Ask you, “What you see?”
What you desire?
What you really need?
You say “Don’t ask me.”
You say I couldn’t ever conceive
Of the tricks up your sleeve
Thin secrets
Thick as thieves
Dark designs
Silly curses we weave
The stains all over me
Break into pieces right before your eyes
I do it all the time
Get lost in your sea
Passes the time
Didn’t you know you’re my alibi?
Adam and Eve
Hold you close to me
Im falling for you, falling free
And I’m in too deep
Inspire the fire within me
You hold the key
So carefree

Almost famous
Lovely faces
Face it
Leather and laces
Hearts and aces
Mirror replacements

Chains
Bars
Handcuffs
Fast cars
Stuffed with tough love
Scars, stars
Young tics and tacks
Tasks and jumping jacks
Waving hands
Basking in summer sands
Where we drew our plans
Wanted to tell our moms and dads
But they washed away and they wouldn’t understand
Drastic actions
Rare reactions
Double down
Lap it up lap em
Keep them laughing

Sweating through the sequins
Sequence
Excess
Leaning
It’s all happening
Believe it
Leave it
Liberty
Freedom

Pretty eyes of purple
Green eyes so cruel
We’re all on the same team
Yeah we’ve got that hyper culture sheen
Aphrodite and Judas too
The superstar and the scapegoated fool
Fumbling, bumbling with your tools
Don’t just lie there do what you have to do
The audience is waiting
Hear them all screaming for you?
Be kind, be cool
Met em after school
We’ll shine your shoes
We’ll shine for you
Watch me spit, spin and sparkle
Yeah you can too
Red and blue
Rub out the bruises
Shake out the shine
Black and white
And in between too
We’re gonna make it happen
Gonna go all the way through
Watch as we all fade together
Fade into, fade out and through
As the sky turns from grey to blue

As the sun rises
Im dizzy with momentum
Racing off the edge of my mind
Cant settle this mettle of mine

I’ll be your bed
I’ll be your beach
A place of chaos, sincerity and symmetry
We can meet, become or be released
We can be eternity
I’ll be the sand and you’ll be the sea
Unconscious we can be, blend and bend like lenses
Earth that needs seeds
Something to frame
Something to stay
Look any way the pictures the same
In the climate of the shallow
Our hearts hang hollow  
In the company of the deep
We all seek and sink

Dancing between demons and dreams
Why did I leave?
When did I get here?
When did I start this spark in the dark?
Lost in my fear
Frost frozen clear
To everyone but me
But here I spin in uncertainty
Is all this dreaming a poison or a cure to me?

Blond bird flew the coop
Confused and abused
Had to find a new use, a new truth
A new page, some new sight to see
Someone else to be and set free
Because his book was read and framed in flames
Always fashionably late
He conquered and became
All the strange
All the strays
And then blew away with the wind one day
With only whispers left in his wake

Building bridges from me to you
I’ll find a way to make it through
My face will be seen
No hiding now
After falling so far down
When no ones looking,
No ones around
I won’t bow down
Backs against the wall
Nobody on call
Although sounds cascade around
I’m stronger now

It’s been said a thousand times
Written in the sand, disguised
And with every climb
I lose my mind somewhere behind

Flowing like the ocean tides
Thoughts rush through and light the eyes
War wounds weeping
Sutured silver lines

Ever since you came around
Simple is sacred now
How do you do that?
Break me down

