv wasted my best years trying again and again to give you my son, i would've settled for a daughter but still your poisoned body never let me feel the satisfaction of being a father. I was forced into this union and now my life is half past I regret my choice to honor my dad, but even more i regret not taking my fathers chance, to pray with the lords and and stab you in your sinful womb . Lucky for you i  said i couldn't, take the life   of the women i gave my vow 2 in the sun in front of god to keep alive long before it was discovered you were poisend inside .

Yea the government is always talking **** on street soldiers,
****... they don't even know us.
When gang crimes are at there highest, available jobs are at there lowest.
Crime is the only way for some of us to make it day to day,
a criminal record and a toung spittin hate, at a continuous rate ain't no way to get government funds or paid by the state.
But what am I supposed to do during the mandatory minimum of 30 days for compensation.
am I supposed to do right by this nation? not steel to eat as my homies  fall to there feet, Bein shot by police due to there desperation , persperation wettin there  skin as they contemplatin robbin fools for just enough money for some food cuz we survivors and we willing to live even if it means we have to take it

Yea...
.   listen....
.       i never had a decent position in witch to breath in.
got the genes of heathens deeply in seeded.
A product of underage teens breedin.
mother was a young fiend, decided to leave cuz she could see my understanding.
Father fled before he ever meet his son
who grew up thinkin he didint have one
a young boy yearned for affection but found addiction
An affliction given by wrongly driven individuals given a child to keep innocent
Wanted me to sleep and didint think of  the consequences
an only child grew up isolated from friends
Had a cousin he he loved but wasent allowed around enough because he knew to much.
knew more than they thought cuz early on he was taught the rules on keepin your mouth shut.

Its kinda like, how is this alright
It could be described as just bein life
Sad as it is same thing goes for alot of kids
could blame the parents but neglect breeds patients And exposure leads the mind to act older.

never pitty yourself for the lack of a shoulder
Grow your mind stronger and take bein pushed aside as a time to grow older
Don't live with regret even if you didint cause it  
Every moment you live is then reason to know you came to earth independent......

Be proud to grow up with out
ain't a reason to shout but when make it at least you know you didint cop out
and the world can't take **** away cuz everything you have today you built from the ground with bare hand and past full of white sound

I have meet the love of my life, i never asked for permission i just made her mine.
It isint always easy, sometimes we fight
True love is said to be impossible to recreate and when you get it you should hold it tight
I don't always show you how much you matter to my life because if i did you'd probly never sleep at night.
I'd talk till the sun rise then put you to bed while i slipped off to work. So i didint miss a moment of your life
I promise to try hard and keep you  on my mind because there's no one else i would rather have by my side.
You have changed me more than you realize and I've made you my ride or die
I hope we make make it through the good and bad times.
but right now just remember were young, and we might have a long time to love but it isn't always gonna be fun
Ill never touch you with a hurtful hand under any circumstance, im a young man with class.and promise that ill keep you out of harms path.
Im glad life gave us this trance, this kinda love can't be found by chance, 7 billion people and the world made us to match

i love you forever my beautiful monkey.

.           sincerely, dennis/ bunny

Miles to go,
Walking in the blistering cold,
All alone wearin  summer clothes
Pitch black night and I'm 6 years old.
My shoes got holes on the soles and toes,
The sun was bright when I left home but it's gone.
Haven't had a drink or bite to eat for at least a week.

No stoppin till I find warmth,
I figured if I went north I'd run into a store,
Now I'm lost and cold, where the **** Did my mother Go?

She took off and left me alone,
Said she'd be right back but I guess she forgot.
I am her only child so I can understand.
Maby if I had a brother or sister she would have rembered to come back.

Flat fields on both sides and mountains far of in the sight.
I haven't seen a car since my mom left that night.
I just hope someone drives by and gives this scraggly kid a ride.

I tried to wait but I ate both the cup a noodles and drank all the water the first night.
3 days in I was delirious and could barely stand.
A 2 pack of crackers and some snow is what helped me stand.

**** it I'm young enough to say the world is corrupt with every right to believe it.
Finely the police show up and take me to my grandpas.
Thank God it's warm and he feeds us.

