Without you I'm lost
Though with you,
equally lost
But at least
I could pretend I wasn't
When you were still here.

Your words haunt me
Every waking moment
A singular note
Heralding my despair

I lived and loved
Every bit and bite
That life offered
Regretting nothing

But one

For you were my only mistake
The burnt toast
The spilled milk
Of my story

Your aseptic words
Carefully crafted
Like a careful carpenter
Or a surgeon with his scapel
Wreathes me with fire and smoke
Sophistry in its finest form

Caress my skin with
Your feathers of air
Cool air
Sweet as a mint chocolate

Gentle light
Shining down from above
Like a shaft of God's will
All that I wanted

Tempos burning higher
Pruning the trees
snip snip
shears of revolution

Tempered bones
and
fallen trees
hold your torches up now

Sulfur and Brimstone!!
graying marble
ashes all around

All this for
one
crown

This is the year that you left me
To place that I can't reach
I know its not forever
But
Some part of me can't seem to accept it

This is the year I sit
In the ashes of all I burnt down
Building a new home
With my blackened hands
Where for the first time
I'll live
alone

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
But I must confess
I'm no elephant
But a goldfish
Forgetting you
With every passing moment

This empire
So cold now
Will spring ever come?
I ponder
endlessly

I await patiently
For this frost to thaw
And that day
Can't come
Soon
Enough.

I broke a *** today
It slipped from my buttery fingers
Shot to the ground

I broke a *** today
It's shards sleep on the floor
Waiting to be swept

I broke a *** today
It was my favourite ***
Now, no more

I fixed a *** today
Never the same
Think I'd throw it out