My mind sticks to itself, shall of mush inside my head.
My family and friends only think they know all my life has been.
I was born to stay hidden and while I've been seen its only because im hifey
Grew up as the only kid, abandoned by my parents was how it began.
A lighter for my drugs in  one and a pipe in my other hand.
Authority is easy to define but tie me in its twin and I'll cut it off every time.
you can't expect to tell a child raised in hell to stay away from what they will.

past and future mixin in the present
makin everything we do and say more relevant
slippin could mean enden the lives of the innocent
the ones who live side by side by the life but ain't in it
never did the dirt we done but to often there's a crying mother holding her dying son
who was truly too young
never wanted the fight and was afraid of guns

Did you ever hear the one about the kid that aint dead cuz hes lucky?

He thrives on conflict, looks for a fight, likes to walk down ally ways in bad neighborhoods late at night.

Takes drugs without askin what they are cuz he lives by the motto **** life, anybody need a little extra time  I got some you can barrow mine.

Made it to 19 but 20 is a far off dream...

Yo....
     You need to know, fakes  gotta lot of **** to talk behind a door
When it's closed they know everything about you
But I just ignor.... **** ain't real till the door ain't there and haters say it to you face
Till then I'm wit my crew laughin bout askin out loud how fake is you
No worries even I when **** talk is true
In your face cowards find there place

Lets make a choice, To use our voice,  be a nation, who prides its self on patients. And personal relations.
Lets stop the politics of presidents and leaders who's voices are conceded. Making speeches that teaches greed  and preaches concepts of needed conformity  of the minority to to the majority.
Lets start voting art into the office that questions normality and helps young minds blossom and think extraordinarily.
Stop with the  concepts of currency over humanity. Our people are what matter,
let's make the world free instead of lying for popularity pleading  that were still. A great country

Yo,
    standin on point, crew full of black hoodies, red cherrys from a joint.
Heard you was snitchin, hence our position

Hmmmm.....
                         Yea,
                               Sit back....
      When the bowl's fat,and smokin mean then  come chill with me so I can smoke Youre **** And save mine for when I need to sleep and can't quite achieve without smokein trees,,,?

A simple breeze brings me  unease,  keeps me up  till  I find and fix it,  load the **** and ****** hit it  lay down and hope that little bit did it

Back when I was young, I lead army's into battle for fun.
Grew up an only child on a farm with acres to run.

Back when I was young, wind storms meant tree tops.
Went swimming in canals and walked rail road tracks.

Back when I was young, my only friend was my dog.
Ran for miles in the summer till It got to hot.

Back when I was young, the bus couldn't always come.
Jumped in snow drifts off of hay stacks till I went numb.

Now that I'm man, I can't believe kids today there boring.
Always on the Internet or play in video games.

I miss the old days, but at least I got em!
And my kid will too

Look.... Look
I see it an you dont,
Fame is my antidote.
Blowin, smokin, oh my god!
Livin life like I won it all.
While I struggle on my way
Turnt looks remindin me that I was ment to be the entertainer
Cuz I attract attention like a celeb.
Sittin on corners tradin money for product so I can get ahead...
In the struggle every day.
Afraid this waight is gonna make en take my life away...
But 1 day my face is gonna be what you see when you think of takin less than nothin and turnin it into to a dream....

Take my life an put it on display.
I've stood solid where others swayed.
My eyes tell the story of my pain,
Lookin at the surface you'll never understand the verses.
these memories follow me like curses
I'm drowning in regret and it's perfect.
Never faulter never slip I've seen to much to feel it's affect
wanna break free.
so take me, on a ride to another side of misery.

Yeah,,... Everywhere I Go people asking me to prove that I am down as f* a real as I say
All I can do comma espoma red Breakout take two steps touch chest to chest let you know it's on one and ask you if you m**** want to throw down cuz I'm always G. If you want to fight boy put them up I'm going to put you in your *** tonight boy

First off I'd like to introduce myself ill use my nick name so the common wealth can't find someone to blame and send to jail...
My uncle was like my father and named me ztickz cuz I was skinny and strong. he took care of me and helped me along. this is a poem that ill read like a song, its a story asking how it went so wrong...

So learn the words and speak along.

long before my eyes were blue and my hair was blond my father was gone and my mom was doing it all wrong. teenage girl with a big belly smokin out a dope ****. Drinkin with the hopes that the bump would be gone.

