the more that i drink,

the closer you're here,

the better i feel,

if i could be there.

the more that i drink,

the less that is there,

the better i feel,

i don't want to hear.

the more that i drink,

the less they will know,

the better i'll feel,

the less i am here.

the more that i drink,

the less i could care,

the more that i bear,

the less you are here,

but i'll try to be here.

Never trust your heart
Never trust your gut
Never trust your sight
Never trust your senses

Maybe then
I'll make everyone happy
When I'm alone instead

So strange

To lay so still
To be frozen under the sheets
Wondering how you feel

When the last time
Your were in a borrowed one
Was with another
And you were happy then

"Hey I'm in town, want to meet up"
                                                                                       "What are you after"
"Nothing"
                                                                                         "Don't lie to me"
"......."
                                                                                      "What do you want?"
"I want to feel again....."
                        "And I hurt you, like you said we never could mix right"
"But at least then I know I'm alive, even if it will hurt when I leave"
                                                    "You can easily do that talking with me"
"But what if I want something more"
                                                                                                  "Like what?"
"To know what love feels like again"
                                                                                                         "............"
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