your grip of my mind
constricts my heart
to where i cant breathe
i feel faint
weak
as if death is near
your grip of my memories
pulls my heart
to where it barely pumps
i feel weird
out of it
as if im not here
you have way too much control
over my unstable heart
that seems to not be working
i feel death
darkness
as if im no more

the scars will last
but my care will not
your screams will be loud
but my ears will not hear
the memories will linger
but my pain will fade
your anger will build
but my apathy will remain

the link between us
was made so young
it grew so quickly
and bulked so strong
the link between us
was made so long
it grew us so near
and tied the knot so tight
the link between us
was rusting so fast
it stretched so far
and did not break so easily
the link between us
was broken to so many peices
it shattered so far apart
and was left to be so alone

That smile
only shown in pictures
to show to others that you're okay
though
we hug as you cry everyday
you don't have to pretend
you don't have to watch out for others
and how they may feel
That smile
is so fake right now
which makes it grotesque to me
it's not what you feel
it's what you want to feel
but plastering it on
won't make you feel any less pain
the pain and tears
will hide behind those pearly whites
waiting for you to be back in my arms
with a box of tissues
That smile
will be true one day
but for now
be honest to yourself
for how you feel
That smile
wow
That smile
i can't wait to see the real thing once again

the sun shining
the air so crisp
the birds chirping
the morning so young
yet
something is missing
no
someone is missing
it's you
oh how i wish
you were in my arms
watching this morning rise
in my arms
we would be together
gazing out the open windows
tickled by the slight breeze
and warmed by our bodies
oh how i wish
you were in my arms
watching the long to come sunset
watching the day flee past
while moving in slow motion
the breeze is spinning
the sky so dark
the lovers loving
the day so done

yep
you're on my mind
i think about you constantly
and you're not going anywhere
yep
you probably see it
and think im dumb
or inconsiderate
nope
i just think about you
and worry
and most of all
i miss you
please dont think im crazy
or rude
i just think about you
and will keep thinking about you

could you please
not give me a hand this time
i know it may be hard
but let me grow
let go of me
please
i need to make mistakes
yet you hold me close
you want whats best
to the extent
of driving ourselves mad
let go of me
please
and let me show you
that i
yes i
can take care of my wounded self