your smile fading
an effect added to this sad sad movie
the movie we're in
yes
of course
this is just an act
just an hour long act
we'll be done soon
you'll be able to get up from that bed
to jump around
and sing like you did last night
its only a movie we're in
make sure you know that
make sure you know
this is all an act
so wake up at the end of this hour
for it is only an act

the dark block rising from its sleep
resisting to break
climbing up my feet
almost like molasses
its creeping up my leg
to my thigh
to my belly
to my shoulders
i fight back
pushing down on the block
but its way too powerful
like a rude neighbor
inviting itself in for some tea
trying to explain the bad timing
will do nothing
for the block proceeds to climb
to my neck
tickling my spine
it wraps its dark slimy fingers around my neck
slowly it does
tightening
i see hope vanishing
as the tightening increases
increases
choking
darkness
i fight back
but i am tired
go ahead dark slime of a block
take my last breathe
hope has failed me

sister of mine
listen
hear me if you can
i won't let you slip away
you're mine
i love you
don't leave
i won't say i understand your pain
but sister of mine
don't leave
i beg of you don't leave
i can only imagine you in that bed
that's seen so much pain
that's felt so much gore
i can only imagine
the pain behind your eyes
the loneliness in your heart
sister of mine
i am here for you
i will always be here for you
through pain
or laughter
just please
don't leave
i beg of you don't leave
you're my sister
and i can't see you leave

so gentle your smile is
so shy as well
i don't know what you're hiding from
but i think it is cute

so warm your smile is
so timid as well
i want you to face the music
but take your time

so beautiful your smile is
so free as well
i want you to always smile
but also be happy

so wonderful your smile is
so day-making as well
i want you to be mine
but it's your decision in the end

the inflicted hallmark love is in the air
roses
chocolates
teddy bears
stuff you can buy all year
now made important
i love this foolish holiday though
with its cute glances
and little nik-nak gifts
its cute
the inflicted hallmark love is in the air
for its valentines

inner thoughts
clouding what needs to be done
outer influences
preventing me from going anywhere
your just perfect
never change
inner thoughts
containing my wants
outer influences
tightening my leash
your just perfect
never change
inner thoughts
never ending
outer influences
dragging me away
your just perfect
never change

heart racing
when that bell rings
body ready
when the crowd moves
mind jumbled
when those people get in the way
fingers fumbling
when i see your hair
temples sweating
when i see your eyes
voice silent
when first in contact
act totally normal
when the impulse is gone
disappointment in myself
when we're talking
sadness in my eyes
when we're done
anger at myself
when that moment is gone
eyes twitching
when the bell strikes again