What if I could go back,
And erase all my painful memories
So dark and black
What if...?

What if I wasn't alone,
And haunted by my past
Afraid to look back
What if...?

What if I was loved,
And had lots of friends
That didn't kick and shove
What if...?

What if I was known,
And not unknown
What if...?

Like a tree loses its leaves
I lose my hope
Like an ocean rolls with rage
I cry out in pain
Like a flower that wilts
I am slowly fading from the light
With every step I take
Soon there will be nothing else...
If I pass out of sight
Who would care, unless they are blind
And unable to see all of my flaws
And mistakes in life
Having been pierced by the night
I will soon disappear from sight...

Can't you see I'm broken on the inside
Don't you ever wonder why
I am always alone and crying at night
Don't you care, or are you really that blind
That I'm invisible to your sight
But maybe I am better off alone
And going about completely unknown
For even if you spoke to me I would never reply
Because I am broken on the inside...

When I wake up
I have to yawn
And stop to think
"What am I doing wrong?"
Everything in life is so hard
And I'm struggling to survive
Just taking the time to yawn
At the crack of dawn
Isn't as easy as you would think
Everything is gone
The second I blink
Left all alone
I yawn
Trying to clear my mind
But it never works
It just makes things worse
Fills my mind with the things
I have done
I am drowned in darkness
Without a ray of sun
Completely alone
I yawn...

Why is the world so harsh
That it makes me alone and sad
And feel as if I am merely trash
Why can't it be full of love and kindness
Instead of all of this pain
And blindness
I'm sure if I weren't alive
Everything would be fine
And not drenching rain
Full of regrets and failures
From past experiences
For I am merely trash
Rejected by everyone on this earth
Who are all about making cash
And don't have time to worry about my hurts
They destroyed me and murdered my heart
And left me with a rash
Of painful memories both present and past
But who cares
For I am merely trash...

Being alone is hard and sad
You feel like nothing compared to others
If you weren't alive everyone would be glad
And you think
Am I really that bad
That I deserve to be alone
Being alone is painful
It makes you depressed and weak
Fears hidden behind your fake smile
People think you're happy
But really you're just hiding the pain
From being left alone in the rain
Being alone results in pain...

If I told you what I've done
Would you forgive me
And move on
Or would you hate me
And be gone
I need to know how you feel
Am I important to you
Or am I just a tool you use
Am I a light to you
Or a sea of darkness
I need to know
Won't you tell me
So I can know for sure
That I am not alone
And that I can trust you
No matter what
I need to know if you'll love me
Enough to never leave me
That you will help me
Even in my weakest hours
Please tell me
I need to know...