December 97 is when i came along, born ****** up i couldent tell you everything mom was on. Liquor brought me out quicker and dope gave her hope that the party was on. Barely turned 16 gave birth to me and couldent deal with thinking that her fun was gone. She was young thin and blond she wasent gonna stop until her body wouldn't let her party on.I can't recall cuz i was to young but im sure a week of rest was to long. Started out she was never gonna be away for to long.

I've got a story unlike most,
I'd like to start it out with a toast.
This is for the unknown, the real bosses never had they face shown.
For the young and old, grew up with no fear talking bold.
the abandoned soul with no parents to know.
for the self raised never afraid hit the end . And  go hard  all dayall day

Just another

Age 16

Can anybody hear me....?
Is anybody out there listening....?
**** it I'll talk to myself then....

Walkin around in all black late at night
With my hood up and my laces tight.
I ain't got a reason to wonder dark streets,
Under every street light I see stage lights and hear a crowds scream.
Quick glimpses of my dreams flashing on the corner of every street.
Wearin the same clothes I had on when I fell asleep.
My name being screamed by thousands just like me.
Can't keep cool in the heat with a black hoodie on over my black T.
Lyrics flowing from me to a microphone teachin audiences  how to act grown
Turn no money into mo money than one man should own.
Show em how to lift the rocks off an climb to top of the mountain on they own.
Seein all this on a late night stroll
Through a hood Iv shown how to be ghetto on they own.

Starin out at a world black bill

Listen up monkey,

.     do you remember how i yous to be ,
Back before there was a you and me
I wasn't looking for a chick for dating
I was a player and to other chicks you was hating
but you made the effort to connect
So above all those other hoes you was the best  
i never had to sneek around to cuddle with my girl,
just laid and waited for you to do the  u every night without shame I felt youpresence touching me and even more importantly I will never find  another girl that I love so dearly  I love you a monkey bunny

Drown me I'm evil...
Make me die slowly and painfull.....
I try to be an angel on the side, smile nice and be polite,
But I keep hurtin people  
Stealin what people work for
Say in things that are hurt full
No remorse for how they may feel

Even when nothing is more than you have
Zero is better than where you at and your all you have, you gotta know that having it bad ain't nothin but a chance.
Take an opportunity to live thru the hurt, it'll show you how the world works.
Havin everything given to you is worse than the struggle it takes to make every penny you save.
When  you never worry bout bein at the bottom
Losin every thing you own and only havin what you know. The times people like I consider  better then most feel like a tragedy.
From the first breath I took i inhaled poverty.
School was never a priority and anger was the only emotion that filled me fully.
I hated every body equally but I was never dull enough to be a bully.
Police and authority only go around humanity never seeing the situation only pressing what society says is politically correct.
Enforcing the views of the 1 percent who's life's supposedly means  more cuz money got given to the lucky ones when they were born.
Ignorance to make it on your own is taught by the parents before them.
So to end I'll tell you this.........

I was born pour to a teenage drug *****.
No father to learn from or siblings to worry for. But I'm smarter than any professor you've meet before.
I can afford to have nothing at all support myself my girl and my dog.
Cuz I learned how to mold the world
Might not have it all but I stand tall
Adversity is daily so why would it pressure me
Make me act differently or unclearly
Maby if I had been given anything I'd be different
An ungrateful little dip **** that took happiness for granted
,

Some people say
that the craziest people
are the ones who's minds are great.
And I for one can honestly say
From the bottom of my heart
That my mother might not always stay
But she refuses to lay
down  the ground when times are grey
the sun has burnt away   and everybody
In the world stopped  hears what we say.  every op

Burn me, so I can feel.
Give to me, so I can have my next meal.
Take from me, so I can see what I don't need.

From a dead sleep

I know that I'm a peice of ****,  an thats ok I can handle it..
But the 1 thing that was keepin me here,  was the though that some1 cared..
now i see... that all the time I, spent chasing you was 1 big game
And thats ok it was fun 2 play... but now ive got a say good by to the fake embrace the pain...
Pleasee lord send me on my way, drop my body onto the floor... I have never fealt this way b4.. but I know it'll be a better world with out me wasting everybodys ****** time.
A tool is only worth. What it can do and I don't see What the point is in going a broken one 2 you....