My love has lost her way, I have been blind to her pain.
My promise to keep her happy and safe slowly  changed!
In the first days of our new love I had yet to change.
I was still the young man she saw as mysterious and brave.
I didn't try to make her smile, when our eyes meet her face brightened naturally.
This girl was not one to spend many days happily, but I brought clarity to her life.
I was her armor, the razor sharp blade that protected her frugal life.
We needed no words to make official our love, it was seen in our eyes and felt in every hug.
As time passed by i became blind to what she needed in life.
I tried my hardest to ask and gave gifts to show my love.
And she drifted further from my arms, quietly suffering, waiting for me to understand.
She needs no gifts to live happily with the her truest love.
My eyes should open and see what her hearts wish.
Without a word or question I should do as she silently asks.
But the blinds closed slowly day by day.
I've hurt the only love I've ever known in my life and to realize such brings a pain worse than a piercing knife to the chest.
I love her to death and strongly regret my blind eye.
I miss what it was like in our first few nights.
Our unspoken affection visible in the darkest night.
The simple touch of our hands made sparks fly.
So I apologize, for I was for a long time blind.
But as I gaze Apon my love is see again why I never asked but deep inside knew she was forever mine.
I stand as your blanket of warmth and shield against war.
I am tattered and worn but I yearn to see again where my first love began.

I love you my best friend till the end, my first and only love forever through everything,my monkey I sit and watch swing from trees gracefully. And my partner in crime till the end of time you one **** dime even when the police is giving you a ride

Deep dark corners of iminagation, responsible for child hood hallucinations don't disappear in the later years

Late nights without sleep till daylight play on the mind and set reality aside giving way to paranoia to well up inside.

First its simple and explainable but worsens with time, a point comes when fear proves to be alive only sinking you deeper inside

As the devil stands over you watching in plain sight, you try to force yourself outside but terror keeps you frozen in time.

But talking to the shadows satin left behind  to keep a close eye on every move you  may try, eases the tension cuz someone finally sticks around ournd for conversation.

If you haven't taken rest by day five the world a group of spies trying to ruin your life. Arrest you without a chance of ever seeing light

After 6 strung out nights reality is a dream and puppy's can fly, your wanted by the FBI, every move you make is another surprise.

In less than a week you can suddenly be a different take on yourself, a person with 6 different names, each with a life and attitude completely different From the rest,
Impossible to talk to cuz very one of the people in your head wanna share there views

god bless my block
so i can drop this glock
no more reason to live im ready to drop.
pop some pills sit back and chill
the fools i run with we ready to ****
did two and a half locked up but still
i wont never be afraid i was raised to be too brave.
i wanna meet my idol so just bury me 6 in an unmarked grave,
let me head out to this rave pop some **** and you can pop my brain.
2pac im comin in hot still livin this thuggin life
and i walk with no less than a knife but prefer a nine or a glock
an A.K. or a shottie with a lil extra drop this punk fool real quick pop to it

Yea....so what-chya know about a criminals mentality?.....
Or what a **** sees when hes walkin on the sidewalk.. muggin mean
Big shirt, and baggy jeans
Pockets full of dope or a gun on his hip,
Posted up in a Gangsta lean with a fat joint lit...
You see crime an i see the will to survive.
I Raised myself an made myself a soilder with a hustle
A-hundred percent stone hard muscle
No room to hesitate,
just make yo money so you family has food on they plate
Dope'll always feed the babies cuz the fiends'll always pay
Police'll never give a break..
throw the only one makin money for their family in a cell
They tryin to make the,
gangstas, tha dope men, da pimps and da thugs slaves in uniforms locked in cages
for makin money when bosses won't hire nobody from tha hood just cuz -A- how they look
Maby we gonna rob the place, somebody gonna shoot us N we gon forget to call in late...
So what'd you say you know?
Nothin??... yea back away *** this is something only hood folk really know
So keep ya head low and go home. Watch who you glance at cuz round here murders are strung out on dope an tend to pull the trigger fast

Its 6 am and, my girl and I haven't slept all night.
We smoked some **** too pass the time until the house fell asleep
around then we made a shed trip again dulled the lamp and smoked some dope
them suddenly the door open to the suns rays

One time I asked myself, do I like putting loved ones and family on the shelf?
So I can think about myself, do as I wish, risk dyin for a click, do all the drugs in the world and have every *****. Risk endin up in a ditch for a cause iv always been told was childish.

