I can hold myself together durning the day
I can occupy myself with
mindless tasks or,
Sleep to escape it all
But at night is when
I start to unravel
And my eyes
They leak
And my insides spill out
And pool into my lap
And I'm struggling to keep my head
Above the water
And it has always been too
Shallow
To drown in but
I think it's finally
Deep enough.

you saved me from killing myself
you saved me from drowning
myself in sadness
you saved me from all the heartbreaks


you fixed me
And told me to trust you
everything was going to be alright


I trusted you

but now
who's going to fix me?

You left.

I think I hit
The point in life
Where
I'm just done

I cried
I fought
I tried

But everything is crashing down

My demons
They are screaming louder
Trying to eat away
At the rest of me

And this time
I'm not going
To fight back

I trusted you but you left
I tried to give you my all
And show you that I
Loved you
And show you that I
Cared for you
To show you that I wanted you

But I didn't end my life for you
To leave me here crying
On the side of the road
Drunk

I've seen guys like you
It's called my dad
My mother would throw herself at him
And make him happy
Do anything in the world
And he just pushed her away

You are nothing
You are not a man
You are not even close
You don't hit a woman you keep
Your hands off of her

I told you no
For the first time
After loving you for a long time
And
You left
I gave you my world
You left
I gave you my everything
You left

Now go learn to be a man
Cause you're not leaving me
Anymore
I may be drunk and
Sad
But
Guess what
You didn't leave this time

I left

and when I lie awake
At 3 AM
Tossing and turning
And hear my phone vibrate
I fight the tired feeling of
Checking it
To see who the message was from
Only to have tears streaming
Down my face
Down my cheeks
From my red and sleep deprived eyes
Because it wasn't from you
It's never from you anymore

every time time you
Tell your daughter
You yell at her
Out of love
You teach her to confuse
Anger with kindness
Which seems like a good idea
Till she grows up to
Trust men who hurt her
Cause they look so much
Like you

I'm trying to forget about something I never really new

Wow