Please just take me down a path of nothingness.. I relze that you've lost your sanity waiting on this kind of **** but i won't be around much longer now ...  please take my words 4 what there worth.. and remember that I was born a curse ... unwanted and probobly better offending it all so as a load i can fall from  somewhere that never end..losing myself in the darkness of my own sin

Crept in with the wind
                                        came and went
   Came back and never left again
Till the loose ends were tight
A demon in the night who....
creeps around the bad parts of town
Stays outta sight
                                an outta mind
But handle any business I'm a part of
You won't leave my sight
I got my eyes on you
I'm watching from all side  
In front and behind
360 veiw and all the time

Look....
           I'm Sleepin hungry and im broke
Yelling  Loud as I can just to be told  I never should Have  spoke
I'm a magician blowing smoke out like indo
Controversial, **** what you know I'm universal

Yea.... ztickz!.....
    It's been a minute since I could really feel it.....

I been stressing a lot lately,
my mind ain't been thinkin sanely
I ain't wrote one word to beat in months
To much stress? Maby...
I gotta baby on the way 26 weeks along and I'm broke without job

Open up the door to a better world.
What can I say, it looks a lot like yesterday.
Where I cant see anything but a better way
Livin is simple and killin isn't a thing

Confused walkin talkin man with a rottin grave earned it ****** cuz I misbehaved no one ever cares to wast money   in your middle name when your already dead

Im still lookin at my back everywhere i walk
Pitch black mid day no sun to show the path,
My past is a constant dance of who is here and who i am
Them and now im not much but a frown placed by myself bon the faces of family and friends

Till I pass and I'm buried deep
Don't count me out I go hard  
Roll deep with a crew of 2  my girl an me
Truest mofuckers you'll meet
Ain't got friends cuz I don't need
A Heep of punks tryina ***** me
Police tryin hard enough but they don't see

Yeah.... picture this,
                                     A young kid left to learn independence.
An only child who can t

Nothing i try is ever right in her eyes as hard as i cry she only sees me being angry
Her point is never wring i swear i can give her the world but  it's impossible to make her see
All that i do to keep us living and happy
Stressed to the max but she doesn't understand  and it doesn't matter what i try to do i am never going to be what se wants me toooooooooo.........

Never found the path to neverland, never had the same helping hand,
A blind eye turned to a lost boy, a never man
But never can say he ever had a youth or will again.
an only child of two teens who never dreamed of abandoning a child of their of creative hand.
A mistake made to give a perfect chance for a perfect little boy to grow growing

For my own peace I need to share a secret. but only to those who can keep it.
its gonna be hard but you gotta to keep it.
Its a short story, a walk ill describe in words.

somewhere in a forest where man can't find it.
A path lays where time sits, patiently taking itself on many trips.
space walks with his kids, sulking over  everything he did.
Nothing leaves prints in the dirt, and follows a love of his
its said that the path isn't from earth, that it came here to leave a purpose  
It refuses to leave until the world gets it and luckily its very patient.
It doesn't end and everything shares it, with a group of friends.
I found the path inside a drinking glass, full of water from a stream crossing a path.
The water looked clear as glass as I drank it i started to see black
It seems i fell asleep  so deep i immediately began to dream. I stared down the path in awe over what i saw.
My gaze  didint change from straight untill i walked by hundreds of Buddhists praying.
there chanting was my everything and welcomed my energy to stay.
phobe k
After a life of welcoming i walked on the path and couldn't will myself to leave
And after i had walked with the universe looked inside and saw myself  I fell back to myself. Woke suddnly feeling perfectly fine

Inside the center of our eyes lies the children innocent if all except your lies
look for them please they love hide and seek.
When tears run down your cheek its them coming to silently speak

Tested by the world, i don't see the reason im a little.different,, inconsistent with my wishes
I like to do what I want to and always push it

Dark skies cover white lies as little truths sprout to huge life's of  average guys

