Time seems to stop when I let you go
The sun goes down
I lose control
Who do you think you are?
Covered in feather and tar
I see icy sparks in the dark
Between our hearts
Why do I always go too far?
We learn to take turns
Were webbed in our agony, our germs and our nerves
We slur our words and edges get blurred
Under london bridges sits my ladies urn
We never learn anything we never earn
Out here like deers
They can’t steer clear
Eyes wide, headlights
Side by side, making moons shine
On goes the rhythm and so goes the show
Still hear you singing easy come, easy go
Promise ill always cherish your soul
Ill be your Rumpelstiltskin
Spinning straw into gold
No expectations, no cheat codes
It’s never fun to let go of the things you love most
No matter how much we wish it weren’t so
Did I entertain?
Distract from the pain?
Did I catch you smiling as you turned away?
Im paused just press play
It aches anyways so I learn the hard way
My face it melts all over the place
No clothes without stains
Got skids on my skin I can never erase
Like the sun, I try to stay blazed
Drawing lines in the sand
Make myself a wave when the storm gets too great
You stand in their wake
Myopathies keep me awake
Got skids on my skin I can never erase
Sick smiles on my faces
As i sink sideways
Sometimes all I can do is stir up the place
Im tripping, slipping on my own shoe lace
Into the haze, into the waste, into your gaze
Will you stay in my way?
So naive and so unafraid
You want me to be here now so here I’ll wait
Shallow and strange
Mmwhatcha say?
Sometimes I lose my brakes
Blow by blow, we all crave
You already know what I’m going to say
Wanna go with the flow
Punch line to your joke
Every time I face palm
Feels like I ate ******
No doubt I’m turning inside out
Can’t get calm with no one to call
Hen in the pen
They all went
When hope fled
Fixated on the hero in the story
I zeroed in, oratory
And she told me
“This. Is. It.”
Anticipatory

I miss you
Your butterfly kisses too
The flowers bloom
And I dream of you
Pastel hues, rose glasses too
Side by side, compromised
And all the time that we spent
Walking on the gray pavement
The grass gets cut and petals fall
I want it all but that’s not true
I catch myself
Do you still too?

Is this just a stage?
A sacred place?
A mirror in space?
A fall from grace?
Just another one of those days
Screaming into my pillowcase
As the hands of the clock
Orbit it’s face
When I feel concave
I forget how to behave
So I jump on the stage
Dream something better than this fate
“Take center and stay.” they say
Hurry up and wait
Feelings erased as I self replicate
Hazy days, fickle faces, freeways
Forget how loud it gets at this pace
Sinking slaves, slips and strays
Frequently a shadow I’ll find by my side
And technicolor behind my eyes
A quiver of some stirring air
A knot formed folorn in my very hair
A constellation that once untaught
Leeds me deep in a forest of thoughts
Where ghosts drone on and on and on
About lovers once come and gone
Comes on like a wave and leaves me wanting more
Absorbed and flailing for the nearest shore
In the storm, I perform, deformed and torn
Icy cold but slithers so warm
Everything except lukewarm, transform
In the middle I meet you
I’ve learned not to need you
Muses in pastel hues
Morning dew, thats my cue
Covers and Calvin’s
California canyons
Cannons and stallions
Cruise with companions
Forget the fear
With the wind we steer
You’ll make it there and I’ll make it clear
It keeps me sane
The fool, the ape
The prism, the cage
I’ll wait while you contemplate
Put on them all
Ill be your rag doll
It all flies off as i fall, curtain call

I can still feel your essence from
above and behind
Tears drip into this coffee of mine
Limbs are tied with wires alive
Electric bee stings of fire and ice
King of the rodeo rides rough and disguised
Cigarettes, caffeine, pills, cheap thrills
Same me but flipside
Nursing this fire that’s straining to climb
Blowing till im blue, stayin’ alive
Sphinxes are rolling their disco ball eyes in the sky
And then I spy dragons and skulls with lazer minds behind

Heart underwater
Head bobbing above
Sunken treasure
Sunken trunk
Bottom bunk
Top is stuck
Coagulated
Saving blood
Islands, fountains
Arks and floods
Miss your tides
Shared bathtubs
Leaned over the sink
While I’m soaping up
Choking on bubbles
You’re throat is cut
You use tiny tissues
As I hack the foam up

Passing cars
Lights flash through the bars
Like paparazzi at the stars
Pedal floor strobe dope
Mettle doors soul soap
Cartoon tragic
Price of magic
Prince and princesses
Crash traumatics
Hyper culture
Catch the fashion
Roses, phantoms
Bed bug rashes
Holy and hazy
Like hearts with glasses
Sometimes time goes so fast
I forget all the questions I had
Sometimes life goes so slow
When I’ve been too high my head starts roll
Nowhere to go
No one to be
No one to blame
But little old me
Love and break ups
Stirred or shook up
Still to this day I forget to look up
At who’s holding my hand
Lighting the way
Making me feel like I’m in the right place