I don't has an answer but **** do I wish

**** I love bein hated,
Havin strangers believein rumors that fear has created.
I been told I'm a demon that Satin rejected,
I seem to be evil, I speak truth to the people and only sinners except it.
**** the perception my demeanor gives to stuck  up people with riches.
I'm proudly pour and dreamin of potent drinks on foreign beaches.
Next to my love giving stolen money the ones who need it.
I'm considered conceded cuz I want to be left to live without bothersome police and ****.
I belive the only laws needed are simple and don't need repeated.
The government has long past there leashes.
Over stepped the bounds of what originally freed us.
Now greedy people lead us for there benefits.
No leader in the US cares about the little people working to keep us relevant in the world
I hope every person on planet earth thinks I'm a anarchist, a cult leader and a criminal that is here to hurt us.
Cuz truthfully I'm here to end the world's governments. So everyone can figure out what peace is in the purest form of how individuals see it!!

my mind straight, as i lay awake with you doing the same
one glance of your hips gets my gears turning
I want to run my finger tips lightly from your stomach  to your legs
your body starts moving and telling me yes
I want you so bad i pull you closer and we kiss
One time soft while we both exhale in want for this
next i grab you tight and them no questions needed
you know what I want tonight

Carr loaded with dope....
Pulled over to side of the road by a cop.
**** all I can do is hope all we get is a ticket.
If they search I'm goin to jail with the other 3.
I'm high too but I'm only here to work, I need to save cuz I got think about my baby thats on his way.
It's my first kid and I'm broker than dirt.
Real **** I can't jeprodize my freedom no more I've done it to long.
**** atleats this cop talked with some level  of respect.
At this moment he's giving us a break and a small ticket rather then everything he could.
$100 fine and some things to change instead of jail or 500 dollars in tickets

Take my winnings and leave me with my mistakes...
Brighter days be gone from memory.
I've seen the sudden loss of life that only comes with ******....
memories of happier days are clouded in my head,
I try and find a simple thought, to over think and push away the images that that staind my brain and hid so much of myself away....
See I try and be a good guy,
Most child killers do!
Most of us, not all of us but certainly some, myself  included.
Take what they see and then forget it all.
It's easier to sit in the moment, relive the trama, and resee the colors and hear the screams because after that life was gone so we're our dreams....
We keep so much away from others,at 12yo I saw a homie blow a pleading man's head off.
I don't wanna think more about the good times...... Take my happy days back.....
At 13yo i watched bodies drop after I took the shot I was told to take.
How can I see there fate so suddenly come to an end, and smile at the birth of my son....
There souls set heavy on my shoulders, I say nothing of there demis. Who am I to speak apon another man's life that my hand has taken?
I'm sorry, that I at the time I was a stone and showed no hesitation, taking away the one person that could have saved us....
No I cry in my sleep... when they come back in my thoughts and create nightmares as vengens....
Others see me  distant and angry but
I just lose myself in practicing apologies.....
So when you holla and I ignore ya, or turn around and unload on ya. It's cuz I'll never find the words that'll make my theft of life ok......

Send my happiness to the souls

Dont read this, these are my words so lose interest.
Im only wrightin cuz im high, I been up all night
Dope in my pipe, only reason why's cuz sleeps a waste time.
Im Livin my life fast in a way I could die any day
Turn a corner flash bang
With no warning RIP young dennis drain  
At one point he wrote with hope to change
Told his life story an gave a piece of his pain
Explained what he felt and gave a face to relate

No ***** with what he said, admitted that he was a low life dope head
A cigarette smokin little kid
Toddler with a joint lit
Bottle of liquor without a lid
A thief that uses quick hands to live
A gangster with white skin clicked with up the Mexicans
Low life 10 year old ballin dope money better than any man.

