We seek shelter in a great storm
Whilst leaving flowers to await the rain.
We seek the quiet comfort
All we need is a little pain.

Bring me to life again
I’ve led myself astray
and for too long been dead.
Please bring me rain.

Wipe the scales from my eyes.
I’ve long missed the sunshine.
Every day has been a miracle.
Time at last I see the light.

Irony.

Holds me tight while the earth sinks.
How I was afraid to crumble,
But the world does around me.

At the end of the rope
It’s all suffocating me.
Deciding to loosen its grip,
Or on the other side, hang from a tree.
It’s suffocating.
Help me.
Set me free.

There’s nothing poetic about how I feel.
There’s no beauty in losing all hope.

I am just another drop in the ocean.
Just another grain of sand.
I need to be treasured.
But neediness is all I am.

How can I be humbled?
Can God see this in comedic fashion?
Can He see
That I’m all alone in this

I’ve seen You in the past
I’ve seen You through the most
But God, oh God
I just can’t see you in this.

I’m stilling holding on to this guilt and shame
Waiting to wash up on shore
And be the cleansing someone else awaits.

At least then I might be useful.

I just want to be valued
I just want to be found.
But like that sand on the beach
I’ll never make a sound.

I’ll just lay down and burn.

All aboard
For better shores.
You won’t neee ores so
All aboard.

As we set sail
Don’t forget you’re the one
Who boarded a wayward vessel.
We’ve sailed far apart
But the sea that carries you holds my heart.
All I love I gave to you
Breath from my lungs- the wind that takes you.
And now what can I do?
I can’t find a way to hate you.
My muse.

So now what?
What can I do?
Try finding ways to hate you.
Now what can I do?
Can’t captain life without you here.

It was just a dream
It was just a dream
But **** that dream was pretty.
You’re just so pretty.

What else can I do ?
I found a way to hate you.
I’m ashamed and I hate how
I’m happy where I am now.

You’ve always been my anchor.
I hope you dont always hold me down.
So sink me, my pretty wave.
As you sail away I’ll start to drown.

I’m not the pills I put in my stomach
I’m not the sickeness spilled out on the bathroom floor.
It’s so hard to admit this
But you’ll always deserve more.

I made peace with my deep rooted misery.
Without a leg to stand on
I’m a double amputee.

You look immaculate.
Without blemish on your cheeks.
So immaculate.
A perfect poem, never ending, I could never read.

I’ve been wondering
“What if the wind took me?”
Lost in a “what if a wave swept in and pulled me underneath?
Would it bring relief as it smothered me?
Would I finally be so happy I forget to breath?”

My truest dream,
Who knew you’d give me life
After I waited so long
So long for the death of me?

I’m so happy, to have ever heard you speak my name.
Let’s get lost together.
Our life a perfect picture
Dressed in a silver frame.

You look immaculate.
So immaculate.
If the world split
I’d jump the gaps
Just so I could get to you.

My heads in the clouds
I hope I never come back down.

I wish you'd have dug your nails deep into my skin until my blood warmed your hands.
I wish you ripped me in half until all my lies poured out like water for you to drink in.
Just drink it in.
Ever dreaming of crumbling into your arms and feeling sorry for staining your shirt.
Let my inconsistencies, my failures, my lies, and insecurities evaporate into the sun.
I wasn't lying when I said you'd hold that piece of my heart.
The courage to set myself on fire as evaded me.
No matter the pain, it'd be poetic justice to feel the sting of death and letting the grave hold its victory.
Which would you be?
The matches or the gasoline?

You could call me a coward
Since I've been too scared to sleep,
Both when the sun is shining
And then when it leaves.

Call me a liar
While trapped in a snow globe
You waited till your lips turned blue
since the winter is all we have left to cling to.

Call me a hypocrite
Say I look just "like this"
Show me a caged bird
With both wings clipped.

Eyes like the spring,
Hands like summer
With a heart like autumn
And all I want is the snow.

I couldn't hold on
As my hands withered away.
I couldn't give a single thing.
All I did was take.

Watch from a distance as I wither away.
Smile as you stand six feet above my face.
If I make it to heaven, I'll just wait.
Waiting for our souls to collide, but for now I'm just dead weight.

My soul sits shackled to you.
I'm a slave that can't serve his purpose.