Hey **** it mischief on the track
They told me prison was fate
I turned to em an said I'ma make it to the top livin Hollywood soaking in fame
Ain't gotta worry bout the bills they always paied
Grew up wit holes in the floor now I got security at the door
Swear to God ima make it A million dollars a year that's what I wanna be banking
Doin theses drugs got my eyes looking vacant
Another shot to the brain I'm takin
Celebrate every second I'm free cuz I know how it is when the twelve take it
Love them bad ******* naked standin I front of me and they shake it
I smile they chill for a while then they take it
Girl we can go Rollin through a new city each night
**** it lets go from new york to Vegas
Atlanta to the Hollywood hills do Coke and some acid
Drink with a passion I'm sorry I love you but theses women showing me passion
I ain't perfect I love the feelings theses drugs gimmie when these beautiful women give me attention
I'm a rock star at heart just know that I'm yours
So sick of walking to work my feet ache I wanna sit on my *** and create
Sold so many bags just tryina keep food on the plate
God gimmie the chance I want outta this state it's eating me alive every real one is either dead or inside
I know some real gangsters that won't hesitate to put you on a t-shirt over what I you said
Round here in the 208 you might end up in the mountains no headstone and no one knows where you went
Big city's leave you in the street in Idaho we leave you underneath the earth outta sight outta mind shoulda shut you mouth round here we don't care where you from cuz we Idaho grown so live life free if I to it do like me smoke green trip on mushies and lsd
Drink a lil chill at the bonfire and keep your circle complete

LookI've had a minute to think
I know it's only really been a cupple of weeks
But every moment I'm with you my heart feels weak
I ain't one to rush into nothin cuz to be honest I ain't nothin to keep
I got my demons and they settled in deep
I been doin time since I was thirteen
You can change me over night I'm sorry if tried
Ask anyone that knew me growing up if you wanna be by my side your really in for a ride
I know that I make life shine cuz I got a love for living life
That's what you love not this thuggin way I act or gangster way I Mac on you
Tellin you your body fine kissing on your neck holdin your *** like I'm holding on to life
I'm warning you now you gone learn what it is to live and die I'll make you smile when I'm around and when the twelve take me down I know you gonna cry
Just keep money on the books and answer the phone I wanna hear your voice your words warm my cold soul
Choppers blastin at the whip I'm sorry if I get hit
At my funeral burry me with a blunt keep polo G and ynw melly playin while they drop me in
Remember that i found you broken your ex man's is a fool
I wanna treat you to finer thing but **** theses streets have got me pinned
You ain't lived this life you that's good all I ever done is sin and rep for my homies that in the pen an for my family that believe in the cause it's can't stop won't stop till the better end
Brains blown out I'm starin this is life at it's end
Theses streets cold it's  90 degree weather an I'm shaking
My homies life was just taken that fentenal is gonna get us all RIP to the homies that lost the battle of addiction
Baby girl you don't know em but I know some real ones that lat in the earth
If you gonna stick around you need to understand
that I'ma die one day an I ain't gonna make to to see eighty three
It's a bullet or an OD that's gonna be the cause of my defeat
I'm trying change but theses chemicals balence me and theses lanes run there mouths and silent is something I can't be
It just takes that punk to nut yo and pull a trigger then boom I gone
What would you think?
I love you I truley do
I know I really barley know you and you ain't so sure about how beautiful you are but here to tell you
you got me goin crazy baby lats make one
I got a son how about a baby girl we talk about what to name our perfect peice of this world.
Don't be nervous I promise no matter what they'll be perfect
I got dreams of bein rich and famous on TV screans and stages
I don't know if it's gonna happen cuz I'm still used to trapping
beIN locked up is for the birds much love to homies behind locked doors u hope you see the gates soon
Baby you gotta understand I live one life you ain't never even heard half of I'll keep you safe ain't no man women or bullet gone graze your spirits
Gucci Loui prada baby let's get some designer on
Spend every dollar I got buying jewlery and shiny dimonds
Ten bands I'ma put that on my wrist
20 grand I'ma put that round your neck
Keep the feelings between us tight like you sqeezin my neck
In the bedroom you say I keep you wet
I like it when you keep me on the edge make me lust for your body make me fiend for your soul I swear you made the window in my heart grow whole
I can see your face when my eyes closed
Thuggin is the life I live pulling out sticks aimin at the ones that wishin us an early end
Opposition creepin round every corner man I swear
Treasure every moment this life ain't always fair
Bags pay the Bills so we living off of welfare
Felonies got the opportunities looking scarce  
No one wanna hire you when trappin is the only job you ever had
Robbin down the street man **** the other side we gonna take it all hope yall ****** die
Twenty-twenty me and my girl like bonnie and Clyde
I'ma gangsta she right by my side bands in the trunk I want my money high
Live this life with me and we can ****** shine
Trippin on these drugs I can see why my mother fried
We can smile for a while baby can you handle this