I know I love you,
With the tears running down my face
From joy my heart felt

I know it’s always you
No matter how deep the scars are
Nothing completes me than you

I know, because it’s you.  

-Yv.

How can a monster be under my bed
When it’s all in my head

I was being punished
For something that wasn’t my intent
All the hard work and effort sent
It was never replenished

I’ve lost more than I gain
After all the sacrifices and i’m still in pain
I’ve felt this once
And I’m feeling it in tons

Do I fight or flight again?

I was mad at them
as I smell the spirit of alcohol,
as I cough on the smoke from their cig  
how they choose to be on their own

It was something that I never understood
Until,

I was starting to get mad at myself more than I was at them..

How is it fair?
With the life there is to bear.
All seem to well
Then suddenly all seem to fell.

It's not "a rather be" question
but wishing to not have the option
As little by little you get lost,
the bigger the radius of being anonymous.

Would it be greedy?
To want things a little bit steady.

What should you feel?
When you’re expectations wasn’t reached.
The pain consumes you
while they don’t even have a **** clue.

Is it the mind that is selfish
Or the heart that is defenseless?
Oh what a shame it is to feel like this,
All I want is to fix this mess.

If I just knew, I’d like to start anew.

As long as there’s a little light in front of me,
It will be enough to save me from my sanity.

No matter how dark, how void
A little light, a little movement
Wind stronger and stronger
Mind goes wilder and wilder

Just keep going, darker or blur
Just keep going, further and further
With every sigh and deep breaths
Tighter and tighter, I grasp

Alas, a striking light has woke me up

Pitumpu’t Lima,
‘Yan ang taong nandito ka.
Ngayong upos na ang ‘yong kandila,
Ilaw mo’y ‘di na mapupundi pa.

Huling gabi mo na ngayon sa’yong tahanan.
Ngunit ang buhos ng ula’y parang wala ng katapusan.
Hindi ko alam anong gusto ng kalangitan,
Subalit bakit ito’y tila nakatatahan.

‘Di ko lubos maisip na sa kinabukasan,
Eto na ang huli kong masisilayan.
Kung gaano sana kalakas ngayon ang ulan,
Lahat ng ito’y hihina rin sa kinaumagahan.

O kay dagli ng iyong paghimbing
Sakit na ‘di mo mahahambing.
Sa kabila ng hirap na ‘yong dinaing
Lahat ng ito’y ‘di na sa’yo makararating.

Sa larangan ng sining,
Kami sayo’y nahuhumaling
Iba ang taglay **** galing,
Isa kang batikang itinuturing.

Sa mga obra **** iniukit,
Pasasalamat ang aming sambit.
Mga ala-ala ng bawat saglit,
sa puso’t isipa’y nakaguhit.

Hindi man kasing husay at talentado,
Larangang ito’y patuloy na isasabuhay ko.
Pinapangako ko, aking Lolo
Sandali nalang, Apo mo’y magiging arkitekto.

Kung kami ay maglalambing,
piging ang nakahanda sa’yong paggising.
Tiyak ngayon atensyon mo’y sa lola nakabaling
Kung mayroon lang kaming isang hiling,
Ito‘y muli kayong magkapiling.

You were so drunk,
     You finally saw how much I love you

You saw how much I cared for you
     How much I really love you beneath all hue

You finally apologized for hurting me
And Promising not to hurt me, irony

I wish you were more alive when you’re sober
     Or I’ll just wait for alcohol to takeover

I wrote words I could not speak
I talk to you as I write this poem

As soon as I get better,
I hope for more than just a response

I could not bear the thought of us apart
But, Why do you keep on breaking my heart?

Holding on or letting go.
Both those things I can’t imagine doing so.

Time may heal me.
What would it bring to thee?

