a ghostly truck wanders street to street
ringing the silent bell in your head
with no dream
no sense of wonder
but a feeling
the alarm goes off
no recollection of the mystical truck
but a feeling
no receipt
no notice
but a feeling
the day goes on
you holding the package you undesirably wanted
no way of returning
the sun falls
while the soft moon yawns its' way to play
the bed soft
the eyes close
a ghostly truck wanders street to street...

I want to bring happiness
to let the tears melt away
to deliver laughter
I want to shoo away anger
to make it boil to a gas
to reveal a smile
I want to hold you close
if that makes you happy
I want to hold you far
if that makes you happy
I want you to be happy
so let me distribute you happiness

ive done it again
i was doing so well
but why
is this the answer to a cheap happiness
im not smart enough to stop
im too cold to change
ive lost the will again
i dont want to restart
i feel to be a danger
i want to be a safety
unstable
and
uncontrollable
i see the faces
so scared
to see the face thats been hidden
by the breaking mask
the glue is nowhere to be found
the faces still scared
not knowing what to do
seeing the monster
the creature
the broken mask
the faces still scared
no means of peace
till the glue is found

a hug
so warm and loving
a laugh
so gorgeous
a feeling
so strong
that it's weak
a feeling
that needs to grow

giving
loving
smiles
laughs
hunger
eating
... too much
more sleep
yet so tired
gloomy days
yet happy feelings
missing the family
then shortly going insane from them all
all of this
comes from this holiday season

warm me up with your smile
make me shiver with your sigh
wrap me in your arms
unfold me in your eyes
let the seasons roll with us
stop all time for us to enjoy the peace
these are not commands
these are simply part of my wish list

not that i have you
or had you
or will ever have you
all i know is that i've thought of you