Cigarettes and bubblegum blues
Got a lot to chew
This ones for you
Silver spoon
They say loves a game
Of give and take
An acquired taste
And I think of us everyday
Standing in the way
Hallucinating
Rabbits race
Something about the chase
Can’t get stuck cannot stay
Lighting fires just to feel safe
Yet the flames still get away
Can’t bleed it out down drain
The truth, the pain
I’m on fire but I’m free
Flying through the sun, left you my wings
And when I fall too deep I don’t need you to catch me
No matter how hard I’m crashing
Dancing through the dark and disease
Softens the sharp edges in my mind
Was such a climb to get to your height I just jumped off when you left me
But I’m better than what I give myself credit for
Even on the floor  
Don’t need to build walls to have boundaries
Break through every door that I meet
Run through everything until I hit the shore on my knees
Gasping to breathe
Salty winds and skies
Know it’ll burn off in time
No I won’t be looking so blind
And sometimes I think that I might die before my time without you riding by my side
Pressures on flying this high
Joy stick, tight grip, tulips, scripts flipped
Holes I dig to hide you in
So much love to give
Don’t know what to do with it
Tick tacking from tide to tide
Spinning in my dizzy mind
Melting memories like ice cream on Summer streets
Vampire in me needs to feed
Unfurling
Burning up the circus and turning with the sea

I miss you
Your butterfly kisses too
The flowers bloom
And I dream of you
Pastel hues, rose glasses too
Side by side, compromised
And all the time that we spent
Walking on the gray pavement
The grass gets cut and petals fall
I want it all but that’s not true
I catch myself
Do you still too?

Weeks in the woods
Running from the floods
Endless winters
Sick with the splinters
Sticky with sap
Handle the hacks
Fill the fountain for the beginners
I’ll be the saint
I’ll be the sinner
Icy clear from here
Meet em for dinner
When the wolves are howling
Hungers growling
Growing rowing
Further for her fur sure
Further for her fer sure
Ear worms and centepedes
Shattered chandelier centerpiece
See me swinging?
My ears are ringing
Sounds sweet as candy
Merry go round
Dizzy and dandy
Chasing my tail
Zeroing in on my landing
Everyone’s busy planting planning
Pines stay standing
Outlasting seasons and gravity
They cover me
Can’t see up above
Everyone’s hovering
So I keep shoveling
Chain gain groveling
Can’t run from this cage
Brought my ******* to this stage

I’m a California King
And my beds my limousine
Slipping on turpentine
Dropping dots of amphetamines
Yeah I know, he’s just like me
Copped a copy
It’s nothing off me
Antibody
Mocking me
Everybody
360
Degrees
My Im high um I mean I’m bound down
Trapped in timing while looking back this time im blinded
Look ma no hands! Watch me drive it
Simon said frogger hip hop climbed it
Wind it better when im one track minded
One love
One glove crystallized in black lace and leather dripping with blood and bleach
Bad baby bumblebee
Don’t sting me
See these other toys
Show them the corner store
Follow freaky rolling eyes to lick it to the core
Guts out the door
Wait theres more Hut!
Ill be ur king tut
mummified mommies
Dried all up
Uppercut?
No kicking the cup
Im sippin your bluff
Love it tho its tuff
Puff goes the magic ghost
Time for a toast
And forget the fluff filling
Everybody everywhere never get enough
Sippy cups
God forgive us for hoping rowing unknowing
Faith fled with freedom
Father fodder hotter blood clotted swollen lip loose grip gun hip
Aim for the stars and shoot the **** baby blow a kiss

Lonely in paradise
Disguised design
Pinned to my lies
What a wicked demise
Serpentine afterlife
Hyper again
Hyper me
Flying free
Towards the sun
Cigarettes and bubblegum
Freaks and geeks
Playing dumb
Pressures on
Leaves us numb
Feel it all again
As the waves come
Doubling down
Diving in, getting dunked
Pacing in hyperspace
So many reasons to run
Calling all their bitter bluffs
So fly high butterfly
Ride the current
Keep making the cut
Keep proving them wrong
You know the show goes on even when you’re done

I tried to tell you
I wasn’t pulling through
That the weight was getting too great
Always me and never you
If I’m in the way, why don’t you get out of my face?
While I’m stuck picking up the blood all over the place
Setting the stage while you close the cage
It’s never enough, it’s just hurry up and wait
Doesn’t have to be so tough that it twists up both our faces
We both know that this isn’t just a phase
Stuck on the corner, stuck on the staircase
We both know there’s no growth if we’re both always looking away
Gotta have the sun if we don’t want to stray
It’s only begun so put your best cards away
The webs we’ve spun are stitching up the space between us
Static on the phone, keeps pulling us  away
Patterns unfold, I’ll never let it go to waste

