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Yitkbel Mar 2018
Did you hide your soul
Behind glass and window panes
Behind trench coats and disdain
Behind little words and a miniature screen
Behind the fear of everything

Are you always leaving
Never letting life to get too close
To be breathe in

Are you always watching
But feel too lonely to experience
Every little thing

Too meaningless in the grand scheme of things
Too much potential for pain
Too many promises no longer promising
Too much silence, that's all you are ever hearing

You won't let me in
For fear of leaving
For fear of changing
For fear of losing
The part of yourself you've open up to pain
Even though you've already lost it
And that's why you are hurting

But you can't lose something
You're no longer possessing

I am all of you that you are fearing
I am all of the lost things you still fear
Losing
Changing
Hurting

I am all of that you can never lose
As you have already lost them
I am only that which you can take back
A fragile soul still loving
Through all of the transparent suffering
Yitkbel Mar 2018
Empty inbox filled with spam
      Desperate posts with no replies
            Old friend that's just a contact
                    
Streets that are just park lots
     Playgrounds built for geese and ghosts
             Delicate souls hidden in the drive thru

Forgotten songs set as ringtones
      Refreshing the page for hours
            But nothing ever changes when you need it to

And here I am writing love poems and letters
      Never to be read by you as intended
           But keyboards, screens, and those feeling just as alone
Yitkbel Mar 2018
Verse:

You’re the footstep in the snow

I might not always see you

But I will always know

If you’ve been here before


So draw me with a pencil

And color me with chalk

Remember me when you’re here

But forget me when you leave


Pre-Chorus:


I know I’m just

Embers among stars

I know I’m only

Leaves within fleece


Chorus:


But I can be your silence

Till all language cease to be

But I can be your mindless tune

Till all songs lose their melody


Verse:


You’re the wind in the willow

And I’m seeds of memories

Forsaken in the furrow

Waiting to be set free


So hum me like a wordless song

And mold me with dust and rain

When you cease to be near

I will also cease to be


Pre-Chorus:


I know I will always be

Flecks of color

On your masterpiece

The words you’ll never speak


Chorus:


But I will be your lighthouse

Till all land becomes the sea

But I will be your canvas plain

Till there’s no more scenery to paint


Outro:


Even if you’re just my fragile love

Even if you’re just my butterfly dream

Illusive murano flower never touched

Elusive hummingbird among twigs and leaves


I will always love you

Till we are stardust of

Once upon dreams
Yitkbel Mar 2018
I tried to water your love
The fragile dandelion
With droplets of my warm tears
To shield you from the
Scorching cold rain
The needle sharp pain
Of harsh words and unsaid things

I tried to carry your pain
The untouchable seeds of living
From a distant plain
For fear of shattering
Your soulful wings
If I breath too closely
With my unkempt wind
of gathering dreams

But, I only see you withering
Your heart shriveling
Your souls escaping
With the dust and rain

So I finally decided

To set your dreams free
Unbind the tightening blue strings
Of my own butterfly dreams
Let them spread their reluctant wings
And carry yours along the wind
Towards the land of forsaken things
As our souls dance and sing together
Carefreely unseen.
Yitkbel Mar 2018
It was always time
Time, time, time
Today, tomorrow, Saturday
Getting to work on time
Knowing when to be where on time
Counting days, hours, minutes
Seconds just to catch up to
One fleeting moment
Every single day
And forgetting all sorrows
Just for a pinch of happier memory
That went away in a flash
And was no more
But fading images in a
Still chasing mind

I became obsessed with time
With an hour, a minute
A date, a line of numbers
I wish to repeat  
In the same space-time
With the same gravitational object
In an everlasting event
That would pull me closer
Than my fear had ever let me

I even loved waiting
Anticipating
The knowing and inevitable
Disappointment that
Replaced the minute excitement
Of the once upon a time
I tried so hard to reverse
Knowing that
Even if I could alter the fabric of reality
I would never change
Fearing the loss of you
I’ve never had

Still,
I am waiting
Anticipating
Missing
You
Yitkbel Feb 2018
While you were chasing the stars, did you ever think of the ember readily inside my heart?

While you were seeking the golden fleece, did you ever think of the blanket I weaved for you with every last leaf?

I cannot fault you,
For chasing affections that are hard to come by
For knowing
That even if you ignore me until the end of time
I'd still be there for you at the very last sunrise.

Why worry yourself with something you can never lose?
Yitkbel Feb 2018
I finally realize
My dream was never
To break away from
The world
As stardust of
Once upon dreams
Waiting to be reborn
Into the hearts of
A billion souls
That will touch upon the world
As it has never touch upon mine

But to take the storm of the universe
With all of its glorious aches and sorrows
Not for the world to one day remember me by
But just to able to shield one fragile little star
Within the palms of my hands
Savoring the warmth
Of giving all of your love
To a singular seemingly insignificant
Being

To not refuse the world
Or one day
Be a bigger part of the world
But to cradle
A World in the soft palms
Of my callous hands
Giving it all
Keeping it warm
Against the howling wind
Of indifference
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