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Syddy Raye Mar 2014
You I love and could never hate.
I remember when we kissed on our first date.
I wanted more but you pulled away and said, "It's getting late."
I kissed you again and said, "I live you."
You smirked and said, "I love you too."

The next day I open my locker to find a note saying, "I will love you forever."
I blush and kiss the note.
I can't wait to be locked in your embrace,
My sweet entranced lover.

You knock on my door with an arm full of roses.
I grin as he poses and knee;s to the ground.
I star to cry when you say you want to make your love profound.
As soon as we kiss, and you leave, I call my freinds and our love is heard all around.

Three days later you call me and ask me to meet you at the park.
My stomach is full of butterflies because you wan to meet after dark.

When I see you my heart skips a beat.
Your not alone.
I know you can see I'm confused but you can't feel the heat.
She holds up your hand, tightly bound in her's.
I can't help but cry and my hearts so broken it pours.

You tell me your sorry.
She says don't worry.
I say I hate you.
Though, I never really could.
She kisses you.
If I didn't have a record maybe I would...

I wanna' know why.
We we're so happy.
I know it was kind of sappy.

She pulls you in for a deeper kiss.
I just can't resist.
I lunge for her.
I don't hear your whinny pleas.
I punch her over and over, feeling my anger slip away.
You pull me off of her as I slap ypu and dash away.

I try to hide my saddness.
When I get home no one will notice but I refuse to show weakness.

I said I hated you.
I thought, Why?
Why did you betray me?
Just the other day you said you loved me.

I dumped the water out of the vase and threw your roses away.
I hoped, Like the memory, of you they would decay.
Why?
My heart aches with what pieces are left of it.
You broke it as you saw fit.
Why?
Do I get an answer?
No.
Syddy Raye Mar 2014
I desperately want to love you..but I'm afraid that if I get close again..you're going to hurt me. I'll just let you do it too...because I'd rather love you and be hurt by you than try to be with anyone else...but I'm not sure how strong i can be if my foundation keeps collapsing...I hardly ever tell how I feel because I can't take the chance of hurting you with my words, the thought physically makes me sick...that I could even remotely hurt you. So, when I actually do have something relevant, you'll still probably never hear it...I hate how I feel utterly helpless... I feel like I can't do anything to help you and honestly, I just feel like I'm a huge bother to you and you just keep me around because you pity me..sometimes I think you hurt me on purpose, but of course, I would never say that to you..I just couldnt..so a rant to myself on this is as good as it's going to get..just remember, I still love you, even if I do get secretly mad sometimes...I'll love you no matter what happens..
Syddy Raye Mar 2014
I'm disappointed once again. 
They just don't seem to understand. 
They're causing so much pain.
And I've tried, oh I've tried to lend them a helping hand.
As I watch them doing stupid ****, 
I'm fed up with all of their lies.
I'm so done with it. 
I can't take another one of their pointless goodbyes.
They say they love us
But then why 
why won't they stop?
I'll give them up without fuss.
Maybe they'll change their ways
 If they're confronted by a cop.
Syddy Raye Mar 2014
Once upon a time there was a beautiful girl.
A beautiful girl who never cried,
Never whined,
She could only smile.
She smiled and smiled,
But all the while
She inside began to break,
Her heart,
Her soul.
Just another fake smile
To walk the sad sadistic mile called life.
Until she let go.
She sat in silence,
Her ever-longing urge to stop,
Smile still on her face,
Watching,
Waiting,
For her pain to stop.
Then with one last icy chill,She smiled one last time,
Before she said goodbye.
Syddy Raye Mar 2014
I want to do something crazy
Something no one expects of me
I want to watch their faces as they lose the respect they had for me
I want to smile as I destroy myself, in hopes of bringing you back to me

Every last goodbye kiss we shared
With all the scars we tried to heal
Each of us wondering which one really cared
Which one one understood how the other would feel
Saying whatever comes to mind
Just to keep the mood soft and kind
Neither of us dared to bring up the truth
We only smile and pretend to be happy when really we're just blind

So, please wake me up when this is over
Shake my heart and make me believe I'm safe again
And as I scream and cry you to prove it
Hold me
Hold me and tell me all the lies I need to hear
Please forgive me for the disbelief
But it was you...
You, who was my biggest fear

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