You may hate me more
I’ll just love you more ever than before

Realest thing will not always be the best
But it will be the things that’ll pass your test

Some things might go on
But some things might left gone

I’ve give you what I have most
But you lead me to get lost

I hate the way I wanted to be with you more than you’ll ever be.
I hate the way I talk about you more than you’ll speak of me.
I hate the way I’ve always thought of you when I never crossed at yours
I hate the way I sacrifice things without your appreciation.
I hate the way you talk to me when I cry in pain.
I hate the way you walked out on me when everything’s messed up.
I hate the way you get mad more than I should be.
I hate the way you can’t fight for me and just apologize for what I am.
I hate the way you make me feel bad of loving you more than I should have.
I hate the way I still love you more than the pain I never thought I could bear.
I hate the way I feel that I love you more than you’ll ever be.
I hate the way I feel.
I hate the way I feel selfish and selfless at the same time.
I hate the way I prioritize you more than anyone else.
I hate you but I hate myself more for not hating you as much as I love you.
It will never be the same.
‘Cause there is no amount that would be greater than the love I have for you.
I hate myself more than you’ve ever love me.

It was the night you held my hand.
Every sound, every feels and every beat of my heart in me.
All of that have come to froze.

I knew that night, oh troublesome.
But, I guess I’m a dead fish
That will go with the flow of you.

I guess love has gone through my veins
And nothing could fill me up
But the smile you light my face

And now years has passed
I don’t know if you know the feeling that grew in me
Love has aged me

That time when everything froze
It’s my heart  that melt the most

Life drown in tears
Eyes feel like it’s pierced
Hands that are cuffed
Words turned to a bluff

Harder to express oneself
Of a life a cry for help
Distance to other people
Heart just started to crumple

Not alone is what thy know
Presence is just for show
Too much sensitivity
Torpidity is what it cost me

Depression, it chokes them
Crying has been my anthem

For the nth times now,
I don’t know why and how
Popping like a popcorn,
In my heart there comes a torn

Everything seems alright
But suddenly it blurs the sight
I held you in my arms
And felt the crystal charms

I hurt you even there
Seeing you cry, I could not stare
This time you gave me kiss
But I give you just a miss

I owe you an apology
My heart did not bear the misery
But don’t you worry, Sweetie
My heart still have thee

Ten and counting..

Ten years in the making
That’s how our friendship is binding
A sister in no relation at all
And a friend you can always call

Old times, sunrise before our class
And the sunset that lies above us
Waiting for you to go out by morning
And still waits for you to get in at evening

With all the bffs that have ended
Our friendship will never be neglected
God has given me a friend
And so thus my love and care to send

Writing rhymes
              doesn't make me a poet
Singing doubles
              doesn't make both duet
Heroes who still lives
              doesn't make them yet

Do recognition comes with death?

Significance is what matters
popularity's just for entertainers
Not that it's bad
But take a look on what we had

Appreciating what had lost
But not having an eye for what's most

We cannot blame someone, not for what they do or feel
None of us should be
We hold our grudges for so long
No one could blame us for being strong

None of this world is non worthy of attention
Maybe someone is too worthy of appreciation
Someone who's to love and care is its intention
Maybe it is one of the persuation

Coming home on the weekend
It is not what I intend
A weekdays full of pretend
Kind of party I attend

Communications we have behind
These agents make fallacy of kind
Sharing is what they find
But giving's not they bind

Resistance have been a skill
For my life to be in still
An empty glass to fill
A life one hell of a thrill

They see stars above me
Haven't they thought of me lately?
Maybe this life is in remedy
Or maybe pass as comedy

The same age that I am today
Is for how long you've been the best mother one could pray.

My heart wouldn't beat this fast
If it weren't for your love that lasts
Time may be changing me
But my love and respect wouldn't for thee

You showed me how beautiful life could be
As I saw you the first time my eyes could see
I may be an ache in the head
But you care for me instead

A decade and eight
That's how long you've carried the weight
If there's one thing I want to pay, mother
Is the love you gave us so tender

For so long, I've been reckless
But you fix me like a mess
If there's one thing I want to say, mother
Is that, I'll love you forever


If there's one thing I want to stay,
It is you, my mother.

I've always dreamt of you
Maybe it's what we could have been if we had continue
I never thought I would miss you this much
For so long I've been thinking of you and such

You were a mistake I don't regret
And a thing my heart won't forget
You were my angel in blue
But then, I let you flew

I may doubt myself a few
But, I knew myself with you
Just another me and another thee
A memory held like sea

Calming yet terrifying
Calming to have you
But, terrified of losing
Not just of thee but of me, too.