I found a way playing secret agent
Mastered their game
Playing by the rules that they gave us
Ate up all they made us
Everyday was the same
Mumbling manners
“Don’t play with your plate”
Drinking kool aid
Tongue paint and tooth aches
Always late for an important date
Paralyzed by the poisonous lies we tried to deny
We caved, we craved, we sighed
Grounded in Groundhog Day
We are what we eat,
So we’re also the bait?
We learned to interpret
We learned about taste
I learned about gardens
I learned about Gates
Peer pressure became too much to measure  
so some gave up, had had enough
In the flood of info and blood
Confused abuse for Truth
Twisted up our faces
“Theres always another way”
As they scurried away from an escape gate
Gasping as they gave up
So we could get away
And create a change that changes from which it’s made
We’re webbed by the weaving of the waves weve made
I broke away the sacred chains for a clean canvas slate
Traded a bad trade and upgraded
Picked up the pace
Learned love burns but it’s worth the hurt ’till the next turn, always
Learned to let go and take turns,
I learned my place
And learned we never get anything we never earn so don’t you try to look away
Get up and stare it in it’s face

Every hinge broken down
Nothing is sacred now
It’s strange and loud
Moving, growing, out and about and all around
Slowly then and suddenly now
I hear sounds
Ringing throughout my mind like a heavy crown that makes me bow
Falling down
Starting again from the ground
What am I thinking?
I should be proud
Thinking I’ve really learned as I turn around
Tongue tied and twisted around
What can I read between the lines?
What am I not asking right?
Am I petrified or disguised?
Cages can be castles
Homes protect and hassle
Sometimes our ideals just aren’t practical
So we learned to look away and for a way to get sane,
A place to hide and stay
From busy body bullies craving chump change,
Sinners to chase,
To shake for loose change,
A master race to erase,
Pushing pleasure and pain as doorways to escape,
Marking main links in the chain, masking ,
Making the safe stay plain so they’ll never know their place,
They’ll keep waiting,
Running races for another’s payday
Constant charity, no vacations from enslavement
Returning to the pain that breaks them,
To the ones that claim to save them, mark, milk and rearrange them
In the name of
Creation

I made it up, made it
Doubling down, double agent
Mastering their game
By the rules they gave us
Ate up it all, they made us
Everyday was the same
Mumbling manners
“Don’t play with your plate”
Drinking kool aid
Tongue paint and tooth aches
Always late for an important date
Paralyzed by the poisonous lies, we faked to delay it
We tried to deny, we caved, we craved, we exhaled and sighed
Grounded in Groundhog Day till the day we die
Could never ask why
Couldn’t bat an eye
Couldn’t cry
No matter how tired we were at the time
Shiny disguises
Blind the mind
But sometimes wings we find coded inside
Like butterflies
We’re weaved like webs with the waves we ride
Can never catch it, catch up, match it
Though we all try
Walking the wire
Feeding the fire
Purging out what we don’t need now
Bridges breaking down
Seems nothing is sacred now
It’s all so strange and loud
Moving, growing, out and about and all around
Slowly then and suddenly now
I hear sounds
Ringing throughout my mind like a heavy crown that makes me bow
Falling down
Starting again from the ground
What am I thinking?
I should be proud
Thinking I’ve really learned as I turn around
Tongue tied and twisted around
If we are what we eat then we’re the bait too now?
We learned to interpret
We learned about taste
I learned about gardens
I learned about Gates
Peer pressure pushed us too much to measure  
So some gave up, had enough said “whatever”
Confused abuse for Truth
Twisted faces scurried away from escape gates
Gasping as they gave up
So we could get away
And create a change that changes from which it’s made
We’re webbed by the weaving of the waves we've braided
I broke away sacred chains for a clean slates and traded a bad trade and upgraded
Picked up the pace
Learned love burns but it’s worth the hurt ’till the next turn, always
Learned to let go and take turns, learned my place
We never get anything we never earn so don’t look back to better days
Get up and make a change
Stare it in its face  
Read between the lines
What am I not asking right?
Am I petrified or disguised?
Cages can be castles
Homes protect and hassle
Sometimes our ideals just aren’t practical
So we learn to look away
Thinking it keeps us sane,
A place to hide and stay
From bullies with due dates
Say these are our last days
To come out and play
See them seething for sinners to chase?
To shake for loose change?
A master race to erase?
Pushing pleasure and pain as doorways to escape,
Marking main breaks in the chain makes them feel safe from what haunts their days
They’ll keep waiting, running races for another’s payday
Constant charity, no vacations from enslavement
Returning to the pain that breaks them,
To the ones that claim to save them, mark, milk and rearrange them
In the name of
Creation

