I **** at everything I have ever tried to do. I have no hobby other than sitting in the woods having solemn conversations with myself every day of the ******* week, aloud to the trees, talking about **** I would never actually say to people. Hypothetical discussions that I know I would never even have the chance to have with people because no one gives a **** to converse with me. Soft soliloquy's have overflowed the forest I spend my lonely time in. I have come to a realization that there is not a single person who has any interest in understanding the depths of my mind. I have friends and I know they care about me, but I am truly a lonely person who longs for both amatory and genuine love. I carry out empty and meaningless conversations with basically everyone who takes the time to approach me, but maybe it's because the one's I lust after never take a god ****** moment to look  back at me. I have wished and attempted to rid the lamenting life in which I sustain. I admire nature's natural hue that vibrates within my soul. I wish I had someone to appreciate my immense thoughts. No one gives a **** about who I am beyond the words I utter to the crowd. I just ******* ****, dude. I don't have close relationships with people because I am the only one who cares about what is caressing someone's inner-self. I cant help but whisper to death and desperately request my end. Then I realize what a dumb little girl I am. I covet **** that will never be more than a mere want. My life has succumbed to pure melancholy and lewd lust.

I pled guilty
Against death's
Subsiding kiss

Oh Alice, wont you come back
Or have I gone?
Gone mad
Alice have I left
To another realm?
My brain
Alice
What have you done?

Lewd whisperings
Spoken upon
My warm body

He caresses my
Inner thigh with
Deaths punisher

Amatory
Thoughts flow through and
Out his sly mouth

I saw society today
twas not all of them
but enough to
turn my lost soul
away.

Vast landscape
in your eyes
Like the infinite
Tunnel of
Nothingness

Inconspicuous suicide
of all incompetent men-
The void of fallen consciousness;
Maleficent darkness
of what was
Now is.

inside is a fire;
never will it go out
my scars are the
only reminder
of all that was dire.

You are created
You are ended

Death is inevitable
Living a sweet life is not

Make your concious life
Worth it.

What you call
insane
Is the good
side
Of an ******
dreamer.

I want to be the one
To love you for who
You truly are.
I want to be the one
To admire all of
Your flaws.
I want to be the one
To give you
Butterflies.
I want to be the one
To put a smile
On your face
When I come to mind.
I want to be the one
You love.
Can I be the one?

Loneliness intrigues
Sadness-
Although
Being alone
Intrigues thought
In which sparks
Questions that may
Never be answered.

Leading a long journey
through her wicked mind
who could ever understand
such cryptic thoughts?
With a mind of her own
her heart shall roam
lingering into unknown
universes.
The stars in her head
were the thoughts of the sky,
the tears she cried
were each a galaxy-
all holding a different kind
of existence.
Her vile acts
were evil to others,
but who can understand
what is thought
only in the mind
of the chosen
one?

our souls
shall become one
in the light
of a new universe.

Time is slipping
away
As vast as life
seems
Your day will come.

And suddenly,
it all became apparent-
then & there.
In that moment..
I had finally realized
I will never know
why.

I will never know
why?
Why I lost you
why you never came back
it's a sad story
that I will always
dread to
tell.
Why?
I asked myself.
Then I realized
I will never know
the answer.

Reality
is absurd.

Sweet mother nature
what have we done?
Stripped away your beauty
taken away your clothes
stolen your soul.
Will you ever
be whole
again?

I'm sorry, Mother.
Our folly acts
our incoherent ways
can you ever forgive us?

My mind
is quite
like
the sun.
Trying to
understand it
will only
get you burned.

Who knows
what goes beyond
the only things
men hath
seen?

The tall trees
swaying
The bright sun
shining
The light clouds
floating
Thank you,
Mother nature.

we started at hello
and ended
in hell.

We create
all that is of
this universe,
with our minds.
Create the unimagined.

I felt infinite,
in the grasp of
your arms
wrapping
around my waist.
Gazing at the stars,
not a single worry
in our minds.
Just the love
of two souls

Lets get high
curse our fears
& make love.
For forever
is nothing
but
a word.

8 years pass
my heart is so empty
yet so full of grief.
A world
with no mother
nor father
is not a life at all.
The bliss of you both
here
is now gone.
For the only feelings
I have left,
are those
of bewilder.

The afterlife
Is nothing
But the essence of
The unknown.

the eyes rest
as the mind wanders
far
into a mystical place
of the incomprehensible.

not a single being
ever
able to explain
the story
of their
cryptic dreams.

let your mind overflow
with everlasting
dreams
let sorrow not
overcome
the beautiful
imagination
you have obtained.

Fantasy, my friend
The only escape
From this treacherous
life.