There's a written rule book,
That tells me how to be,
To talk or do things,
That everyone likes.

So I left this world,
Started living in my own little world,
I was not lonely,
I was powerful.

The writers of the book said,
You're not beautiful,
You're different,
You don't fit here.
It's good that you're gone.

But it was not a matter,
I left this world of rules for myself.
Here I was not being twisted,
To fit someone's image.

I was more than beautiful here,
My beauty was not limited to a word,
It was beyond the word beautiful.

The world behind this rule book is much more different,
I'm who I'm,
I'm the king I'm the queen,
It's much more great than fitting in something for someone else.

You see that I'm hurting,
You see what I'm doing,
Yet you say it's best to stay strong.

You are me,
Yet are different from me.
I never wanna let go things,
You always say me to let it go.

I never believe in me,
You always believe in me,
You are me " warisha",
Yet you are different from warisha.

I always try to run from you,
But you are always there standing for me with your hands wide open.

There is always a fight between us,
I wanna end,
You want to live.

So let's end this fight,
Let's be friends again,
Let's fight with this world again,
Being one.

I won't turn away now,
I'll show you my scars,
I'll except you because you are me,
Let's keep this company forever,
Until we feel alright.

Guess I'm born in wrong place,
I really don't belong here ,
Everyone has a problem with me,
Whatever I do never seems right.

Never able to express if I do,
I get into a fight.
They say  " we live in a democratic country".
Show me my freedom,
Show me what I have got.

I want to be free,
Give me my rights or I will flee.

When I was in my darkest phase,
You entered my life as a sunshine.
You made everything alright on a cloudy day,
You're indeed my sunshine.

The truth is,
When I was broken,
You were the one who held me up.
You knocked on the  door  of my life as an Idol as an hope.

But now it's the time to say the truth.
I like you. Alot .
And to be honest it's kinda scary,
I don't have enough strength to ***** things up now.
I know you're not with me,
Nor you'll ever be.
Still I can feel your presence and love around me.

The thing is I have fallen pretty hard for you.
I don't know,
Will I ever be able to See you.

The only thing I want you to know,
That you're the only person that stays in my where no one has ever been.

I'm my biggest enemy,
I'm my last hope,
I just don't know how to overcome.

My mind is always on a marathon,
My best can't compete.
My worst self is hard to win.

Constantly in a state of depression,
Even if my life is best.
It's different kind of  obsession,
Loving your own hell.

One day I finally knew,
What to do and how to cope.
I began through the voices around,
I kept shouting,

You can't keep me in this cage,
Tell me lies,
Put me down.

Release me, let me go,
I have so many things to See and do.
Release me.

Every night I measure every grief I met
With my eyes.
I wonder if it weighs like mine,
Or has an easier size.

It feels so old pain,
It haunts me every night,
I wish someone had warned me when I was a child.

Now I stay up all night and cry,
The ghost of all the pain and everything I lost,
Comeback every night to haunt me.

I'm kept awake by endless chatter of my inner self.
Talking of old hurts,
While anxieties resound throughout me in multitudes.

I could be calm all day long,
But as it gets dark,
My mind roits.
The haunting memories ,
Change me into an emotionless monster every night.