Why am I not asleep?,
Thinking about the day during my night,
Thinking about if I wasted time or was it on my side...
I got an old flow but new vibe,
I got an old soul but new eyes,
At times I get a little grumpy,
As if I’m older than what I am,
Sometimes I question myself “who am I ?”,
I’m so surprised of my actions,
So alive no need for subtraction,
I try to add more excitement to my life,
I couldn’t find any instruction attachments,
The fact is half my life has too many fraction,
I’m getting so tired of all these mathematics,
Wondering why everything happens for a reason?
The answer to that equation that life changes during the seasons,
Nothing is never the same but to me it is,
Because at times I don’t like to take a risk,
I look back at my moments as I wish,
I wouldn’t of missed because I misunderstood,
Those moments I had when I wish I could,
Doubt is trying to creep up,
So now the outer me wants to speak up,
Trying to keep the enemy from the inner me to meet up,
It takes so much energy to keep up,
Times of the fashion,
Why didn’t I force the situation with my actions?
Why didn’t I take that leap?
Why am I like this?
Why couldn’t I just fight this?
Now, I live my life through cellular devices,
I can’t ask Siri what to do during a crisis,
Siri doesn’t know what my life is like,
It doesn’t have an idea even with the brightest light,
I keep looking over the edge,
Like I’m standing on the cliff but it’s only in my head,
It’s the end of my day and I’m laying in my bed,
I can’t go to sleep my thought is causing pollution,
I don’t want my next day to start until I figure out a new solution,
What should I do?
Who should I be if I don’t want to be me?
I need to live my life but I don’t want to appear fake,
I guess I’ll just learn from my mistakes,
But how many of these mistakes will I make?...