Raised without a fighting chance
to weigh the good in N bad in my sinful hands , parents abandoned me an ran,
found my kings crown an it's a perfect fit made  wit stolen money drugs and shiny ****

Late at night, when i was 8 or9 i snuck out all the time.
It made me free , let me release by mind from tryin to think.
All day i was stressed, only ever heard how much every body hated me
a burden on my grandpa, as soon as my teen mother left me
A trouble maker in school, i had a talk with the principal at least twice a week
Fights for fun or random beef, never would have expected so much out of a white boy like me.
Just wanna close my eyes and think, **** what the world may belive
Walkin under stars and avoiding cars while i was expected asleep.
it was all good till 12 or 13, when the police responded to a call and caught me
Long blond hair covering my blue eyes.
disguiseing my good side
A hoodlum that takes the name with pride, it was just a matter of when I would get caught again.
sneekin out late at night just to walk for miles and only sometimes get high
I just hated having aged children tell me what's right.
Can't say it wasn't good for me, the struggle gettin home late at night built up maturity

When bright days fade away darkness comes to play.
good days, once bright slowly fade to grey
making good times, once long shorten till they fade.
I've been in places where light doesn't reach and the dark holds me captive for weeks     it feels like im bein choked, i can't breathe eat, sleep, speek, or leave.
my screams are muffled more as the pain pulls me deap.
Walking is pointless when you can't seem to see.
asking for help only pulls me further into the deep
Till one day a loved one  notices a change in  personality..
And for a moment i feel saved, i can once again feel free.
Then later they leave, and you wouldn't believe how fast things change.
When you see a person who's seen as  insane remember there in pain.
Its hard  to talk to them because they don't see things the same as you and me.
But the saddest thing is that there much more likely to be profits and see earths beauty, understand arts meanings and spend time on simple things.
Life isn't easy and never will be but before you judge me for feeling dark remember you also have a heart.
the mind is a muscle and we work it hard so feel lucky yours hasn't fallen apart.
Billions of people live on earth's yard so  how can we discriminate on those who have it hard.
Im sick of seeing grey every moment I breath because people can't except everybodythey meet
Nobody's the same but masses of people still claim  harmony and peace are important to believe.
But fame and money drives everybody including me  
Sad as it is we've lost lifes simplicity's and continue to pass on our greed to generations of baby's making people into robots as we lose our own thoughts...

Grey is hard to see thru,  and i can barely see
I've lost my brighter day,
it may take a life time but when the world burns its money and stops governments from running our lives than freedoms will open our eyes.
We exchange what we know and what we have between one another in return for what we need,
If we can end the greed we can help the hungry to eat
days will have purpose and people around the world will come from the darkness and finally. see

Take my life an put it on display.
I've stood solid where others swayed.
My eyes tell the story of my pain,
Lookin at the surface you'll never understand the verses.
these memories follow me like curses
I'm drowning in regret and it's perfect.
Never faulter never slip I've seen to much to feel it's affect
wanna break free.
so take me, on a ride to another side of misery.

Ok just a little note letter for expressing without any form of lyric or poem.

So it's 4 in the morning and at 8 i have to work i haven't slept in two nights and ind i feel fine.  this **** feels good  and last a long time. I can't crack it back in my room with my girl like I'd really like. I'm sick of sneekin to a shed to get high we're all 18 or older and pledge can cover up any Odor but since she's the only one who

