sitting #myfloor AgaiN nothing new THaT. song. comes. on. 《I'm《 back & | locked | in ~your ~smile breathing-you-in such a love[ly] re\col\lec\tion soFuLL & _ so _ sc'at' ' ter' ed '' <°in °pieces°°> all at. the. same. Ti }me{ the ache = a small matter. play it; a_gain (let's)
such a re>>lease you. You. U. [finally]saidthewords i need to~ get~ me~ off my #knees all this _ _ time I | re | fus | ed | ^to ^ see^ {it's you} it's/not/me
i have. never. known; letters// nouns the tri,.... ck,... le of words To Simply Say whatever-it-is-i-mean i mean~ You. Are. the pin ch in my chest the> pull >>of >each breathe EvERy #sadlovesong & when you ~}{hold my hand}{~ I Am.
O <youknow> the words sound so simple ~Letting ~you ~~~ go but; ha¡ there you are¡ In. My. Skin. & it's a ''knee ''**** a {{back {bend a hair 》pull purple bruise | paper | cut | where¿doieven¿begin spl/it/tin/g /cel/l/s unwish-those-wishes ....to° the° moon° Unkiss Unhold Undress & back a _ gain you're in [you're in] you're in left < to < face the GReater truth: there is no UnDo > you.
& so now~i~know just _ how _ much imeantto you; what all /of /those late nights & hours-on-the phone {were}; how you fell aSLeeP in my ^arms^ & how you held. my. hand. [it's nothing] It. Never. Was.
i can't. even. remember. thelasttime i could re<mem<<ber my dreams ¥et waking 》this morning {so certain} you had been here. i swear i could taste you on^ my^ lips^ it was how. you. looked. at. me. & wh((is((pered that you had-never-been kissed like _ that _ before andiheldyouthere & had | your | mouth; ~even ~though i had. to. wake. Dear God it-was-the-most de _ li _cio us sleep i've #known
I don't think... I.am.s orry are the right. 3. words to choose They can't retract/remove/retrace the wreck of all the ones I used Oh/my/I couldn't help myself; Your voice was a sunrise your words Neptune
There was no other way this could go ...regardless of wisdom and the light of ageless truths...of distance and time.//you should know; passionate women are always going. to. be. so,.. and with reckless abandon... [the more it doesn't make A N Y sense] the hyper! incessant! flashing! green! light! in my head...just blink-blink-blinking me to keep spilling...the...letters/words/language/said...
{that.should.have.just.stayed.in.my.head}
and so here we are...it WAS the cru{foolish} elest lie...when I tossed you my banner: I said I.have.nothing.to.lose. ...so very wrong...I lost it all; and now I don't even have someone to Cry over Clementine with.
on & off where. does. it. stop. oh,..how youknowhowtokissme ,...so _. slow & ^^^^^^ in>>>tense & yet you [ insist ] i'm. not. what you #want even _ as you | **** | in your breathe & gasp your )>>>release My tongue; your Pul - SE; ' ' nails in my ~ ~ skin. back/again. Let{ting} go ,...let me {in}
you like to drop, me, a, few, words, from time-to-time justwhenI'monaroll {432 hours with\out a thought of you} as. if. you. knew. & you'll say how you miss me //inside you\ wine & words read _ ing _ a _ loud you crouched^on^the^step^stool while i cooked the food ¡remember¡ how you took me in that tiny room? against-those-cool lemon-tiles----- jeans/in/a/pile my hands in your hair {can't seem to part with those crumby dish towels} iwonderifyoudig how. you. dig. in. un _ der _ my _ skin only. to. go. silent;again & I'M stuck on some °mem°o°ry° of the >girl >i > once >knew too blind to [really] see the PuZZling PieCes of ₩e
what do i know fumbling through some limp aspirations of still feeling whole
why did you come and go; I'll never know the wreck in my chest can't bare to forget
traded vowels & consonants rearranged the rhymes don't know what we found meanings or consequence
some mirrored articulation as I lived on your lips for too few hours but you fit so nicely around these knuckles as your breath filled the room [and that little whimper is] the most favorite sound I've ever heard
When you were pack\ing\up 》》Back to New York I. was. so. ready... to let it go But-then-you twisted it up You dug^your^self^in^ ,...at the very-last-moment and SaiD allofthethings I nev. er // ev. en knew; {I wanted to hear} so;,... youcalleddibs And I thought. you. meant. it. I went-along-for-the-ride until I >could>not>dream>of>a>time with out YoU And precisely once/I/told/you/so; you van. ish. ed
You don't gettodecide if. you. hurt. me; ....darling that's enTIRE {d}ly up to....Me
some\thing\hap\pen\s; when I speak _ your _ name.... It'snotquitepleasure and it's not. quite. pain
your face. those eyes. those L. iP. s. Stab a primal lo ng __ing.... And 》》speed》》 me to quips
slimfingersandneck;,..Every inch... how - I - long and #i need ;it's a sc^rat^^ch I mus^t it^^^ch But you. don't..... ||| concede |||
your voice like gravel undermyshoe never sounded s₩€€t€r our words {{failed}} the truth
me, some~pied~piper~~~ reduced to this sniv. el. ing/idiot/poser my mel°od°y play°ed to d _eaf ears left > alone > to > spit >> out >> ......pretentious/....little/.....poems....
