Staring Down
Squinting my eyes
Trying so desperately to see outside
So many colors fading into shades of grey
I can no longer determine the time of day
Am I doomed to reality only being a guess
I need to know! No longer feel depressed
I pick up a hammer and shatter the glass
The glass that represented my past
The past that wanted to blur out my future

Do I have time?
Or does time have me?
No matter how much I think
I can not see
I can not perceive
This concept beyond myself

A door with the face of gold
Covered with priceless jewels
Opened to discover the paradise Ive been told
Turned out to be a lie to lead me to my doom
Everything with the definition of beauty is fading
The ground giving out from under my feet
The things I love I find myself hating
This cannot be my defeat
The fabric of reality is being torn
The definition of life is meaningless
I should of never opened that door
My vision blurred from all the mist
Another door I hardly gave a glance
Began to call my name with the faintest voice
I told myself I'm done with this dance
He said it was my choice
I gave the door a knock
It flew open wide
in shock
I realized it was my turn to die
And in doing so I live
Not my life but His
I have found reality
The void in my heart filled
With peace I am still

Fear
is a choice
the absence
of trust
But having faith
In another is a must
Are you really protected
All on your own
Or are you not able to see
Through your heart of stone
You long for it
But you ask yourself
How can one desire
The very thing they fear
That's actually quite
a common thing dear
But you have to choose
To no longer hide
To finally show what is inside
Of you