Unconsciously, you’re filling me
From drops to cups, I’m now a sea
My caged thoughts, you set them free
Lucky for you, can’t you see?
From a tiny seed, I’m now a tree
Happy you’re happy, my cup of tea

So there, my lionhearted defier
Who plucked my doubts behind my sleeves
I was never good, nor even better
Yet among the alphabet, I’m his boldest letter

He rarely smiles, he rarely reacts
Yet I know his core, he paid a heed for sure
For around his neck, above his head, I lived
My co-pilot, the author of my journey’s creed

In every line, in every stroke
I traced the breeze, the feel, the folk
Here in my blood, in my skin, in my coat
Remembering Maria, a sketch, a note

For she’s a smouldering flower
That won’t run out of steam
Undeserved, yet too late; she’s already been
Here, loving everything
Here, begging to begin
Again, her being, her exception
While holding tears, while hiding fears
Can we write our new chapter?
Here, on the same page we deciphered
Then we’ll risk it all just to peruse
Poems we’ll lay down on empty books

Struck dumb, tongue-tied
Here on the edge of my seat
Like a cat on hot bricks
She jumped out of my skin
“Wake up, wine up!”
She said

Watching raindrops touch
Your hair, my walls
Shivery and cold
I melt, I float, I fall
Trying to be dull, subdued
Am I still loved, understood?  
Reassuring while hurting
Hiding while reading
Pardon me, you’re beautifully ineffable
No proof, no reason
No words, no effort, no season
An unfamiliar place for I’ve never been this full
I know I should win it, but aren’t we all fools?
With love, my love
I hid, yet I still found it

How can I drive just to rest?
My heavy head on you, my prickly chest
From crafty North to busy West
How can I wait and still fail the test