It's coming to a new year
a new year with you

We have a few hours left
but I can see you're already ready for bed

When time comes
I know it will a long night

I fear how you will handle the sounds
but I know you will be alright

A new year
A new home

A perfect home
A forever home

Though we rarely talk
I feel you near

I understand the gifts I sent
are probably the few that spark imagination
and bring back the tiny Christmas spirit

However, I look at my tree
thousands of miles from yours
and I know there is nothing from you

no present or gift with your name
nothing to show you were here

But I am not sad
because even though I do not know where I stand with you
I know where you stand with me

and even there is no present from you
I smile and look to the sky
Wishing for you to be here

Longing for you to be near
and ultimately
just missing you here with me

Looked over
Ignored
Pushed aside

I work with what I have
but yet others get special treatment
and I'm once again told I can't do something

When I speak questions
I am yelled at
and cut with a knife
called "Insincere"
and family grows smaller

Messages of love and hope
are overlooked
in the chaos of the job

everyone forgets me
so who would care
if I just disappeared?

I feel awake
my senses tingle
Every nerve of fire

One hurdle down
One more to go
Before everything else is complete

Dragon must rise
from the ashes of the past
Injured but will fly

Time ticks
Soon
the dragon
Takes to the sky once more

As the day draws near
My body shivers in the night
A chill settles in despite the blankets

Soon I will be taken.
Soon my life is no more my own
Soon I will be reborn

Every tick of a clock
It only reminds me of the time left
time left before the end

End before the beginning
Begging to end

Darkness to light
With a dragon soaring high
A protector of life to come