Why does it hurt so much?

previously your absence was a relief
now its pain

maybe because of the way it ended
or maybe because of what was said

but why does it hurt
and I can't cry anymore???

Its funny when I think about them
Two are in boxes
that I do not know when I will look at again

and there is a handful that I do not have
but I know every time someone's eyes lay on them
they will think of me

but it's ironic
a stuffed duck is simple to hide
but a pokemon who literally hides to feel wanted
is harder to hide

when its who you are
and you only realized it
late at night when your crying alone

"I don't care that you loved me"
"I don't care that I fell in love with you"
"I don't care anymore how you feel"

But I still cared
I still cared about you
about us

and that my fault
is that I cared too much
that I loved to hard

for you to leave me
like you promised
you would never do

My little devil
The trickster who played me
In the end
You had to go

Not because of what you wished
Or want you claimed
But because of another
Who I can not blame

You and I wished the impossible
We wished for miracles to happen
And though the ending is bitter
The moment was still sweet

I will miss you
As I have years before
Life moves on
But I still morn your absence

Thank you for the sweet moment under the moon
Thank you for the time under the lights
Thank you for being a hand to hold
Thank you for being there with me

So in a bow and wave
I wish goodbye to the trickster you became
And long to see my devil once more

Perhaps if the stars ever aline
Or they gleam so bright
They might lead you back to me
Back into my arms

But for now, until you find my otherwise
Goodbye trickster
And please let me keep the devil in my heart

Many tongues
Many authors
Many pens
Many inks
Many lives
Many stories
Many teachings
Many lessons

All over
one book

One simple book