~ wi~n~ding~ through the desert just ^after ^^°dawn nooneontheroad it's _ cool & it's _ warm the stillness holds. me. #funnyhow i \don't \feel \the \least bit \lonely [alone] mean _ while _ the moon is uP ^there ^all. day. __ long. &idon;'treallynotice; maybe if you ask all the lovers who've 《《come _ &gone.; "there//there" (just breathe) ~see~ the tiny-yellow-grasshopper has >come >a >long for the ride¿ }.gentle reminder.{ all-in-all it's all a crutch mov》ing 》for》ward 》 is ¡ all ¡ i've got ¡ & it's <eno*ugh
you tip,...toed,... in a _ gain your perfume just |an |empty bottle {i'vekept} like. words. so/ man/y syl/la/bles spent #promises {wecouldn'tkeep} so | full | of the = memories even. now. i'd >still >go >there {withyou} the °smell °°of °you sends Me to Ne₩ ¥ork in Jul¥ & the ¡taste ¡of ¡you in. my. hands.
...and after they had finished speaking... tucked soundly in her sacred bed...it...rained...it poured...the most delicious sound her ears could hear...it rained...and, so...christened...she and she...and what it all could be....
some sentiment yousimplycan'ttouch >>> or sa [Y] some. thing. in. your. eyes. held _ in _ a _ stare _<< begging^me^to^know only to blink _ it. A. w. a. y
youtoldmeyourname {asked me in} \sang\me\your\song\ & he doesn't give you what you need yet you're still 》walking 》back》》》
i'll just keep sip _ p _ing my whiskey AllTheTimeKnow _ ing the tingle on <>my <>lips is yours/////we could
i've gotten a few^ new^ tattoos sinceyou'veknownmyskin one for me// two for you; and >the >gap > in my chest that's. all. yours. & the words & the hues [all the beautiful colors] that I long to hear And; there's my love for the sea/sky/stars an alliteration of all _ of _ the _ things i thought\ that\ i \wanted & i can't find _ any _ piece of the peace. I. once. knew. the time before ev^er^y^thing myworldbeforeyou
Idon'tknow .....how to stop. it. O Ver Whelm. .ed You. Your words .....voice..... So many things to say, to say,...to SaY You. Your. Eyes. Separate sentences... Mouth. and Lips, lips, lips, That should be in my//mouth. Smile 》》 My. chest. is. Tight Clinching., l;,.... {silly me\silly me} ...Oh. dear. God. how _ I _ could _ love you I know/no/now therearesomany miles, mountains, days be....tween.... & so i Walk Alone,....won. der. ing upon the tortured soul,... ....you seem to be; holding.
bu* _ ck _ led t _ i _ es b £ lurr€d £in€s WhenYourM __ outh & your (( hands (( don't - say - the - same thing/s dear. [try to be cl. ear] i know >> it's a stra >>>in when¡ roses¡ have¡ thorns¡ whO kNOws {what ¿ for} doesn'thavetomeanathing; you\do\ and. /you/don't
...and I th>ou>ght about. your. hands...;... hands that hold coffee cups & £ittle hands andpensandwhiskeybottles and books... & books & books &then; I ¡¡wanted¡¡ them...all [ over. ] me ... #in _ side me... I want t _ h _ e _ m _ ....
wide 》a》wake as the mental musings of howquicklymyfeetcould take me any _ where _ you _ are & no. thing. else. matters ~ there ~is the {hope}less truth who¿ is ever going to to kiss me that//way .again.
don't get me wrong//it's nice to be wanted and you are so. much. prettier. than. most. but i'm onlyhalflistening, l ov e my chest is chain》ed》 to 》a 》ghost
my mind knows-so-much-better {i'm so lucky to have you} your hands know how to hold me {your lips know all the songs} but i when i'm looking in your {brown}eyes; it's only g.r.e.e.n. that i see
and i-swear-if-i-knew-how-to-fight-it i'd go ****** //i'd go black and blue if o n l y. I could sh^a^ke^ her {if i could un _ . think all the words} i'd give all i have just to savor
i long to taste anything ....that i didn't com》pare to her lips my God howhermouthhaunts {i can't think ₩ithout her voice^in^my^head} i'm helpless and unworthy-of-all-your-wants
you. are. so. lovely. in so {allofthe} many ways i have enjoyed our mo^ment^s {i have hoped these feelings would ....leave me} how i have kept you;... on. the. fence.
