I clothe my wounds the best dress
In striking teals, ultramarines, and indigos
I put some hope, even on such illusory mess
In beams, in gleams, in radiance
Been dipped in deep dull sense
Stacks of years, chunks of logic
Aging, through rationality and dialectics
Maneuvering designs and tactics
And still we’d play new year jumping
til our legs can
For every inner child that lives
Year per year

Enraptured with flames, here I stand
I’d lick the shame built by eyes tricking
Visions tempting to suffocate, to bury bliss under
Them seeing light as a phase, a never forever

Yet why here, I stand still like a brawny brute?
Blazing courage, a burning gritty pursuit
Drifting cosmic hues, flowing boundless gleam
How come to love, is now a sin?

Short-lived smiles, fickle minds
Thou can’t choose, thou can’t pick
Y’all need this, you little freaks!
Fifty Nine, Sixty!
Now hit me up! I’m free!
Consume me, drown me
Time’s up? Almost! Hurry!

Henceforth all shameful outbursts
Thenceforward my final death
Jilt, she made me play with fire
Wooed by appalling words she said

She, i ween, is no beautiful
She, i ween, is no enchanting
Yet, she is her dreamer, she is her art
Ergo since farewell, once deaf harked

After the dreamer, after the art
Sniffer cheated, sinner starved
Naked I mourned, naked I yowled
Lost faith from Agave, still fresh from the yard

Tons of letters, I put on to sheets
Day by day, by and by
For myself and I, could fly and die
For you

Freezing tears
Foolishly waiting
Why don’t I deserve?
To be happy
More than to be sad
All things I do
They’re all for you
But you chose to look
From the baddest angle
And I can’t help
But weep
All the time

Hither, now, I'll picture the frailty
So hither, someday, i'll remember
Bothered and trembling, as we roll down
As the needy gets killed, and it's no fun

When this world’s mess is mine
When i’m eaten alive by my mind
When it felt like quicksand
You’ll find my elbows bent
Palms up, hands raised
Standing, in a nearby church
Singing, “Ama Namin”
And I’ll live again...

You know I give so much
Though not much was given to me
You know I feel so much
Though not much is what you feel
They’ll never give back what you give
I never complain, I never speak
Yet sometimes I ask
Am I unlucky?

day by day, I go
to unfamiliar paths I’ve dreamt
without a thing, but with a word
a dream, an aim to put to work

by and by, I’ll learn
little by little, I’ll thrive
to inspirit every end of the story
every luckless can someday be lucky

Come hurl hurdles
Come hurl hindrances
Never will I loose grip
Heading to where I wish to be
Never will I swim, in depths of apathy
To strive, to thank, to forgive
I’ll faith it till I make it
So please don’t you lose faith in me

Kinda disappointing:
Instead of motivating,
You’re accusing, you’re defending

Kinda rude and confusing
We can’t feel that we belong
On our own, we should accomplish
On our own, we should celebrate

Breathing free, blooming untamed
Carving pathways, swallowing phrases
Time will fly, yet words will recall
How pretty it is, how great?
After all...

For it took just one soul to grow a life
A soul with womanly yet valiant mind
With her manly motherly undaunted might
With her unwieldy towering chunk of dreams
All alone, she raised me
Bruised and blemished badly
And, “a proud mama’s boy you are”,
you might say?
And, why would I even be ashamed?

An echt heart aching
A mistake, a misunderstanding
Clever with my own meaning
To forgive, to learn something

Imperfect dames, surely we are
Forgive us, world, for we’re way too far
As meat for our starving egos
As nosh for our black pitch scars

Come hold me, come touch me
Tell me, remind me, love me
We ain’t just our egos’ food
We’re smarter, we’re  brighter and we’ll be good

How true?
Today’s fear’s today’s tears
Scared, but I’ll let it flow
From my fiery eyes, dripping low
It’ll fall, it’ll water
Tomorrow’s gardens, tomorrow’s flowers
Fail again, fail better
Learn, persist and be luckier

All time I’ve been looking,
One zealous, euphoric being
Is this real what i’m seeing?
A blue-dressed woman waving

Now, stumbling, now shaking
Tickled by her soul, I’m melting
So smitten that I’m making haste
Slowly please, just slowly chase

On glooms and shadows, alone we seek
Strokes of hues, glimpse of light
To flip the page, then start to write
A new chapter, as we sleep tonight

Aren’t we all trying?
To live a life worth dying
To put a smile beneath our breath
So lucky you, if you have met
Who will toast with you to new beginnings?
Who will make life worthwhile?