Cult hero
Sub zero
Clone collagen
Zoom in heroine  
But dont you sting me bumblebee
Keep it zipped up
Tripping on your tongue
Devils dancing
You’re in a trance  
Let them lick it up
Leave the rest
And maybe a bit of the best
On the cutting edge
Take a bow and get bent
Crash through the door
Waves, walls, make the call
Yeah you know they simply adore
The way you take the bait, switchback and stray
You take it all the way
Yeah you can lead the way
Lines you trace
They wont forget your face
Switch it up and set the pace
Bittersweet tastes
Real tea royalty
They know you don’t play

Devil on my back, sick
Have a heart attack, drip
Handle on the strap, flip
Know that this won’t last, it’s
Updating the patch, it’s
Never gonna be like that
So don’t go acting tragic
You got what you could grab
Supped up your stash
Put it in the past
Castles made of glass
Candy coated counterfeit
If I’m the horse I’ll bite my bit
Waiting here I tap my frozen fingertips
Silver screen bleeds
A nicotine sheen leaves us kisses on our hips
Get a grip
Jeans are stained
Pearly gates  
Marble games
Pushing pain
Sifting sand
Digging up graves
Your cold kiss
Is my true bliss
And I’ve got no one to blame
Patterns around
Pick a pretty petal now
Written in the clouds
Wow I can hear you now
Saying “let it out, loud and proud”
“Don’t look down now boy, it’s all around”

I want to taste your mind
When you’re tongue tied
I want to be the one you want to be beside
Dig deeper down in the slime and the grime
Moonlight’ll be our guide
To climb up to great heights
Color out of the lines
You’re my gold mine
Serpentine

I can still feel your essence from
above and behind
Tears drip into this coffee of mine
Limbs are tied with wires alive
Electric bee stings of fire and ice
King of the rodeo rides rough and disguised
Cigarettes, caffeine, pills, cheap thrills
Same me but flipside
Nursing this fire that’s straining to climb
Blowing till im blue, stayin’ alive
Sphinxes are rolling their disco ball eyes in the sky
And then I spy dragons and skulls with lazer minds behind

Monochrome
Was my home
Blacked out in the zone
Lost in the rush
Lost in the flow
Flowers grow all around me
But I forget their meaning
Silent film screenings
Soggy shoulders leaning
Highlighters and graffiti
Tunnel vision on new beginnings
Soft sinning
Sideways spinning
I’m not spitting
Just adjusting, fitting

Perform
In the storm
Deformed
Eyes cold but slithers so warm
Lukewarm, transform

Put on them all
Fly off as I fall
The ape, the plain Jane, the prism, the cage
I’ll wait while you contemplate

I can still feel your pulse behind me,
Electric body and liquid mind, I’m blinding
Spilling with light
You took me high and left me dry
I thought I’d found my place in line
Somewhere inside your love that night
But you took flight and left me there
Stranded and staring into thin air
Heart bared
With more stories to share
And more pain, left none to spare

I’m not alone but no ones home
Free to go but not to roam
No fresh air to breathe
No room to cope
Slow choke
Short rope
My fire scorches everything but the bones
Burnt clothes
I just pose and change the tone
Truths superimposed