Clip full to the max and one in the chamber,
No fears can't stop a solder who's ready for danger,
rather fight with bare knuckles than wast bullets on suckers.
Mother ******* under estimate me cuz I'm white.
But see i fight big dudes like 6 foot 2 without a crew,
I'm 5'6 and skinny but still takin every hit like a man and winning!
Walking tall, back to my enemy's after every brawl,
Like If you wanna hit me from the back "ok", that's cool, be a punk, and think your bad.
I don't do **** unless I'm starin at your face.
I don't even bust my gat without steppin out my ride and gettin my target in sight.
Don't underestimate me cuz of my size or baby blue eyes,
I was raised by killers, drug dealers, and fiends. caught my first felony case at 14 and did 2 almoast 3 years in a box under lock and key!
Apon my release I kept my face muggin mean and nobody in this new town messed with me!
Police gave a warning sayin, " we got a gangster with a violent history"!!
No chance for me to explain my being,
Labeled for my violent felonies.
the sight of me drove fear into my peers And attracted fine honeys.
Each looking to put their claim on me,
but I keept it OG. and gave em all a taste of me.
It was shortly thereafter that a bad crowd found me.
Crowned me a bad *** and treated me like a king!!
Looking to me to act boldly and disregard authority.
I needed no prompting to put a ******* up proudly, where everybody could see my defiance speaking loudly.
I love the lack of ****'s I give, I'm a piece criminal and say it proudly.
Im still one to fear but the closest of peers adore me for my risk taking and back having.
One face for all to see, my attitude of **** all you equally!!
A nice guy when you take the time to get to know me.
But I appreciate the fear I instill in strangers who steer clear of me.
I'm the same as I was long before I met anybody I know now!!
I just grew 2 feet and made my voice loud so I could lead a crowd, or pick a fight with the whole **** town!!
There's no changin the true me inside, even if now a days I've tried to stay away from drama and trouble.
I'll still ****, I'm still down for a bare knuckle rumble in the streets. I still do steel to eat, Rob houses and cars for money, do drugs and sell em to.
Only thing holding me back from screamin at police while I attack em and strip em of they badge, is a woman I found that grounded me.
Gave my delinquent mind clarity and gave me my first taste of love, truer than I've ever had as a ****
She respects every aspect of my past and only asks that I keep in check,
so I can stay around make a check and and bless every breath she has left.
So I do my best and respect the limits she sets.
Never over stepping her wishes unless I know the situation best,
and know for a fact that my actions will bring less regret.
But regardless of the love I hold or the wishes she bestowes Im still a gangster throwing up 1-4, wearing red and repin as a Norteno, cuz my stripes are big I did men's work as a kid, and took beatings like they didn't happen when theyes did
I been strapin myself since 11 when I stole a little 22 from up under the mattress of my uncles friend ben.
I used it a lot! Used to bring it to school.
never showed it off cuz the point wasn't to be cool.
i had it with the intentions of smokin a fool!
now I'm 18 and I've slowed slightly,
but don't think that just cuz I'm treating you nicely that I won't **** you with a dull knife and stick around to watch you slip into nice sleep!
Point being I'll treat you with what respect you deserve but cross me an ima eat your ******. Soul for desert!!!!

From the moment of your first breath till your chest has no oxygen left.
I will stand with you in life an death...

I wasn't raised, I was only paid attention to when I misbehaved.
My mother left me to run around the state's. Drugs money and *** kept me from havin any bond with the teen mom.
A man was there,
a grandfather who didint welcome me to stay where I was left.
The man that gave me life wasn't there for any point, or any time.
I learned through my eyes, tried to follow in the footsteps of the in my life.
Learned about drugs first thing.
Respect, fear and how to fight wernt far behind.
As I grew up I was slowly caged, school and home was my only choice, everyday.....
4 acres in a farm was my place to play.
Met a man that was in deep with the gangs.
I was shown love by the ENE'Z!!
Then prison took some more from me.
Kept em away, and gave me letters from my homies talkin bout better dayz.
I went years without friends cuz my anger liked to hit em.
My pride liked to make me look like a dangerous villain, with weapons concealin as I threatened the other children.
I found out I was pour when the teachers asked why my clothes never changed, and when the kids ran away saying I stunk.
All the years I was  growin up, my feet were always rotted in my shoes.
Felt like they burnin, looked and smelled like it  to.
Age 12 I put a red bandana in my back pocket and went to school, all the scraps new!
Started towards me takin all my stuff and throw in it on the roof.
Haha I swear tho, that principal was a sewer rat too, they were ok cuz I was flamed up at school.
On day I made my uncle proud when I announced that I was a norteno too.
14 and I was facin time in prison, cuz we ran up to a punk *****.
He beat my aunt and tried it again when it was just her and a 3 year old kid.
So I cut that scrap and a homie pops that gat.
Can't even get in the house before the pigs pointed every gun in town straight at us
2 and a half wasn't half bad, sleep eat and work out
Forced to be released to family i hardly every see.
But it turns out that the new town was a gateway to ***** and drugs.
I was feard as a gangster ****, with a record to prove that I put in work.
I got bored of bonen random women every night, a man can only stay entertained for so Long in the same way.
Met a women, she was together with a ***** I knew.
Till he got that white in his controle room.
Then I swooped in and had a day wit her
That night she stayed and I gave it to her.
She came back late the next night, then never left again.
We left together , ran from  a crazy, thievin, white women only 30 days before i was 18 year of age
2 years we been goin strong, hard times hit like a planet. There wasn't nothin soft about it.
7 months in a box on weels me, my girl, and our puppy made 16 feet into our first home.
Till we found a space, back in my birth place. It was just after that my lover made it official, i was to be a father because she was bearing a child in which I had given my strength.