and now; it'sonlyfair to s/ev//er despite how good; i-should-let-you-go it's a @selfish@ way of living {letting you love me so} When i'm Not ReaLLy Giving
in these moments you'll hate me {onceyouknowallofthetruth} think of me in spiteful ways you'll want to _ keep _ trying you'll be con\vinc\ed it can be °changed
beaUtiful one: YoU de _ serve MORe theressomethingaboutthegirl i can't name maybe I'm just addicted-to-wanting Or may》be i'm not ready to be save---d
i seem to have-so-much-to-say to you i want you to know/the/whole/story the rest justdoesn'tmatter how did it ever ...come to this...¿ i've always been so ...comfortable... in. my. own. shadow.
fli》ck》》ed to the ground smash me down not\be. fore\ you\ set my skin on fire how _ i _ burn _ for _ you suckmein sweet s[ed]uction ling^er^ in your mou^^th {your breath my desire} if only// i were a nasty habit ¥ou €ould. not. break. itwouldbeenough to stick; around
we didn't talk. of. the. weather. except to concede its power over sub//lime sleep Our hushed Whispers of what Set our Skin on f...^^i...^r..^^e ,,...the wet longing in the the pages of a French harlot ,... the empty spaces left When love Is 》》》 gone & how kissing Should be done only by,...°°hours°°... How melodies can leave us n.a.k.e.d & time and space are tiny matters when the stars aro{we}und collide
no,...we didn't speak of ^little^things^ We lost our hours in ThE WoRdS and it's the teary re// col// lec// tion of this That has me typing At 3 AM ..._again
Slipping do W n The rabbit hole... Thoughts and wants and thoughts and wants... spinning,...gloriously spinning Can't wipe this... Smile...off my face just thinking your...name And your words and your...voice...the sounds of you... ......burrowed inside of me And it's Last thoughts and First thoughts and First and Last, last and first...and waking to the wet wanting of your skin all over me...
the image of you {owns my eyes} play//rewind》replay one _ thousand _ times a [captured] moment you. laying. there. Sssssidewaysssss on the mattress the ~ cur~ve ~ of your ~hips~
dip of your sp. ne i a>>>rms>>> wrapped around head on my chest mybreathyourbreathmybreath [how you] buried¡ yourself¡ inside¡ & i ' am ' stuck ' there,' / my dear soblissfully | con | tent | time •○ stopped•○ thispicture. pre _ sides
fingernails trace,... my》 bones morn°ing° coffee°° & wine soaked good{nights} all~ in~ all she should. be. what. i. want. - so-who-knows - what ¿season could ever be¿ enough¿ ^there's ^^no^^ 《taking 《it 《back you;strawberry }moon} } days2short & lo _ _ ng _ _ es _ _t nights. e\clip\se the bl ack tattooofyou <can't << e <<< rase skinonskinonskin [however vague] my highs// my lows
you. don't. get. to. choose {really} it's-just -some-melt; you don't ex _ pect the ~ way ~ her ~lips >move anytime; she says your name° [just a hint of a lisp] \ she leaves you \ @stalled:.......... & there ^you ^are sm i *ling
icantfindthequiet. even when it's just the t/a/p/p/ing of the blinds & the hummmm mmmm of the fan there is no {peace} #peaceful as _ the _ air _ moves _ across my body E. very. cell. wishesitwere YoU
it doesn't happen. So. often. waking with the tears° in° my° eyes° ive gone 23 days withoutathoughtofyou Ok...ma _ y _ be a few the tears flow none/the/less so//i supppse//i'm still st. U. ck I; guess
I think//I think//Toooooo MuCH
keep {shuf{flin{ggg through it'snotevenreallyaboutyou ~ who/who,.. I barely even knew it's the 》flight》 you found and how the ^hope^ you planted healedthesore ...oh hell; I-don't-really-know-anymore your words s. e. E. p. Ed in&p; _ ulled the trigger; on a belief of what was pos/si/ble; a ch _ ance #something bigger,...
