Happy pill, don’t you miss me?
This ain’t what I’d want to be.
A plea of guilt and bruised knee.

The comfort of yesterday;
Chastise so won’t go astray.
At any cost, please stay.

Woe is me, do me a favor.
Could we undo the “before”?
Apt memories to savor.

As to when I’d say Hello;
Why hast committed a “NO”?

Tears begun to fell;
Stories I won’t retell.

Have you forgotten?
Memories ain’t written.

Never drag souls into blame.
Please act like ‘twas a mere name.

Have a heart beatin’,
Yet no ears to listen.

Last question: can’t you fathom?
Difference of house and home.

I did it, AGAIN.
Did I gain?
Made me insane.

Guess, I’m fine.
Too tired to whine;
***** since nine.

Retake my story,
Suits with your sorry;
Ain’t some kind of “Finding Dory”.

A mere “I failed”?
Can’t make it detailed?

What just happened?
Is it how you wanna end?

I’m here, why can’t you see?
Did you solely forget and flee?

Is she worth a single tear?
Lean on me and hear.

Darling, she is not your world;
Yet, risking what is not worth the hold.

When we were young, was it?
Why can’t you try and make it lit?

It’s what I sow.
Tryna be lie low.
Why did it flow?

Where have you been?
Eager to listen and lean.
A favor? Please be keen;
Better see what I mean.

Valued my existence;
A wondrous reminiscence.
Might fall; don’t do it all at once.
Or must I make a distance?

Dislike to assume,
Friends ask who and whom.
Small things that we consume,
Well, that’s the best perfume!

Cuddles made it frown for more;
Despise to be an option and an “or”.
Know my heart’s intention’s pure.
Feelings merely be felt when it’s sure.

Ain’t gullible;
Been visible.
Might be a nature,
Chances to razor.

What should be done?
Regrets when it’s gone.
Neither a toy nor a tool,
Drowned in your own pool.

A time to remember;
Efforts to render.
Merely a clone?
Reckon heart as a stone.

What more to give?
Was it best to leave?
Knew being first,
Have you rehearsed?

Wanted to give you more,
Excruciating to the core.
No one to blame nor to cuss;
Zip your mouth, nothing to discuss.

Events today,
Rather not say.

Beguiled to be;
No good to see.

Chastise forbidden;
Truth can’t be hidden.

Can it be undone?
Promise I’ll be gone.

Years of being sealed;
11:11 Please be healed.

In a blink of an eye;
Soul’s about to die.

Why’s living so tiring?
Please keep on smiling!

How is innocence?
Still living with essence?

Time Machine
Have me win.

In every pain,
Why always blame?

In every event,
Time’s always well-spent.

In every problem,
A sturdy emblem.

Aight, how’d become one as a part?
No idea; have it from the start.

‘Twas a mere smile-and-greet,
Yet changed the way we treat.

See? Involved into fight won’t matter;
Blood ain’t always thicker than water.

As sweet as favorite’s yoghurt,
Why’d know how to tame every heart?

Have been blissful through actions,
Too much with satisfactions.

As to when I’d say Hello;
Why hast committed a “NO”?

Tears begun to fell;
Stories I won’t retell.

Have you forgotten?
Memories ain’t written.

Never drag souls into blame.
Please act like ‘twas a mere name.

Have a heart beatin’,
Yet no ears to listen.

Last question: can’t you fathom?
Difference of house and home.

Everytime I see it,
Always making me lit.
I know it won't be neat,
Oh, I love every slit.

People could say it's bootless,
Lust of pain is merciless.
Mysterious and a mess,
Persecution will be endless.

What am I living for sure?
What will be my future?
Will I be able to endure?
A curse without any cure.

Why is the world so cruel?
I was innocent and well.
Those pain that I couldn't tell,
Entangled and trapped in hell.

Suffocated and buried,
Their happiness is to rid.
Night when I became the seed,
Fate's forbidden thoughts morbid.

****** tears for salvation,
Begging to see the nation,
But never take an action,
Indeed, I have a mission.

Devastated and deprived,
Will I be able to thrive?
A thought of being alive,
Verily, I won't survive.

In a twinkle of an eye,
Full of questions: how and why.
Left with no choice but to die,
Sigh to lies, now's a goodbye!

She's always laughing,
Inside she's coughing.
Mind's always baffling,
Why is she huffing?

She's jolly, bubbly, and kind,
But, what's always on her mind?
Even though she tries to find,
Still, the pain is tightly bind.

She doesn't even understand,
Will she be able to stand?
Her perfect life is now bland,
Everything's worst and unplanned.

She is now a hypocrite,
Been losing her etiquette.
Her life can be a skit,
Impossible for a treat.

She's in pain but can't be seen,
No idea whom to lean.
Her life will never keen,
All her life, how has she been?

Verily, where art thou when I need thee?
Holding no grudge knowing its wickedness,
Beseech for I hast not heard thy prithee,
Loathed life thoughts everything is bootless.
Why hast thou forsaken thy family?
All ******* up without a single coin.
'Twas wondrous to set my mom's liberty,
Howbeit never think twice what thee purloin.
Oh, our beloved father: hearken us!
Mayhap a knave like thee hast forgiven,
Mother professes good and rebukes cuss,
From thy blood endure the odds bidden,
Heretofore relationship disengaged,
Yearning to start again to have new page.

I - n case you see this,
W- ithhold pain as if no one sees.
I- n case you miss: presence of mine.
L- ending ears: Oh, never will I decline;
L- urker in the shadows; heard those screams and sobs?
S- tarved memories' bidden to fade,
T- oday, as the sun sets free, let me also be.
A- ches cringe to replenish mystery and woe!
Y- esterday's promise, will you take me albeit it's a no?

Don't know what I feel,
Is this feelings real?
Emotions to conceal,
Hoping to stay still.

Wondering why me;
I'm as bland as tea,
As noisy as bee,
Hide, run, even flee.

Your love made me cry,
You won't satisfy.
Even though we try,
Still bad to defy.

I've been loving you,
Everything's bad too.
I can't let you go,
Having any clue?

Why is it so hard?
Can we just be glad?
No rights to be mad,
Or should we just nod?

Shall we start a new?
Renewing the view.
Before we could knew,
Love started to hue.