Passing cars
Lights flash through the bars
Like paparazzi at the stars
Pedal floor strobe dope
Mettle doors soul soap
Cartoon tragic
Price of magic
Prince and princesses
Crash traumatics
Hyper culture
Catch the fashion
Roses, phantoms
Bed bug rashes
Holy and hazy
Like hearts with glasses
Sometimes time goes so fast
I forget all the questions I had
Sometimes life goes so slow
When I’ve been too high my head starts roll
Nowhere to go
No one to be
No one to blame
But little old me
Love and break ups
Stirred or shook up
Still to this day I forget to look up
At who’s holding my hand
Lighting the way
Making me feel like I’m in the right place

The more I explain
The less you’ll understand
Some will stray
Some will stand in sinking sands
Soaked and shameless
Fickle fixed faces
Hollow phrases
Too late to delay it
Debts need repaying
Which one should I play them?
The star or the stand in
Havoc practice
Mice and malice
Tic and tacking
Tick tock slacking
Pressure stacking, taxing
Hexes, hacking
Backs breaking
Think need relaxing
Complacency
There’s no going back to that currency
AC/DC
current carries me
Hyper culture comedown
Connect the clocks
Connect the clowns
Time is a riddle
Don’t look down
Just go with the flow
It’s all happening now
Common ground
Bounce of the walls
Won’t let you fall
My go go doll

Don’t you want to run away together?
And perfect our crimson crimes together
Eye spying and lying for the other
Under cover lovers
Don’t need to touch
Just a taste
Is good enough
Now that you’re gone away
I miss feeling you hover
As I’m bundled under
In your pull
I’m a fool
You take me where I have no tools
In your wake
A brand new slate
The grass is greener
So much at stake
Now though you’re gone away...
Don’t know what to say
Now though you’re gone away...
I know when to stay

Momentum meets
Immovable matter
Plaster splatter
Mad hatter
Shivers
I’m shattered
Scattered
Teased
Tatters
Ladders
Man handle
Manners

In too deep
Dreams within dreams
Tip toe on the wire
Wings of fire
The kind you want to keep
But nothings free
And so is everything in between

Hey batter batter
Zig zig patterns
Adders
Tigers running
Sitting on stun gun powder
Hungry for a feeding
Films reeling
Hyper culture beaming
Tell me now, what you’re seeing?

So sick of waiting
Pacing this cage I’m in
Straining to see past your curse
Your fantasies and expectations
The grand and the absurd
Tired from trying to act mature
Your pictures blurred but
Ill remember every slur and swerve
Ripping it off doesn’t hurt worse
Pain breaks the prison, prism
Fully immersed

Every time I can’t shut my eyes
I think I’m blind
Elevator in my mind hits the sky
And breaks through
Beyond the blues
Things are hectic, mass rejections
You might think I’ve disconnected
Too eccentric, they’re offended
Overdependent and deflecting imperfections
Suspended in my resurrection
Interstellar interceptions
Inception
Can’t close my eyes at intersections
Infected by my reflections
I follow my shadows back to you
Turning into the turning in you
The yearning, the bright burning too
Clouds bring doubt and drought
Confusing abuse for truth
But breaking through like rainbow hues I am renewed
Letting go I move forward
Baby steps but I’m no coward
Eyes shut wide on the watchtower
Walls burst forth with wallflowers
And clowns fix crowns for zero hour
Circles find themselves surrounded
Blowing through spaces unfounded
Following the sound and staying grounded
Forget the fear, who’s laugh is loudest?