,... Ididn'tevenknowthat I needed
It's a bitter bite that now lives. in. my. chest. having caught-a-glimpse-at-what-was-best ...in me,..in you... in po\ten\tial\...in truth ,...but then, a>>>>>gain... That's _ what _ poets _ do _ & the ~poet ~ is ~ you you own. ed. me with. words. Idon'tknowifi'llever ,...,...recover
can't u<n<d<o what's been done the gap that once- held- a- heart is bound to a girl who. wants. no. part.
in the lov\ing and long\ing that tears me A. p. a. r. T. cause the mind^might^know^better but there's-no-convincing the heart
De》spite what's better for me ... to be loved and HeldSoClose how do I [shadow. ]]]]]] the memory of what I wanted,... most ¿
Oh, the irony; how I never really had. her. at. All still;,.... left alone spinning I'm left alone //stalled//
this hopeless ro°man°tic° keeps playing a game I. can't. win. time can't e《《《rase her beauty; OR how she seeped in
It's like beating>my> head>> against the same spite||ful wall ...but giving-up-is-just-giving-in By God, the re■so■lute should... win
I couldn't make her keep me been-on-my-knees for_so _long ~ And now. I. see. the the writing on the wall ~~~~ It's the same for you now,...as you/want/me to love you// you want me to fall
& isn't that such a...s h a m e why does it have to be\ that\ way¿ So much loving, and, passion, and, good, tossed》 to》the 》winds;
... lostinthe ... would/ should...{if only I} ... Could
left to t ₩ist with(in)your // silence // i can't be con~vinc~ed of whether it is a reflection<>noitcelfer of words/mouth/touch .striking.too.close. or-your-need for my acquiescence to LeT it ...go
how ¥ou would take/my/arm/ wheneverwewalked i went along; ten-feet-tall @thatundergroundbar } our place on the couch { & so. many. whispers. & kisses. & thoughts. oh/who would-have-thought¿ it would >come >to >this. all that we were[n't] is _ all _ that _ i _ want. can't ^find ^the ^will to. Just. move,..》 on.
how you like to tie me up in knots {{not the way i want}} you hold my hand you hold the cards & then you shut it off you play it down [if only you had kept your mouth] [if only i hadn't had you] on my tongue your hands in my hair i wouldn't care i could shrug it off but you dig in those nails {{while i make you fl _o _ at}} & it's not enough your ups and downs i can't keep up i'm torn apart
how i wish you would{n't} call your voice 》shoves 》me 《back《 livingroom\ _waltzes\ _ _ [ed> ray > amos] ~singing ~our ~songs Tuesday ○pancakes○ &you; inthosetiiiiIiiiinyshorts Sundays _ trippin' _ in _ the _ sand waves&clouds; snuggledupintowels cho/k/ing°° on° laughs° as umbrellas wisSsk byyyyyyyyyyy all. that. slow. lovin. <inourcozysheets> & your breath [onme] was all. i. could. ever. need. it | was | just | a moment ago i swear; when-you-call [mydarlingsweetestlove] it's {no} hellllllll - p At. All.
My legs are growing ~weary~ walking with these boulders.on.my.chest,... have to focus on each ^bre{inoutinout}ath^ while I'm spinning to ¤de¤ci¤pher,... be\tween the right/and\wrong ....and the [s p a c e ] in be-tween,...
I know I fell for you,...but that's no reason to》hold》 it 》against me,... even when I held 《you《against 《me,... it was always the words... and the s/h/a/r/i/n/g that matter most,...and I just... wAnt...thAt...AgAin,...
Let's <carve> out a space that is... just//ours ... to share,... it doesn't have to be what anyone... ... e.x.p.e.c.t.s,... But the gap_ that's been >>>left>>>>>> ... by the words-and-wants-we-shared is a vastness that's haunting,...
...it just feels so... ₩rong...
& i don't want to be heavy but I'm on.my.knees.now,.. for some words//letters//sounds,... to make ~sense~ of the beauty we,...just,... left,.... , ......ontheground
I _ try _ hard tohidethe scar you. made. quite. an. impression. couldn't you have JuST p》un》ch》ed all the way ¿through¿ Even a Ga>__<pping Hole would be #better than the gravel that Still. Remembers. being ₩hole
¿₩hat kind of answer is that¿ save it {for} laundry & washing your car. i carry comets in-my-pockets & #lightening on my LiPs. go> back> to> your sleepy ex _ is _ tence i'llbeoverhere being. IN. it.
fun//ny how hazel made. me. forget. i HaTe Vegas just like; auburn canmakeme visit _ the _ mall &thos;; sliver limbs &dim;;° waist° }my} hands} fit perfectly'round can >make >it >all make. sense. all | those | things | i #neverwanted &presssedagainstherhip; just >for>get >a>bout anything i. thought. might; matter. &wh;; cares¿ [let'sbehonest] what's-so-great about~wants~anyway¿ & 'when 'she ''trace'''s the veins >in >my >arms with her del _i _cate fingers just 》go 》ahead ask. the. cream. ¿if she cares for honey¿
¿what's it about '...,, idontknowtheletters; i _ dont _ know _ your _ :"code maybe you get _ off 》》 knowing\know\known how. Much. i. want. you. you have; yourself &whateveryou; meant. all >of> the >someones who _ you've _ met; noquestionsasked no. second. thoughts. you make {the love} you-take-it-all,... only^to^say you _ can't _ ; &you; won't