And my heart screams 'leave me alone'
but a smile protrudes my mask of stone.
Everything hurts, beyond belief
but it's the happiest, kind of relief.
And that is the paradox you,
I don't want to talk, yet I love to.

Your eyes are still the same grey-blue
In every way you are still you.
Yet your smile’s not warm, your voice not soft
You’re not sending, my heart aloft.
"I love you, I always will"
Yet looking at you, my heart lies still.

I guess we truly, weren’t meant to be,
Since there nothing between you and me.
Not kindness, nor friendship, nor even lust,
I was right, and all is dust.

**** it, those eyes, they aren't meant to seem so pretty,
and they shouldn't shine brighter than all the lights in this here city,
those lips really shouldn't make me feel the way they do,
it shouldn't matter, I shouldn't care, but my dear it's you.
Maybe I'm wrong, perhaps it's the lack of sleep,
baby I really hope I'm wrong, I've got promises to keep,
but with your all-too perfect eyelashes and really messy hair,
you've got me wondering if maybe I still care.

Entropy isn't quite what it used to be,
Chaos isn't really that new to me,
But how was I supposed to know,
Someone like you could endear me so.
Kinda short but you've those beautiful eyes,
And I'm thinking about you, as this poem implies.
And I don't really know what else to say,
But my dear my heart soars when you're like 'Hey'.

I thought 'perhaps she's someone I'd like to know'
and my god, I nearly let my secrets show.
I nearly told her how my nights full
of analogies of the ocean's pull,
and how her eyes shine perfectly bright,
and she looked so good under the party light,
but I retain my posture, and don't let her in,
because last time I shared a poem, I certainly did not win.

The puzzle of my life and I let it fall apart,
I cared too much about it and I let it break my heart.
But I've got back all the pieces, they just no longer fit the same,
So I'll just grab it all and take it, take it right to the flame.
Watch everything I cared about start to burn away,
and once it's all just ashes maybe I'll forget that day.

I always saw everything in black and white,
Never had to doubt if it was wrong or right,
But then along you came,  all acting so cute,
Causing an attraction I couldn't refute.
It's wrong to feel this and to want so much,
But right now baby I'm craving your touch.
Just for the summer, just a little fling,
Just a couple of dates, but here's the thing,
I think I want more, like a chance at forever,
But it's just for the summer, then after that never

I bet you think you're really funny,
when you make me sad while outside it is sunny.
I bet you love it that my pain,
goes away, when I'm in the rain.
I bet you love to laugh at the change,
just when my life starts to arrange.
I give up, and I let her go,
only then do feelings show.
Only once, I've found another,
do you point out, I don't want the other.
Cosmic Irony, oh laughing gods,
a good plot twist, what are the odds?

A dragon needs a princess, but an angel needs a demon.
This isn't a choice, I was never a freeman.
I've chosen her some countless times and will some countless more.
I'm already ready to accept, what the universe has in store.
But please don't be sad, for what could have been.
Please still believe, all that you've seen.
Go have fun, but without me.
We'll all be fine, just wait and see.

I would give my life, I would give my soul
to just for a moment, once again feel whole.
Where went the time for us? I still got the scars,
I guess I wasted it, matching words to bars.
I want another moment, or hour, or day
to be happy, free and with you without life in the way.
But what I want doesn't matter, what I want I can't get,
so I'll be stuck with these feelings for a while yet.