i feel
you still care
to notice me

i mean
nothing
to you
but
you mean
everything
to me

always awake thinking
always breaking down
in silence

late at night
when  i know you're sleeping
i think of you
and your gently blue
eyes

late at night
i think of all our memories

i think of how we are strangers now
and how it wasn't supposed to end this way

we agreed on being friends
but neither of us tried in the end

it came down to us ignoring each other
i hate hate hate all of this

i know its for the best
but all i want is to say hi to you

you were an important part of my life
and now you drifted into my past

you used to be my present and my future
but i knew that wouldn't last

i put my heart on the line
just to take a chance

and now my heart is torn
and you're a glance gone wrong

I don't think you know what its like to actually miss someone
you used to say you missed me after a day without seeing me
I didn't miss you then, but i did want to be with you

Now its been 120 days and you don't miss me at all
i miss you more than ever and it breaks my heart

you were my drug and i was addicted
i know my addiction only lasted 1 month and 19 days
but i had the craziest high with you
in those 50 days
you gave me memories to last a life time

its been 2880 hours since my last high
i have never craved something so much in my life
like your love
you have me sitting here thinking about you
17 weeks later
you haven't even done anything to make me crazy about you

if i was ever actually addicted to drugs
i would never detox
i would constantly crave it and would eventually give in
it would drive me crazy like you drive me crazy
i cant get the taste of your lips off my mind
i need you

we used to joke around
and i said you were my sustenance
you said i was too
but i wasn't kidding
you became an important part of my life

i can live without you
but i don't want to
you make me so happy
and you challenged me to think about who i really was

i do admit that i didn't like who i was with you
but i think thats why i miss you so much
because you gave me a rush and made me live
i did things with you that i never in a thousand years wouldve imagined doing
we went on wild adventures
i was always living on the edge with you
worrying about getting caught
thats why it was so exciting

i became addicted to that feeling
now i'm back to my old boring life
i miss the old days
but i need to move on

i think i will stop craving your affection soon
if not tomorrow
then the next day
ill keep telling myself this until its true

don't worry about how i am
because i know you don't care

and when you find yourself missing me in the middle of the night
call me
and i won't answer

i will no longer give in to my addictions

whoever falls in love first
looses

and i am a sore loser

and you are a sore winner

stop gloating  
so i can stop crying

you
are stupid
you
are beautiful
you
are so impossible
yet you
are so lovable

when i need to focus the most
is when you flood into my mind
i cant concentrate
with you on my mind

when i stay up late to do homework
i find my self writing poems or crying about you
because i remember how you made me feel
and how i feel now

after all we had
you treat me like a stranger now
i do the same and i understand why
but deep down inside
i still wonder how you do it

on your good days
i liked you

on your bad days
i loved you

sometimes its not worth it
love isn't worth the risk
when you try for love
and the infatuation only lasts for a while

its not worth it in the end
the heart-wrenching pain you feel after
lasts so much longer than the happiness

i knew it wasn't worth it
but i gave it a shot anyways

Most people don't make it past my shyness
to see that i am a pretty cool person

Im actually really funny and am a loyal friend
but you will never know
because you gave up on me

your loss.