I find it harder to keep resisting
But you are so very persisting
And the light that was in me
Is slowly dimming
That little voice is so demanding
I don't know how im still standing
The fight i had within me
Is so very dead
Ive thrown myself into this void
Never knew how much you enjoyed
Placing me in hell

Into the forest
Through the trees
Past the swamp
And across the streams
Over the mountain
By the sea
Under a rock
Is where ill be.

Its all a game
Always was
Always will be
You have to play
Have to dance
Roll the dice
And beg me
I made the rules
Gave you life
Just a tool
Play nice
I wont allow you to win

Your grip on me is fading
Its not you that im blaming
I envy those
who will be welcomed in your grace
I havent strayed
but im going to lose my place
My father must be lonely
Your fires aren't that cozy
He doesnt deserve such a fate
Im not the one that made jealousy
Your trait
He is forever burning
and i cant leave him
So i regretfully become your heathen
I know just how you will judge me
And i know that you still love me
So while you hurl me far beneath
Will you weep and gnash your teeth?

I hate myself
More then you could
Ever know
Youve dug so deep
Im still
So far below

I dont mind flaws
Unless they are my own
And living in this skin
Is my condemned home
These mirrors haunt
They know my every fear
And when i look
It always leers
Reflections i dismissively
Splash away
And all i really want
Is
To
Be
Okay