Writing of the Unknown

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

How can I control the winds
Or the rays of the sun
Or the crashes of the sea
To ensure you'll be safe

You've gone through so much
More then I can imagine
But I know the war isn't over yet
But how can I help

God why her
She's 13
Let her be a child
And not deal with all of this

Just let her be a child
Give me her pain
If she can stay a child
For just a little bit more

My dear sister, how I wish I could make this stop

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

Its always you

Your dorky smile
Your warm laugh
The feel of you fingertips
Brush against my skin

It's always you I look for
In the nights I'm alone
Longing for a hug
Or the time
Where time stands still in the day

It's always you
It will probably always be you
And I hate it

Leave me alone
Move on
Forget I exist
Just let me be a memory

But I can't do that same
I can't move on
Because I keep looking for you

So even though I hate it
And your name brings up anger
And annoyance that you've become
A topic of conversation

My heart still longs for you
And the moment we shared
Probably forever
Loving yours
Till time do us apart

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

Beheaded

You beheaded me
stole the life from my body
a simple term
a simple action
so swift
and so brutal

I have one month
One month of finances
one month to live
one month

You knew I was struggling
You knew I was in pain
yet it didn't matter
in your game

So simple
so swift
so brutal
You cut me once more

Term for ASL beheaded

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

Throbbing Ache

Pushed down
eat the dirt
maybe then
you'll understand the hurt

Strike once
the twice
see how far
till the burst

Bind the wounds
hold them close
the blood freeze
and keep it close

Once then twice
only then
maybe then they'll see
the pain is more
then they thought
you could bear

Hold it close
never show
slowly let it out
and clean the wound

One two three and four
maybe then
the pain
can stop?

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

Just hold it together

Don't let them see the tears
Bite the lip
change the emotional to physical
Perhaps the taste of blood
might shock my system awake
or pull it further down

Just one more moment
Keep your eyes down
just incase the form
maybe no one will notice

maybe no one will notice you
and the pain you carry
when you walk through the building

Hide it with a smile
a tilt of the head
get them away
from the broken mess
you're about to become

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

Shadow Man

Your image haunted my dreams
The thrill of your fingers on my body
A longing of temporary bliss
So badly I wish to reach out
So badly I don't want to be bit again

But your traits
The anguish you hold
I never would have thought
I find once more

Through the pages I read
A story unknown to me
Our could have been and maybe next times
Blossomed on the page

Good and evil
Shadow and light
Forever entwined

I got to live the moments again
Giggling at the thought
Of a trashed hotel room
Wondering if you still thought of it too

I might not have your hand to hold
I might not get another kiss
But I can have that love once more
And you became my shadow man

Always out of sight

Writing of the Unknown Aug 2023

Am I a joke?

Look pretty
Play the part
Smile and wave
and never have smarts