On pins and needles
I’ve never dreamt with bated breath
Though not all I wish is what I get
Though I swim in sins, in tears I shed
For my limbs hugged me to get up
For my faith helped me to never drown
Never, as long as I believe

One sunny day, she’ll call you up
Bring you strings, a pick, a strap
Have I told you i wrote a song?
Though you always mute, you make me long

You’re a six o’clock to seven
Yet in my analogs, you’re bursting
While I’m a four o’clock to five
At my zenith, singing

How magical i still can hear
The colors, the melody, it’s real!
Would you mind to share your years?
With a song that brought me smiles and tears

How can we believe,
on love we don’t receive?
How can we give back,
something that’s not given to us?
How can we depend,
on words they will send?
How can we wait,
though we know it’s too late?

Things I’m surprised I can do
Never for anyone, just for you
I’d stretch limits, I’d swim through
For I trust, someday you’ll hear me too

so beautiful dependence,
pardon me, I won’t embrace
sweet life world promised, full of grace
for I know, for certain, what’s real
so I won’t leave

There, go carve your thoughts to fit in
Go groove in an ever changing
Go weigh the flow, play the games
Adapt to grow, endure the chains
For one day you’ll see
What a seasoned traveler could be
A well rounded shrewd who knows to listen
A wise who can soar, fly and link in

Assembling pathways, breeding flowers
Over clouds, I’m scattering colors
Shaping growth, sprinkling party confetti
Flying heights, for childhood’s happy

Little did we know, little smiles do grow
It’ll hug you, you’ll glow
It’ll succor you when you’re slow
Here, where my big leaps are for

For a dip of her toe in the clouds
She’d fiercely stretch til she’d rip up
She’d throw her bones, spread her skin
To rather die than never win
Dyeing a bloodline, infinite green

how true, you’ve been lonely
so like a bluebird from my window
you came, to beg for my eyes
you flew, for me to see your color
above this city, beneath the bluest skies  

yet, like a bluebird from my window
you should be free
I’m not the cure to your pain, I’ll never be
for to dream of the zenith, is all I do
I see nothing but zenith, how real, how true

We are artsy lasses with dorky glasses
On spurned kisses with tinny braces
On selfsame faces at lavish places
On kindred spirits in empty spaces

We, we are the bosses
Archi, we are everything I want
We, we are the bosses
Archi, we could be everything they want

How true, I’ve been running
In a secret place, a hidden race
To finish five whole years in one

How true, I’m still searching
My safest space, a comfort place
On your shoulder, where I’m still no one

Brimmed with tears, I’ll face my years
I’d still walk when I’m tired
All alone, the saddest tone
Is this what my heart desired?

Why can’t you just help me?
Why can’t you just walk?
Why can’t you just speak?
And still, you’re lovely
Bet this world should award me
As the bravest foolish lonely

Eyes on hands of your ticking clock
I need to think, I need to light up
My mind, It’ll sing until you say stop
Yet I need to think, I need to light up

Maybe just a bottle to cheer me up
Guess I’m out of bullets, I’m out of luck
Can you wait till I get back on track?
I just need to think, I just need to light up

No rush, not in a hurry
Yet, can someone eat her brain spaghetti?
Would someone decode? Her feelings left untold?
I’m tired, I’m worn out, I’m weary
We’re not even on the same page,  honey!

Here, you’ll see
Wild souls, so vivid
Young minds, fueled spirits
Bursting hues beyond grit and faith
Striving, truly, is the heart you’ve made
Molded and shaped to ignite the blaze
A treasure indeed, we’ll forever embrace

Like bees drowning in their honey
Are the leapers and their ladders
Are the kneelers, the kissers
The free flyers of a big shot superior
The flower givers, the ally seekers
The fast eaters, the sweet talkers
Come, starve yourselves more
Be crazy ambitious, be *******
And we’ll wonder, we’ll ponder
What’s the power hunger for?

Words flow from bags to brows
It varies per soul, so I need to know
I need to read or try even so
Folks know, it’ll give me something extra
A blaring swift heartbeat extravaganza
Great then! while listening Poliça
Kinda thinking, black or mocha?

