Oh time
why must you move so slowly when I don't need it
and fast when I do?
Why must the important seconds
be mere moments in life
and those I don't hold dear
are the ones you elongate all day?

I could feel your hands
They way they held me close
Your soft voice
Whispering in my ear
I turned to look at you
But the empty bed
Told me it was only a dream I had

It started off innocently
Me trying to prove a point
Where there was none to be made
"Just play along, see what he does"
I was suppose to get clarity

Clarity on life
Clarity on feelings
Clarity on me

But this game has evolved
Where I now face a new opponent
One I don't wish to play

'Play along, see what she'll do'
Am I that skilled
That I can fool the one
I've been with my whole life

Or am.i that broken
That I wish to make a copy of myself
Where no one would miss me
And life continued as it is

But then I could finally
Let go of the hesitation
And finally have a silent mind
Once again?

Where no living thing breathes
But the ones who can not sleep
Where the ones whose minds run
Stay awake and think
Where the heartache becomes real
And why the loneliness sets in

That's where I am
That's why I choose to sleep

Life is anything but predicable
but the words spoken
are only a memory
held by a few

Some record it
turing those same words
into a code
a string of pixels and 1's and 0's

What a weird way to be remebered
not by who you were
but the code you created on a machine
for others to execute at a later time