I was once innocent
Pure hearted
Kind at all costs
Innocent till I was alone
Alone they made me
I was a poison everyone hid from
A poison that only hurt myself
A poison that planted a seed
A new environment soon came.
And for once I could make friends
Friends who didn't run away from the sight of me
Yet the seed was growing.
A new environment with friends was a first
First time I wasn't an outsider
That I finally had a place in this world
But the sprout finally emerged from the soil.
Pain filled my memories.
Growing with uncertainty
Friends not able to understand how much I was hurting
Blood watering the plant
I screamed silently
I begged for help
trying to find reason in my upside-down life
The plant only growing more with every drop.
I wanted to be told I was insane
That this was just a bad dream
and I would awake from this nightmare
But the plant started to strangle me.
My secrets came spilling out before my eyes
This is just a nightmare, I thought
A nightmare and nothing more
The plant tightening its hold on me
Then I was alone
Alone with my thoughts
and trying to escape the self-created prison
The plant loosened me enough to breathe.
A new environment
Trying new things
People understanding what I was going through
The plant slowly weakening.
I thought I was better.
I thought the nightmare was over.
I thought I was free.
The plant quickly suffocated me once more
.I screamed for help
I begged people to see the damage I was enduring
I prayed, but no one came
The plant slowly killing me with every second I couldn't breathe.
I was fighting a war
that everyone saw
but no one wanted to help
Every drip of blood fueling the plant more.
Was I too far gone
I thought
or would I set the example of what not to do
The plant draining every bit of life I had
my vision went blurry
and all I saw was the plant I created years ago
slowly winning its fight with me
"One last breath"
the plant hissed
"one last breath"
As I felt my body giving up
slowly growing numb to the pain
the plant started to die
Leaves wilted
Stacks grew limp
and the remains of my plant buried me
I crawled from the remains.
watching as the blood that once gave it strength
gave birth to a fire at its core
A fire that burned everything it touched
everything turning to ashes
burning bright in the night sky
Soon my fire ate its self to death.
but I was not cold anymore
I did not need its protection
I was finally free
free from the plant I created
free from the fire I made
free from myself