On a day like today,
everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.
The sound of regret was silenced
The past stayed behind me where it belongs.  
And what stood before me was myself,
here, now, and beyond.

Dull threads of loneliness,
craft quilts carefully designed
for souls to reap and
sew on and sew on
nail beds of fury
fists, fire under
life's lullaby.
On repeat
in my mind.
Shuffle play,
every time.

Cold hands in my front pocket
warms parts of me
i'd admit it.
Kiss your forehead,
genuine,
I fell in love with
someone i shouldn't.
And saw our fate
flashing lights before us
peripheral view,
I ignored it.
Kept bliss in motion
in ignorant standstill
earthly desires
pinky promise,
flushed in rouge
severed faster
than i wanted it to.

Killed a bug just because.
Made a mess to clean it up.
Took your hand just because 
Sounds handmade, all in vein
laid in bed, was enough.
Fell in love just because.
Fell right out the same.
Saw the sign; went anyway.  
Took a chance just because.
Felt just right to fall in love.
Fell too hard can't get back up.

Face swelled with rejection
Wonder whether the path walked
was worth the stepping 
and stomped on me
and stomped on me
and stomped on me 
Tiny ants beneath the trees 

Gravel pathway, paves way graves
Of grief collected, modern day. 
Start to say a word or five,
confusion claims his ugly prize.
behooved are those who stand alone 
In spirit and in broken bones
A walking shadow, i reign on
and frown along
and frown along 
and frown along

What conclusion should i draw,
from this ambiguous relationship
Of our failed romance
Of your persistent messages 
Uncertain of what to do 
my heart cold like stone 
With my mind like a sponge 
And my lack of control
I miss you sometimes 
In the peak of the winter
When the heat of the summer
Melted saints like a sinner 

I made haste with my affections
And you wasted no time
To uncover a secret
Left for only seduction to find 
And I let you unravel 
Passions I held under guises 
As caution blew steadily in the wind
yielding pleasant surprises 
We held our heads above water making peace with the silence 
Of our now heavy hearts 
And ever questioning minds

Yet we continued on down 
towards blissful confusion
To a book without words
To a rhyme without reason 
to our own presumptions
About the meaning of an instant
When just getting by 
Was such a heavenly blessing
With thoughts of equilibrium 
bringing tears to my eyes
After a sequence of movements later trivialized
But beneath each breath drawn 
with great consideration 
Lay your careless tongue
and malicious intentions 
With Your endless doubts 
Trapped in webs of confusion 
I followed your lead towards this path of destruction

Sitting beside you
Beneath a watery sunset
I felt your soul swimming onward towards the depths of the sea
While your body was left there
alone, next to me 
I felt disconnection between the rocks and the waves 
I felt more than just ecstasy in those few summer days 
I no longer look for answers or meaning in life's episodes 
I merely ask for solitude 
After its over