I have a love
Of whom I cannot call out too
How many times
Has my heart whispered
I love you
As you embraced me
I have said it in every language possible
Beyond English
So i can fight this urge of uttering
The words
You do not wish to hear
Despite your cold demeanor
And pushing me away
I love you
And yet
I cannot say it
For it is you whom I love

I can remember
Your smile
And yet worn eyes
As you burried yourself
In religion
And work
No mother nor rest
In sight
And as i continue
To live in this life
And wake up in the middle of
The night
I think I understand
How you went astray
Dad,
I really miss you

I’m processing
Configuring
The time
And Calculating
The distance
That separates us
Oh the seconds
Until i see you
Once more
To God Above
I pray
You don't forget me

I never
Meant to lie
To you
You see it was at
Another's request
And I was left
To decide what I thought best
Yet
My lying isnt the best
And remembering turns my head into a mess
So instead of the stress i turned
Silent
To keep from hurting you.