From a dead sleep

Miles to go,
Walking in the blistering cold,
All alone wearin  summer clothes
Pitch black night and I'm 6 years old.
My shoes got holes on the soles and toes,
The sun was bright when I left home but it's gone.
Haven't had a drink or bite to eat for at least a week.

No stoppin till I find warmth,
I figured if I went north I'd run into a store,
Now I'm lost and cold, where the **** Did my mother Go?

She took off and left me alone,
Said she'd be right back but I guess she forgot.
I am her only child so I can understand.
Maby if I had a brother or sister she would have rembered to come back.

Flat fields on both sides and mountains far of in the sight.
I haven't seen a car since my mom left that night.
I just hope someone drives by and gives this scraggly kid a ride.

I tried to wait but I ate both the cup a noodles and drank all the water the first night.
3 days in I was delirious and could barely stand.
A 2 pack of crackers and some snow is what helped me stand.

**** it I'm young enough to say the world is corrupt with every right to believe it.
Finely the police show up and take me to my grandpas.
Thank God it's warm and he feeds us.

My love has lost her way, I have been blind to her pain.
My promise to keep her happy and safe slowly  changed!
In the first days of our new love I had yet to change.
I was still the young man she saw as mysterious and brave.
I didn't try to make her smile, when our eyes meet her face brightened naturally.
This girl was not one to spend many days happily, but I brought clarity to her life.
I was her armor, the razor sharp blade that protected her frugal life.
We needed no words to make official our love, it was seen in our eyes and felt in every hug.
As time passed by i became blind to what she needed in life.
I tried my hardest to ask and gave gifts to show my love.
And she drifted further from my arms, quietly suffering, waiting for me to understand.
She needs no gifts to live happily with the her truest love.
My eyes should open and see what her hearts wish.
Without a word or question I should do as she silently asks.
But the blinds closed slowly day by day.
I've hurt the only love I've ever known in my life and to realize such brings a pain worse than a piercing knife to the chest.
I love her to death and strongly regret my blind eye.
I miss what it was like in our first few nights.
Our unspoken affection visible in the darkest night.
The simple touch of our hands made sparks fly.
So I apologize, for I was for a long time blind.
But as I gaze Apon my love is see again why I never asked but deep inside knew she was forever mine.
I stand as your blanket of warmth and shield against war.
I am tattered and worn but I yearn to see again where my first love began.

I love you my best friend till the end, my first and only love forever through everything,my monkey I sit and watch swing from trees gracefully. And my partner in crime till the end of time you one **** dime even when the police is giving you a ride

**** I love bein hated,
Havin strangers believein rumors that fear has created.
I been told I'm a demon that Satin rejected,
I seem to be evil, I speak truth to the people and only sinners except it.
**** the perception my demeanor gives to stuck  up people with riches.
I'm proudly pour and dreamin of potent drinks on foreign beaches.
Next to my love giving stolen money the ones who need it.
I'm considered conceded cuz I want to be left to live without bothersome police and ****.
I belive the only laws needed are simple and don't need repeated.
The government has long past there leashes.
Over stepped the bounds of what originally freed us.
Now greedy people lead us for there benefits.
No leader in the US cares about the little people working to keep us relevant in the world
I hope every person on planet earth thinks I'm a anarchist, a cult leader and a criminal that is here to hurt us.
Cuz truthfully I'm here to end the world's governments. So everyone can figure out what peace is in the purest form of how individuals see it!!

