The time passing by
some seconds so slow
some hours so fleeting
The memories holding on
to my brain
to my weak heart
The love we shared
never ending
never releasing
The pain of your distance
is the worst
is unbearable
The thought of you at peace
makes me jealous
makes me want to join you
The people I care for now
care enough for me to stay
care enough for me to want to stay

oh how you lie
you smile behind that windex cleaned glass
secured by an overpriced frame
placed high up
for others to blankly stare into your lie
and laugh at the story
that is so broken
oh how you lie
you image of happiness

the scorched
the torn
the shattered
the tossed
the scarred
the bleeding
the conflicting
the ******* covered ******* with ******* filling
the living
the dying
the end

the *******
the lies
the fake tears
the fake laughs
the pushed feelings
the everything
is unreal
is a waste of my time
is underestimated in power
is tearing me apart

to push down this volcanic feel
that will burn anyone in the way
that will destroy everything
is getting harder to do
while one person pushes down
at least a dozen pull
if only those idiots knew
what destruction will come
what harm they will release
if only that one person was stronger
to push down this volcanic feel
is one of the hardest things to do
as well as the most stupid
because once released
(which is inevitable)
the person who has been pushing down for all this time
will be the one hurt the most
pushing down this volcanic feel
wont last long

these beauties
exuding love
care
affection
and fun
these beauties
sharing secrets
tears
conversations
and laughs
these beauties
unknowing of my feelings
my care
my love
and over all joy
when i see their face

the silence
is equal
as a slap in the face
the blank stares
is the same
as a punch in the stomach
the emptiness
is kin
as a stab in every muscle with a rusty knife