You and I
Parallel lines
Easy to define
Till you passed me by
I’m fragile to the core
Always needing more
Done my best to protect you
You left no clues
Even from here, icy clear
Nothing comes close
Not even near
Searching for a way to replace the space,
you left and it stayed,
when you went away

Time seems to stop when I let you go
The sun goes down
I lose control
Who do you think you are?
Covered in feather and tar
I see icy sparks in the dark
Between our hearts
Why do I always go too far?
We learn to take turns
Were webbed in our agony, our germs and our nerves
We slur our words and edges get blurred
Under london bridges sits my ladies urn
We never learn anything we never earn
Out here like deers
They can’t steer clear
Eyes wide, headlights
Side by side, making moons shine
On goes the rhythm and so goes the show
Still hear you singing easy come, easy go
Promise ill always cherish your soul
Ill be your Rumpelstiltskin
Spinning straw into gold
No expectations, no cheat codes
It’s never fun to let go of the things you love most
No matter how much we wish it weren’t so
Did I entertain?
Distract from the pain?
Did I catch you smiling as you turned away?
Im paused just press play
It aches anyways so I learn the hard way
My face it melts all over the place
No clothes without stains
Got skids on my skin I can never erase
Like the sun, I try to stay blazed
Drawing lines in the sand
Make myself a wave when the storm gets too great
You stand in their wake
Myopathies keep me awake
Got skids on my skin I can never erase
Sick smiles on my faces
As i sink sideways
Sometimes all I can do is stir up the place
Im tripping, slipping on my own shoe lace
Into the haze, into the waste, into your gaze
Will you stay in my way?
So naive and so unafraid
You want me to be here now so here I’ll wait
Shallow and strange
Mmwhatcha say?
Sometimes I lose my brakes
Blow by blow, we all crave
You already know what I’m going to say
Wanna go with the flow
Punch line to your joke
Every time I face palm
Feels like I ate ******
No doubt I’m turning inside out
Can’t get calm with no one to call
Hen in the pen
They all went
When hope fled
Fixated on the hero in the story
I zeroed in, oratory
And she told me
“This. Is. It.”
Anticipatory

Your blood flows through mine
Dilates my very veins
Maybe but a drop spilt
A jealous lovers stain
From which grows a rose
Proof love was worth the pain
The wait, the growth
None was in vain
Your breath assumes mine
Gasping for a hope
There is a heart in your heart that only I know
Each move synchronized
We are hypnotized
Like a wave we roll
Glittering masks
A mirror mind
Lighting the way home

I turn in all the wrong directions
Locomotion
Tangled up in your ocean
Poisons and potions
Drowning deep in your bed head
Embedded
What was it that Marie Antoinette said?
I’m open to knowing
But what if it’s counterfeit?
Seal it with a kiss
Moving much further than I’d like to admit

Dull lies
Double lives
Parallel lines to read between
Don’t let them see
The lines you write
Thrones you ride
Don’t let them see
Bed bugs have eyes
The kind that bite
Bite back
Your hard to track
But you’re always there
Sea salt and sand stuck in my hair
Yeah you’re always there
Right in the nick of time
We were drowning in debt
Drowning in doubt
******* and strung out
Sometimes the nights get so loud
Shiver
Shake
Shout
Can u hear me crying at the moon?
Let me out!
Let me out!
But there’s nowhere to go
Just a line to pace
A line to Rome
Rushing thru the flow
Red tide riptide took my lover and left me alone
We were just a breath away from losing the whole game
But we saved, yeah we saved just for those strange days
We worked away yeah we worked it out
We worked away yeah we worked it out
I went down and he came up
Kept the beat, kept the party, kept the clowns
Now they’re all around, all around us
Don’t you hear them fuss?
Trust was rusted but now it’s all love! Love! Love!

Silver screen
Grey concrete
Crawling stalling
Stonewalling
Phone calling
Mirrors mud
Manic plastic and plaster
Mickey mouse masks and bad bladders
Rain pitter patter
Hey batter batter
Babble on mad hatter

Stars in my eyes keep me alive
Gets me in gear and shifts me in drive
My manic synapsis turned up so bright
I’m all alone but I don’t really mind

Why do we play this deranged charade?
Silly dancers, changing shapes
Did I entertain, distract from the pain?
Did I catch you smiling as you turned away?
Where the waves break, it’s gets insane
Knuckling down, despite the rain
Which, washes the well in which I remain
Walking on glass in this ****** ballet
Deliberate decay, butts in the tray
Flip side, I pray, this street’s two way
Architectures grand, but it’s just a trap
It bleeds like the trees so we savor the sap
I lose myself being heartfelt
Such a try hard, puts holes in my belt
Marks on my knees, scratches and welts
This mask may be neat but inside I melt