Clip full to the max and one in the chamber,
No fears can't stop a solder who's ready for danger,
rather fight with bare knuckles than wast bullets on suckers.
Mother ******* under estimate me cuz I'm white.
But see i fight big dudes like 6 foot 2 without a crew,
I'm 5'6 and skinny but still takin every hit like a man and winning!
Walking tall, back to my enemy's after every brawl,
Like If you wanna hit me from the back "ok", that's cool, be a punk, and think your bad.
I don't do **** unless I'm starin at your face.
I don't even bust my gat without steppin out my ride and gettin my target in sight.
Don't underestimate me cuz of my size or baby blue eyes,
I was raised by killers, drug dealers, and fiends. caught my first felony case at 14 and did 2 almoast 3 years in a box under lock and key!
Apon my release I kept my face muggin mean and nobody in this new town messed with me!
Police gave a warning sayin, " we got a gangster with a violent history"!!
No chance for me to explain my being,
Labeled for my violent felonies.
the sight of me drove fear into my peers And attracted fine honeys.
Each looking to put their claim on me,
but I keept it OG. and gave em all a taste of me.
It was shortly thereafter that a bad crowd found me.
Crowned me a bad *** and treated me like a king!!
Looking to me to act boldly and disregard authority.
I needed no prompting to put a ******* up proudly, where everybody could see my defiance speaking loudly.
I love the lack of ****'s I give, I'm a piece criminal and say it proudly.
Im still one to fear but the closest of peers adore me for my risk taking and back having.
One face for all to see, my attitude of **** all you equally!!
A nice guy when you take the time to get to know me.
But I appreciate the fear I instill in strangers who steer clear of me.
I'm the same as I was long before I met anybody I know now!!
I just grew 2 feet and made my voice loud so I could lead a crowd, or pick a fight with the whole **** town!!
There's no changin the true me inside, even if now a days I've tried to stay away from drama and trouble.
I'll still ****, I'm still down for a bare knuckle rumble in the streets. I still do steel to eat, Rob houses and cars for money, do drugs and sell em to.
Only thing holding me back from screamin at police while I attack em and strip em of they badge, is a woman I found that grounded me.
Gave my delinquent mind clarity and gave me my first taste of love, truer than I've ever had as a ****
She respects every aspect of my past and only asks that I keep in check,
so I can stay around make a check and and bless every breath she has left.
So I do my best and respect the limits she sets.
Never over stepping her wishes unless I know the situation best,
and know for a fact that my actions will bring less regret.
But regardless of the love I hold or the wishes she bestowes Im still a gangster throwing up 1-4, wearing red and repin as a Norteno, cuz my stripes are big I did men's work as a kid, and took beatings like they didn't happen when theyes did
I been strapin myself since 11 when I stole a little 22 from up under the mattress of my uncles friend ben.
I used it a lot! Used to bring it to school.
never showed it off cuz the point wasn't to be cool.
i had it with the intentions of smokin a fool!
now I'm 18 and I've slowed slightly,
but don't think that just cuz I'm treating you nicely that I won't **** you with a dull knife and stick around to watch you slip into nice sleep!
Point being I'll treat you with what respect you deserve but cross me an ima eat your ******. Soul for desert!!!!

Even when nothing is more than you have
Zero is better than where you at and your all you have, you gotta know that having it bad ain't nothin but a chance.
Take an opportunity to live thru the hurt, it'll show you how the world works.
Havin everything given to you is worse than the struggle it takes to make every penny you save.
When  you never worry bout bein at the bottom
Losin every thing you own and only havin what you know. The times people like I consider  better then most feel like a tragedy.
From the first breath I took i inhaled poverty.
School was never a priority and anger was the only emotion that filled me fully.
I hated every body equally but I was never dull enough to be a bully.
Police and authority only go around humanity never seeing the situation only pressing what society says is politically correct.
Enforcing the views of the 1 percent who's life's supposedly means  more cuz money got given to the lucky ones when they were born.
Ignorance to make it on your own is taught by the parents before them.
So to end I'll tell you this.........

I was born pour to a teenage drug *****.
No father to learn from or siblings to worry for. But I'm smarter than any professor you've meet before.
I can afford to have nothing at all support myself my girl and my dog.
Cuz I learned how to mold the world
Might not have it all but I stand tall
Adversity is daily so why would it pressure me
Make me act differently or unclearly
Maby if I had been given anything I'd be different
An ungrateful little dip **** that took happiness for granted
,

Look....
           I'm Sleepin hungry and im broke
Yelling  Loud as I can just to be told  I never should Have  spoke
I'm a magician blowing smoke out like indo
Controversial, **** what you know I'm universal