we weren’t supposed to
but we loved
I wasn’t supposed to
but I let you down
you weren’t supposed to
but you pulled me back
you weren’t supposed to
but you had me
and then you left

we were so young
we laughed so loudly
we cried in a whisper
we had secrets kept in our hearts
we loved
we cared
we were so young

shadows
showing either the past
or the future
for a split second you can feel the rush of the present
but in all
we worry more about what is coming
or what is lingering
the great thing about looking to the future
is working towards it
the bad thing about looking back to the past
is knowing you can't change it
no matter how much you work
so keep those shadows close
and don't look to far ahead
or behind
and of course enjoy the split second you have of
the present

The smiles so big
but the feeling so small
The tears so little
but the feelings are so overwhelming
The laughs subtle, yet noticeable
as the sobs boom behind closed doors
The silence so needed
but the sounds never stop
The pause in time
will never happen
The ease will never come
The reminders will never fade
The hurt will always come back

The wheels spinning
as the eyes close
as the muscles relax
as the shivers progress
The wheels slow down
as the face sinks
as the warmth covers
as the protection sets
The wheels start again
as the warm gets too hot
as the eyes open
as the protection fades