We're only waiting for his birth now, 21 weeks so far.

This was a little of my life. I promise tho, yours will be a great journey that myself and your mother will be there by your side.


  P.S. I will never promise the future....
I will never have power over the past...
But I will break myself into rubble to make every moment you live, better than anything I could ever physically give.

  I will live in poverty.
I will not allow you too.

I will go hungry, and feel pain.
I will feed you , and cure the hurt.

I will lose sleep, and work for cheep.
I will read you to sleep, and teach you how to be  what you dream.

I am your father
I am young, only 19
I was given no chance
I will stand so you may sit
I will give you every bit of my knowledge
I will never allow you to go without for my own happiness.


Your mother is the women  I love.
We will fight and disagree.
But love like ours rejoins quickly.
So your mother will have me standing at her side as you grow.
Together we will give you, life and the knowledge in which to live on any path that you choose

My dreams aren't your dreams, your dreams aren't my dreams. but if I dream to be in a world where the politics don't  matter and dreams come true then we dream. And me and you become us. A collective group of people who have put aside there differences and problems to make happiness come true.

You take for granted all that you got
Everything that I own I know what it cost
I take a mile and walk while you ******* pullin out phones so you hoes can talk
Your hands are still baby soft mine are hard as a rock im on to many drugs right now I can barely talk.

NOW!
not to say that I'm better or perfect in anyway I'm a loser that knows what it's like doin 4 days awake but at least i aint all hash tag snap chat she's **** hes a *** all ******* cuz you ******* didint get what you want
I never thought I
I    

I came into this world drunk an high so what does that mean about how ima die its ok tho im expectin to go only way to make me feel more is to keep up on wheat's real be never pay attention to a person who's spreading everything that they herds

Chorus×4
(×2..You better be warrin a vest.)
Cuz when I come shootin I come aimin  for your head and your chest.
(Verse 1)
Bullets cost money an I'm stingy wit my bread.
Never catch me sparayin prayin that I hit a shot...
I'm scopin
postin in the ally way.
Interuptin a ***** tryina catch a lift off a spliff
an take a second for him
but this 9 has thing for killing fake *** tricks. . .    An I got a thing with head shots when I'm huntin  a *****
(Chorus ×2)
I make triggers flinch with my intent.
Born and bread at full throttle,
living in the second. Survivin off the grams,
counting change that cowards scrounged up for back pay.
Roll up an take you and your homies bus money... better run quick yo momma says you late to take a ****...

I try and stay cool headed, dealin wit selfish *******.
Yall gotta understand that if I'm in yo whip ,handin you a zip... wether you my best homie or a the biggest punk *****.... I'll look ya in the eyes an tell ya the same ****.....
( beat droops off into tempo snare)
(Hook)
I got whatever you want,
If ya need a real souljah ima killa for pay..
Movin weight is how I was raised.
I'ma bad *** till I'm in my grave.
Making paper, poppin Champaign.
Naked women help pass time by hopping in the long  ride
This is my life- haters keep outta my sight.
24/7 I'm living 1 he'll if a life

