You told me you love me and I said I cant stay

You put your hand on my chest and told me it was okay

I told you to run and get away

Before you get to know me

Before you decide to play

The confusion of this delusion

Is causing a defusion of my sanity,

Why must you torment me with your calamity,

I’ve only taken trips to the lands of make believe,

You filled my head with lies of all I could have achieved,

You blinded my eyes with the strings you used to manipulate my heart,

And as you pulled you tore a pieces of me apart,

A smile on your face with lies on your lips,

You really thought I’d bend the knee whenever you shook your hips,

Like a rotting tooth I had force myself to remove knowing I’ll never recover from the pain,

I came back to reality not feeling the same,

I left too much of me in your fantasy,

All that’s left now is a shell of what used to be me

Keep cutting deeper, until you find my salvation. Cutter deeper still, until you cure my starvation, There’s no one left to confide, No one left to confess to all the horrors kept inside, Don’t stop, there’s no time for doubt, Please keep going, I need to get out, There’s no one to left, to pretend to care to my face, Long forgotten liars who watch this place, Waiting for my end so they can laugh and to shed fake tears, Where were they all these years? I won’t miss those miss those at all, I won’t miss anyone who watched me fall, The ones who claimed to be the ones who cared the most, But only when I was an entertaining host, So, cut me a little deeper until you find my salvation, I’ve lived long enough, I need a vacation

Verdant eyes as lush as any field

Azalea hued lips that can make even a king yield

Your voice a song in my ears that I’ll never forget the lyrics to

Lifting my soul towards the sky when it’s clearest blue

The best curves on your body belongs to your smile

I tried my best not to give in, living in my denial

Your gentle sweetness has pulled me in when I thought I could never allow myself to breathe

Your words have done what I never thought would be possible to achieve

To be the one that occupies your thoughts from the moment you wake, until you close your eyes and meet me in your nightly lullaby

Keeping you in my thoughts like a bird learning to fly

I’ll see you for who you are and not what you think

Keeping my distance as far as I can to not form a link

Knowing you deserve better than I could ever give

But close enough to know you for as long as I live

Making sure the regrets keep piling high

I’ll keep this secret to myself until the day that I die

You see a majesty in others where there is none

You gave up on your dreams before they've begun

Inspiration, in those of less worth, you plant that seed

But in yourself, you don't feel there's a need

You've let the thoughts and wills of them keep you down

Envious hearts refuse to see you among the clouds, so they tied you to the ground

Fear set in after watching how your wings expand

Find your way through the fingers of their ever clutching hand

Forget what they said you were before

Never look back, as you continue to soar

The gentle tones the escapes your caressive lips fill me with a calming serenity

How your laughter fills the emptiness that can last an eternity

To be able to hear your voice in person is what any man of worth would die for

Like a sailor slowly coming to terms with being ashore

The bliss too insurmountable to put into even the finest of words until the end of time

You make even the sun envious with how much you shine

Could it have been more than this

A jumble of lies and broken promises

Finding no comfort in each other's lives

Searing words used to cut our barely formed ties

Every secret shared, twisted and contorted to match the world created in your make believe land

False words spilled on the battlefield where you wanted to make your final stand

Your voice which was once a source for my delight

Now weaponized for your continued slights

Gone are the days I long to be where you are

We were never close, but still not too far

Years of regret cling to me like wet sand on a filthy beach

Wasted hours on someone who I could not  reach

Fatigue had finally set into my weary heart

I want you know how much I thrive now that we are apart

I don't care who you have become or what you do

I can live a healthier life without you

As I watch the grains of sand flow

I reminisce of days when things were slow

When children remained innocent until they were ready to grow up

How easily imagination flowed through our minds like emptying a cup

Opinions were shared and not used as a weapon to tear others down

Hearing people enjoy your days out in the sun without hearing siren sounds

To be able to look up  and see a group of clouds dance across the sunlit sky

Hear birds chirping away as they ate the left over seeds

Feel the wind violate your body with its gentle touch

These are the things I miss so much

The hourglass keeps its steady pace

This uninvited passenger has decided to stay

Inside of my mind, stripping all that was good forcing it to decay

It made a home where once I found happy solitude

Eating away at my jovial nature, replacing it with a darker mood

Each grain falls, feels like an eternity

Wanting to feel the end, because now, this is me