there is more than one scar that you have left
more than one hug you have given
more than enough of your time wasted
on me

yes there were others
but you only evoked a scream
or a groan
yes there were mistakes
but you were not one of them
not even close
yes there were more
but you meant the world
and much more
yes it was my fault
and there is no excuse
but know
you were the only one who made me scream
you were meaningful
you were everything
the others
were less than dirt
which is what i felt that i deserved

falling
feeling every subtle wind flow around my body
shielding my eyes from regret
lifting my heart to be hit first
laughing my last laugh as a sign of goodbye
never yelling
or screaming
not one shred of doubt
only embracing the cliche tunnel of light
flying away
as i watch the dreaded body lie
from a simple splat
lifting higher into your arms
into your brace
into your love
but first
i must feel every subtle wind flow around my body

when the young night falls
and the dreamers dream
and the lovers love
there the others lie
painfully unmasking themselves
and crying until they reach a non restful sleep

when the eyes show age
but actions speak youth

when the lips smile
but tears drop

when the hands feel warm
but secretly tremble

when the face proves bravery
but pounding unsteadily the heart skips

when the laughter is pushed
but pain is whats true

wet cheeks
drowned eyes
hopeless breathing
pale skin
trembling hands
feverish temperature
sleepy body

all of this mess
over a love
that will forever be lost

it's been so long since i last had a dream
but not long since i have thought of you
i closed my eyes
not hopeful for any sleep
but there you were
we were together
i had finally succeeded
and i got to see you for a few more seconds
we didn't say much
for we both could not stop crying
but there we were
in eachothers grasp
so happy
in this depressing world we shared
i saw you
in a dream
a dream i have been wanting for so very long
a dream i would want to last forever
but the alarm rang
and in my arms
you faded away
i woke up in tears
coming into the world of reality
i held you
in my dream
a dream that was quite amazing
and will hopefully come again
i saw you in a dream
and im sad it didn't come true