the ring of the bell
is a release so powerful
so pleasing
so meaningful
the end of the ding
insists in a sigh
a smile
a sudden relaxation
the ring of the bell
is the start of something strong
powerful
stressful
time consuming
the end of the ding
insists on a sigh
of starting over
the game
of stress

cant help but look back
on the innocence
i used to have
cant help but want
the unknowing
i now cherish
cant help but get mad
at the curiosity
i couldnt hold down
cant help but to know
what i know now
and what i wont forget

the darkness
coming into play
with the heart
thats been locked away
the brightness
fleeting back
with the feelings
starting to stack
the rainbows
goodbye and gone
with the want
coming to the dawn
the darkness
staying strong
cant last
for it doesn't belong

knowledge...
is it worth the pain
is it worth the time that is going to be wasted
on emotions that can wait
knowledge
it's a curse that sadly we all contain
I want to know
but i dont want to be haunted by the images
the physical pain
the emotional pain
the unknown crap fest that will come with knowledge
knowledge...
its a curse
that we all contain

the more im reminded
the more i go mad
the more im poked at
the more annoyed i get
the more im shown
the more i feel bad
the more im told
the more i want to leave
you keep reminding
you keep angering me
you keep wanting to poke
you keep reminding
reminding
reminding
you get satisfaction
for yourself
unaware of what your doing
to me
stop reminding
poking
telling
stop

wake up
rub the worn out eyes
get ready for the day
that seems exactly the same as the one before
come home
to the same old mess
enjoy the few laughs
enjoy the company
enjoy the love shared
then drift softly into your sleep

the farther you go away
the heavier i feel
the bricks on my back containing
my love
my anger
my feeling of great separation from you
I feel heavy with the weights of
missing you
needing you
the farther you go away
the more i want you
the more i miss you
the more i cry
you've gone too far
so i will always feel heavy
feel love
feel that i need you
and miss you
the weights will get heavier
as i get weaker
as i get older
as more time goes by pushing us farther away
the weights will be so heavy
so needy
so unloving