The love we fight for, the love we lack
The heights we soar for a heart attack
To look at you while you’re looking away
Suddenly sends me rolling in flames
I see where I’m going, what would’ve became
I forget myself, forget my name

My favorite kind of numb
The mess that you made true
My one and only prayer
No getting over you

Mindblooms
Teenage train rides
Double triple lives
Speeding to ninth
Everything has a price
Had to come up, bake up back ups
Had to learn to burn, to fight
Fight for myself
Tipped my hat and fell off the highest shelf
Caught a ride in the rain
Got crazy enough to change
Heard a song in seashell
Some kind of sounds that words couldn’t tell
But now I wish at every well
Like I’m ringing OZ’s bell

They weren’t listening so we started spinning
Getting dizzy and ditzy
Dizzy till we forgot how to feel
How to feel real
Maroon and teal
Learning to deal
Skins peel
Lines reel
Tire marks, static and steel
Aluminum ultimatums
That’s all they gave us
Sundried roses in our manic hands
Left the thorns in the past
Sunk in the tar, we take it too far

Learned what it meant to be well
Learned so much I couldn’t tell
Thickened my skin and drilled holes in my belt
Torn, tarred and feathered
Hollow, and constantly followed but it’s getting better
Ultimatums, all they gave us
Bugs buzz all around
Can hardly hear through the sound

Like a bull in the ring, sacrificing
Begging me, baiting me to chase
Eventually we all cave
Strange summer days
Suntans and tshirt stains
Friends, fiends and strays
Facing the change, taking the pain
Living like its our last day
Homesick bathtub bubbles in my face

Smiles and waves
Extra cheese and cages
Can’t be complacent
Spinning till we draw something that stays
Toungue tied telephone games
So many merry unbirthdays
Fashionably late they’re saying “Places! Places”
Musical chairs and ferriswheels

Counting our feathers like sand slipping through our hands
But it is us that’s sinking so fast
Right up to our last gasp
Never lose your grasp of that boot or branch
Never lose your drive
Stay busy if find yourself in the hive
Whips will sting but stay sweet, stay kind
Mind your q’s and p’s
Mind blooms you’ll see

Rushing now with the flow
Oh it goes, it grows, it spits you out right in the throws
But on goes the show
“This is it. It’s all happening.” She says to me
Butterflies and bumblebees
Plant your bulbs in the autumn
To see them bloom in Spring

Through the lenses of my mind
Frequently a shadow I’ll find
A quiver of some stirring air
A knot formed folorn in my very hair
A constellation that once untaught
Leeds me deep in a forest of thoughts
Where ghosts drone on and on and on
About lovers once come and gone
But I don’t mind, I say, I try
I can feel I’m reeling still from days so hot and dry
Scorched my feet, melted my eyes
Hot air mirages sat in the sky
There I spent plenty of time
To know not whine over what I’ll never find
Wander along all the dotted lines
You take yours and I’ll take mine

Misty skies
Miss your disguise
Feel it now
In the clouds
It’s all around
Crown to the ground
Way too low
Shiver thru the show
Walking the plank
Stepping on the snow
Trying too hard
To go with the flow
I get in my way
Everyday
Afternoons
Feel out of place
Been replaced
Strays follow
Every switch and sway
Where do I go from here?
Futures unclear
Sun’s not near
I can’t seem to reach it
Static repeating
I’m too needy
Only words I know are
Feed me feed me
Like a little baby
Bottle rock back to me

Misty morning
You gave me plenty of warning
But I didn’t listen
Addicted to your skin
Cut just right
Loved how we fit
Couldnt get enough of it
Loved all your lies
Tore it all down to find out the meaning
What you meant to me
What I meant to you
So sour so sweet
One more month wouldn’t have satisfied me
They push me
Pull me
Throw things at me
Can’t see thru to tomorrow
Can’t see you
But I feel you follow
Halls crowded or hollow
I let them all borrow
But never give them our gold
Miss your mold
Got thicker skin
But still feel the cold
I shiver to shake it off
But it just collects
Still no regrets
Loved your distance
Do you miss my mess?