Yea.... Look......
.                        I'm back at home,
Same town I made myself known, grown to be stiff as stone learned my lessons and paid the dues I owe.
Been outta town since that **** went went down and I got taken Down town
Stayed down for 2and a half got up and found myself in a rich ***** mountain spot
Didn't even try and every ***** thought I was hot
every eye I cought thought  they was gonna get shot
Met my girl and brought her home
J-town im back an  packin fists of stone
Since last time iv grown
Instill fear with every look I give  now I don't gotta pull a knife to look like I will
Now I just look like I did and wont hesitate to
Make the point that I ain't a kid and i don't give ****.
Smoke my dope and puff my **** to keep me from goin crazy no sleep for a week an I
Ride alone without a crew to back me up and I still got a bandana round my neck,
Knife on my hip sharp as ****  pull it quick an
Stick it deep In between yo ribs fo talkin **** its to quiet where I used to live.
I've missed my home just for the hifey **** I did
I'm back,  ready to do work again an
I'll do me and do work when I see a scrap walkin this earth I yearn to put there lifes to an end.



I'm home, fully grown and feared by most.
Left a quiet place to come back to a place I know.
Won't take long before I'm runnin this town from home
One talent I got
ownin every street I Rome
I'm a business man
I ride north side
And i walk like a boss cuz I got pride
I'm good at bein in charge makin yo business mine
Take no mercy have no fear keep your four fingers high and ride till I die
That's how I've always survived
100% fast life dark side livin
Now I'm home and gettin ready for business.

do you wanna see the stars tonight
turn off the lights look in the mirror
your eyes ll shine so bright

Hmmmm.....
                         Yea,
                               Sit back....
      When the bowl's fat,and smokin mean then  come chill with me so I can smoke Youre **** And save mine for when I need to sleep and can't quite achieve without smokein trees,,,?

A simple breeze brings me  unease,  keeps me up  till  I find and fix it,  load the **** and ****** hit it  lay down and hope that little bit did it

Throw my hoodie on...
an lace Up my stompin boots
My girls lightin me cigarette while I'm rushin for the door
She don't like it she just accepts what I do
Watchin as I run away outta view
Only thing she knows is that I'm a soldier
Just doin what soldiers do
If I don't come home she already knows that I'm either in the hospital jail or dead.
It ain't fair,
And probably weighs on her if she should have gotten knocked up with my kid

I'm a stone, from my head to my toes, from my clothes to my skin down to my bones.

I don't feel much, but I  certainly don't show what I do feel and I dont talk enough to anyone.

But I must admit that im scared as ****!

In 2 days I'ma be 19, my only love is 8 weeks into carrying my first child, I work hard as hell in dangerous situations and I dont get paid half of what I'm owed so I'm always broke.

My father just got out of prison 3 days ago and 2morrow im going to introduce him to my girlfriend.

Im gonna break the news that even tho he was never there for me hes 8 month from being a grandfather.

And I just don't know how I feel about allowing a man that I barely know having a part in my child's heart, when he could leave at any moment hurting my first born.

I smoke dope and it's what helps me get things done an work hard.

It don't make me tweak but even tho I try not to spend money on what I smoke sometimes I lose motivation and sit around so 20 or 30 bucks now and then could make me broke and leave my family without.

Im excited to raise my own child, I'm sure I'll be good but I'm young and don't know the half of this **** that I say do.

What do I do when I have no money I've already given up on drugs cuz I have no funds and   my family's hungry.

Im so proud I never ask for hand outs, I chose to rob and steal for a meal rather than ask the people willing to help for a loan to get me and my girl along.

Im scared for the future,... I raised myself and taught myself how to live without **** but I based my life off of street principals

Steal to eat, sell what you don't need, rob cars to support problems that scream till I feed em with drugs and bad habits

I won't let my child need to do what I had to do cuz I'll be there to make ends meet, but what lesson can I teach.

I could tell you *******, do drugs, steal and cheat. I could form a real gangster out of a white boy that's never Felt the pain you get on the streets.

But I stopped listening to teachers in the second grade cuz I yearned for an easy life and quick pay.

Im smart but as far as school im brilliant in an evil way

How can I help with homework when I don't know anything about half of what schools are teaching

I can show them how to work hard and build things, all the odds and ends to creating a building.

But what if they don't want to labor for a living? What if numbers are what there dream job requires?

What I even if I'm around my child resents me cuz they learn and think differently?

Im so excited to have a child of my own that I've already started talking to my girls stomach.