Keyed up, uneasy
Counting time, before you meet me
Over cups of nerve, over cold coffee
On a table for two, you’d rush, you’d hurry

Eyes in dreams, in pixels
You kept it inside
In your sleeves, your denim;
You hid it, where no one can find
But you

Eyes in silence, while she’s waiting
You’ll shoot from behind
Eyes on your lens
You’ll find, you’ll point
Unconsciously
Straight to the baddest angle
With tones of darkest hues
She’ll shiver, she’ll drift
A feeling
She never wanted on stage
An illness
No one can create
No one can heal
But you

So come, picture me dreamer
Come, picture me better
Only to you, I’ll smile the most
The only pain that’s worth the cost

Not much was given, yet I give so much
And if you’ll treat me badly, I’ll treat you good
A one step better aid, the way it should
See? that dance I know for a living
Come, play too as the grateful being
With firm handshake, I’ll support
Here, one of the easy wins, I can afford

How cruel? How true?
Blazing souls that crave to thrive,
Seek colors beaming on the same page
Alike, is the energy that you chase
For your circle,
Will impact, will shape
Your own ways

If courage is pretty
bet you should award me
as the prettiest lady
with the perfect smile

To you,
if only courage is pretty
maybe, you will adore me
for eating flames, for gnawing chains
for holding tears, for facing years
for diving in your great wave
for swimming against the tide

To me, indeed
courage is pretty
Yet, why is that so, honey?
you do nothing
and you’re still lovely
bet this world should award me
as the prettiest lady
for I’ll never give you up

I thought, there’s death
at the park, on the pavement
where we walked straight

I thought, there’s death
under street lights, under buildings
for I never met
for I never knew
silence
until
it sang to me
without volumes
and it’s crazy
it’s pretty
such a sad lovely day with a cat lady

If kidder kid falls for kidder women
Who broke the rule, swept it even?
Who missed comfort, who missed laughing?
Sparked a blank stare, am I changing?

Fun charms, fun charms!
Yet, wit without laughs just tucked me in
No joke! Her heavy heart is all I dream
A love beneath a deadpan’s skin

How can you sleep?
Only to dream
How can you sing?
Words you don’t mean
How can you try?
Without aiming to win
And how can you love?
Without giving it

I need to learn, I need to see
How can you even turn,
something real to a dream?
How can you do it?
How come I’m still wondering?
In the middle of an ocean
of tears, I swam
of blood, I sailed
all day, all night
for you

Head up in grace, suspended in space
To hold all breaths til I touched the summit
All or nothing I give, all or nothing I take
Smiles with my teeth or death of my faith
Oh fortune, how true?
I’m beaming

Woman
I understood, since then
I got it, since then
I always read, I always hear
But that’s that?
Isn’t there something more?
Why am I even seeking?
Why am I always like this?
Here, my insatiable hunger for certainty
Speaks
Again
But there,
Dear credence, it’s you
So, I’ll just sleep
And trust
And believe

Like her,
I’ve never been finite, never been limited
I outstretch, I outreach and I know I’ll win it
Yet, like me,
She’s crying behind locked doors too
Letting tears, help her get through
Granting hurt, just seconds to waste
Then rise back up, like a phoenix with grace
Then I’ll wonder how pretty? I’ll wonder how fiery?
Playing my cards, dreaming
Next to an alpha lady

Have I told you, Maria?
You’ve built a man with strength and hope
Here next to you, beside your *****
He stared, he dreamed while your skies float

The smiles I make, the tears I hold
The tree I am is from your seeds of gold
Years and years, yet I can still recall
How your happy tunes fed my soul

Flipping old pages, sniffing old phrases
Loosening up, unwinding
Elsewhere, elsewhere
With the weight of you
Tucked in my eyes
Pressed down on my shoulders
Elsewhere, elsewhere
Hope is the hardest love I carry
Hope birthed me, hope killed me
Elsewhere, elsewhere

One stage, time may thought it halted
Skipped the beat, missed the pocket
Cut the groove, tried to reset
Sat and stood, yet will never forget
The love it poured, behind these wires
In every word, in every line
Who sees, who saw? both sides can rhyme

Quitting the short-lived fun—swallower of lifetimes
Oh strict fidelity, deprived for stability
This dull party quitter
Bores the many for longer happy
This weary dull builder, built up!