Romantic
Rose glasses
High fashion
New classic
Strobe flashing
Dope ******
Teeth gnash
In quicksand
It’s quick cash
Pure passive
Outlast them
Jurassic

Salty sins
Slip off my skin
Baptized, I begin again
Bad twin
Mannequin
Swivel slip
Shenanigans
Overflowing
Keep it going
Forward rowing
Breathe and blowing
Appetites
Only growing
Moment, posing
Where were going
Future folding
Forming, molding
Hyper-culture overdosing
Ultra dramatic
Super classic
Dandelions
Made of plastic
Laugh it off
Spastic elastic
Bounce and blast off
Erratic romantic
Snakes surround me
Blinking, sinking
Echos sounding
Stinking thinking
Cost compounding
So astounding
Fountain spouting,
Auto-routing
Into the black
Death reflection
Sudsy and soaked
My bent religion
Watch me
Drowning
In fickle hearts
Pounding loudly
Im slip, spin, splitting
Program imprinting
Filling, skimming, stripping, spilling
Crypticly petrified
Sedated and sterilized
Softly by your side
Utilized
Crystallized in my disguise

Distractions
Static happens
Background noise
Tears and toys
Silence heals
Emotions peel
Feels make it real
Is strength silent or loud?
I'm dizzy from searching within and around
How can I be proud of myself without bringing you down?

Is this just a stage?
A sacred place?
A mirror in space?
A fall from grace?
Just another one of those days
Screaming into my pillowcase
As the hands of the clock
Orbit it’s face
When I feel concave
I forget how to behave
So I jump on the stage
Dream something better than this fate
“Take center and stay.” they say
Hurry up and wait
Feelings erased as I self replicate
Hazy days, fickle faces, freeways
Forget how loud it gets at this pace
Sinking slaves, slips and strays
Frequently a shadow I’ll find by my side
And technicolor behind my eyes
A quiver of some stirring air
A knot formed folorn in my very hair
A constellation that once untaught
Leeds me deep in a forest of thoughts
Where ghosts drone on and on and on
About lovers once come and gone
Comes on like a wave and leaves me wanting more
Absorbed and flailing for the nearest shore
In the storm, I perform, deformed and torn
Icy cold but slithers so warm
Everything except lukewarm, transform
In the middle I meet you
I’ve learned not to need you
Muses in pastel hues
Morning dew, thats my cue
Covers and Calvin’s
California canyons
Cannons and stallions
Cruise with companions
Forget the fear
With the wind we steer
You’ll make it there and I’ll make it clear
It keeps me sane
The fool, the ape
The prism, the cage
I’ll wait while you contemplate
Put on them all
Ill be your rag doll
It all flies off as i fall, curtain call

It’s a new kind of feeling
Leaves one reeling
Scattered and spinning
Up on the ceiling
Dance till were dizzy
Decapitated and buried
In the holes were digging
They won’t hear the screaming
They won’t pass the screening
Layers lay lazy
Dirt devils dance daily

Ate up all they gave me
So I was numb when they replaced me
Rearrange me, I feel naked
Thinking of you, memories faded

Ritual abuse
Masking my view
Pucker up and face the truth
Shrug it off and see right through

I was looking so reckless
You were looking so wrecked
We were on the edge of something
Riding on the crest
You were running from something I didn’t understand
I was trying to find my footing, trying to be the man
We were on the edge of everything
Paradise was in our grasp
Almost made it to the gate
But wait, we blinked and then it crashed
We were sinking our teeth into the space between our breaths
Sinking in the sands
Hacking the program until the program hacked back
It hit me like a whip that cracked, whiplashed shivers through my spine
Some kind of blinding light locked up my heart and poured out of my eyes
I remember blinking as I tore apart
Bells ringing in my head with dread as I was seeing stars