How can I ever dream to save you
When I can't even get rid of this unhappiness inside of me...?
These haunting regrets, this miserable pain
I'm sorry for hurting you,
But I wish you'd say that too.

Maybe it's an eye for an eye
Payback for everything I've done
"Only I understand how you feel."
Those bitter words that you whispered in my ear
But you're the one who made me this way

And still, I love you all the same
Even when you hurt me,
No matter how many times you do so
Over and over again
I feel guilty, like I owe you something
Like I deserve this.

So even though you're sinking,
Drowning in your endless sins
I'll stay forever, by your side
In this lifetime, in every single one
I'll always be with you.

And for all of eternity
Until the end of time, I promise
I'll live for you, I'll die for you
I would do anything for you, my dearest
Now this, I say—
is true love.

squeezing an answer from this rotten mind of mine
peeling back the layers, the lies beneath my flesh
the bitterness between my eyes, reveals its true form
sourness wrapped in sweet epiphany
a hollow, trifling cacophony, kisses in the sweltering summer
buried these complicated memories under the fruit tree
a sympathy of half-truths, this white flaking skin blossoms
take a bite, see the way i melt under your gaze
but there's much more that meets the eye
these tears that run down your chin, revel in a thirst-quenching relief
and even if you insist it so, and have all the branches lined up in your favour  
in the place where you first met me
i'll submit to this confession, and take refuge in my admission of guilt
my dearest, the blood i bleed is crimson
not like what the world used to believe—
it must be orange.

life will get better, the lies you must tell
maybe it will, i know it won't
i understand how you feel
don't lie, and make things smaller than they seem to be
people will miss you
because of what they've forgotten to do
cherish this time we have left
you never know which day will be your last
but this sin i've committed
it feels liberating, it's the first act i've completed with my own free will
red dots, red lines pop up
idly passing by, ignored for the lights
the way the sun rises, the way the body passes
seeing the world for what it is
i love you, these words uttered too late
i am already free, exhausted from the fighting
yours truly, my sincerity
how have you been?
good, i lie—
but i wish life could have been better.

thank you for the memories you have gifted me
thank you for the times i cherish deeply
i missed you so much
between every line, every wall of text
every waiting blue sky, every waning blue interest
eventually you fade away, like all good things
maybe i’m wrong for clinging onto you
trying to hold you tight, hoping you wouldn't let go
but even my best efforts were futile
you slipped away, so quietly i couldn't do a thing
every laugh, every smile, back when times were simpler
i miss everything so dearly, so **** much
but i can’t take it back
no matter how much i try
the only end i see is a goodbye
to my memories, my forgotten past
the only thing left is a farewell isn’t it
this wasn't my intention, not at all
maybe its better this way
to disappear without a word
so you don't feel an ounce of guilt
you can sleep on peacefully
just like i have when i flew with
my clipped, broken wings
why did i try to fly?

in my death, you seek closure
and now, you will blame everyone but yourself
i know you will
i give up, im done
see me no more
perceive me no longer
then i can rest easy
closing my eyes one final time

the sun rises from the horizon
just these thoughts
this tightness in my chest
every single second
it ticks by slowly
passing away
the spark in your eyes
it fades quickly
like everything else
and how you died in my memory

people should die as they have lived
as a coward, a weakling
and the ice that melts after a breath's touch
the way i have to beg for your love
like how a dog begs for an ounce of attention from its owner
loving you was an experience i rather not forget
lonely is the heart, searching for a place to belong
it finds itself in a home, in the arms of someone that knows they do not belong
it embraces you gradually, crushing your dream slowly
suffocatingly knocking every breath out of your lungs
until it's too late, and you realised you're choking
but you don't know how else to breathe
so i accepted you lovingly, despite you killing me slowly
and now i can't live without you
no one understands you, at least thats what i thought until i met you
you don't understand me, you know me too well
you want me to become like you
no longer myself