Before I sleep,
I keep my memories in a jar,
I am scared to lay with it
Or maybe its the fear of recalling even
In my dreams.

Gaze under the moon light

All hidden stars behind the cloud

I don't know what the night bring

But am sure going to be alright.

I smile when I think of you because
the sound of your voice gets to me.

My smiles are as the stars of heaven
Because your words gets to me.

My friend was 28
When she was told she got only six months to walk the earth
She's was diagnosed with whatever I had no intention of recalling
Yet she goes about telling others how Jesus saved her life.
All songs she sang was of heaven and how glorious its land are as she waited for her soul to ascend.
My friend just turned 85
She still sings about the glory land
I watched her through the years and she still testify how Jesus saved her life.

Somehow memories once held and felt never leave you
It then becomes a secret as you try picking the broken pieces  or whatever is left.
Everyday you pick a part, gathering as much as you can.
Some might not realize how broken you are others might not even get to believe you and so they don't see.
Somehow the memories keep coming back, the exact same time, when the world's asleep and you are all alone with these feelings that taunt you.
Nobody sees you, even if they do some won't still believe you and others are yet to.
Wide open your eyes are, scared of what you might see when you close your eyes, each piece becoming clearer but difficult to pick and still nobody sees and even if they do, they won't still believe you.

Colors of promises
A step closer to fulfilling those dreams
Time will bring us closer then the fear does
Not as the first while we were scared of falling.
Colors of smoke
A step closer to forever, walking down the aisle, brave enough to take the vows
Never again having to stand alone.
Colors of roses and Lilies
Hanging partly as chandeliers
Beneath which we made a promise of always staying together
We begin this journey of ours, wherever we find ourselves, whatever life throws at us, as the promise we once took, always and forever.