Im sorry if I rambled on or didn't rhyme the whole time but I needed to babble for a while about how scared shitless I am for tomorrow, 8 months from  now an the next 18 years that follow.


I promise I'll do all I can to give my child every opportunity the world has. I know I won't teach my child about my past or allow them to follow. I just don't know how to stay hallow when tears keep fillin me up and leaking out creating a a puddle I wish was shallow.

So every night before I sleep or at least by midnight I will repeat to my self the words that follow.


You are a good man with respect and courtesy.
In hard times you make ends meet and support your family with hard work and honesty.
Respect, honor, and hard work are all things my child will learn by watching me.
Sarah can teach school and other things, and I can teach hard work and Practical things.
Fear is natural an good when contemplating raising a child!
Atleast that means I want for them, better things.
I will be a great father among other things and I won't always be correct in my teaching, but BUT I SWEAR BY MY HONOR THAT MY CHILD WILL KNOW ME, LOVE, HATE LEARN FROM AND GROW TO BE RESPECTABLE, HARD WORKING, DOWN TO EARTH INTELLIGENT, AND ABOVE ALL THINGS HAPPY AND UNDERSTANDING! All because I will raise him with LOVE give TIME to LISTEN and TEACH HIM WHEN EVER HE FINDS REASON TO QUESTION A REASON.
I WILL BE A GOOD FATHER AN I WILL NEVER LEAVE MY LOVE OR MY CHILD BY CHOICE. I WILL FIGHT TO MAKE  MY FAMILY A GOOD LIFE, UNTILL I DIE...!!!!!!!!!!!




Sorry I'm just so nervous to raise a child, I had no parents, my mom and dad abandoned me and my grandfather left me to raise myself while he locked himself in his room UNTILL he had a reason to yell at me for another way I've ruined his life.
So with no money as a small child and nobody to support me right, my habits formed to insure i survived
I feed and clothed myself before I was 5. I just can't stop worrying about how I will raise a child and if I'll even do it right.

what if i die 2night who would cry or even lose sleep at night
a worthless ******* livin life by the gun and the knife
im lost never to be found spittin lyrics so profound
****** know not to **** around
im ready to die and straight props to the man who can do me in
cuz aint no easy feat to **** a G. like me
thats why i ride the way i do
i fight the dead but i dont fear the livin cuz ***** im down with the killin
ima die young for the words i speak im just waitin for my time to go
when i do the ****** who did me in just know im comin back 4 you
one by one you ****** gonna be done
**** life like 2pac gonna live it even when im gone
death before dishonor im ready to live it a lil longer but im goin soon
babby G's. how

Reach for raindrops when the sky is blue.
So that when rain comes you've already said hello and you can stand aside and allow it fall unto what needs to grow.

Simple as it confuses most as does the simple act of introducing yourself to passing strangers.

Fearless interactions and excepting simple verbal transactions  with thankfull compassion is powerful  

A hand shake a bow or verbal transaction of a greeting, along with a relinquishing of titles and wishings of happy travels

For no reason other than to make strangers, named beings that in that one moment we know who were seeing.

A lessoning of fear and a knowledge of what was before speculation and uncertainty

Has now become an understanding and an exchangeing of knowledge to lead to an acceptance and an equality without judgment or an  irrational miss understanding  of other people's actions

Introduce yourself to someone you fear and share with them  simple truths of your person  

Don't judge them for what they believe or what they look to achieve, accept and learn from them what you didn't know before and wouldn't know if you didn't allow them to speak

Around the world if we could all introduce ourselves and have respect in what chose to speak .... wars would be pointless knowledge would come from the mouths of those we meet and our neighbors would be our friends and teachers  in every subject.

Word of mouth would hold power and languages would compound into 1 tung spoken by people to pass knowledge without barriers of who could understand them

Unity would be true and currency would burn and Melt at the new exchange of ideas, stories and facts,

Our hands would help others and in return thier hands would do the same.

People would have a place to live, let live, build and learn  every possibility of what they can belive in and practice.

Spread your name without reason and knowledge without being asked or needed.

Maby one day peace will grip earth and we can all teach learn and help one another without barriers and do so happily just to convers and learn new things, pointless thing but knowledge of every thing from every perspective and every human being