Why are you still even on my mind, when the last thing you said to me wasn’t even goodbye. Thinking back to our last conversation, but I can’t seem to recall whether or not you meant it at all. As the thoughts overflow my mind, it makes me wonder if what we shared even comes close to what I felt. It’s usually all fun and games until the truth comes to the surface, and that’s when reality sets in. You couldn’t have meant everything you said, all the while you were talking to me, you were still with her. How can it be that I fell so easily with your words that even in my dreams the tears are so real. I need you to tell me once and for all, everything you said to me, all the laughs we shared, the moments we cried, that it meant nothing to you. I can’t keep going out of my mind for you when everything you told me was just a lie. You took me along for the ride and didn’t even bother to return your love. Instead you fill my mind with thoughts of what used to be and the best times of my life, only to crush my heart again when time runs out. Don’t you see, when you cut me I bleed just the same as you, I feel things the same as you do, and the actions you take bear such consequences. You had no right to open that chapter up again and leave me feeling so empty inside. How dare you use my pain as your personal gain. Shame on you for inflicting these empty promises along with all of your words which fell flat. Even after all the pain, my heart still yearns for your undeserving love. Why can’t the pain you instilled on me be enough for my heart to heal and move on. The torture remains constant and you don’t even lose a nights sleep........

I remember the days when we would sit around doing absolutely nothing.
I can still feel the joy and love we shared.
We were so in love and no one could tell us any different.
Gazing into those **** green eyes left me breathless.
Knowing you were all mine made me smile so much it hurt.
Seeing you smile lit up my whole world.
Your love came so freely along with your charm.
Looking back on the days we spent together makes me wish they weren't over.
My heart races with excitement everytime I think about you.
Letting you go is the hardest thing to do because I still miss you so.
Even though you've chosen a different path I will continue to love you unconditionally.

Sitting inside my own silence inside my mind
I can recall the very day in which you let me in
Your mind, body, and soul completely entwined with mine
Gasping for air you take my hand and at that moment I'm completely taken in
Every touch, breath, and moment rushes over me like a crashing wave
I've never been so swept away
I want you to have everything that is me
Take my mind, my heart, and my soul and guard them with your love
I only pray that you don't ever let go and wreck every piece that is my heart and soul
With each broken piece lies a new life meant for the one who will mend my torn soul
On this day from my heart you will be removed never to remain except as a memory

I see you struggling even though you say you're fine.
You don't need to hide behind all the pain and lies.
It's hard to believe that you can't see, all the things that make you unique.
It breaks my heart to see you struggle, especially knowing you only do it because you're stubborn.
I know exactly who you are and will be if you let go of all the hurt.
Break free from all that stops you.
Open up your heart again so you can enjoy all the things you used to love.
Stop wasting time with the one who is crushing your soul.
If they lived you from the beginning, they would have been there for you in your darkest hour.
There is someone who loves you and will never give up.

There's been a lot of debate here lately
Wanting you and needing you have been put into question
My heart desires you but my mind tries to forget you
It seems to me that you used my heart only to mend your own
While I lie awake at night you cross my mind often
Only to realize that it's not you that my heart seeks
The way things used to be all the emotions and all the joy
These are the things my mind seeks out
My heart may want you but my mind wants the version of how things used to be
Many years ago when my heart was content is the only reality my mind can see
You broke my heart so long ago and my mind finally realizes it's time to let go

How did things get this way
One minute we’re in love
And the next we’re not
Treating each other more like distant friends
rather than the people we were when we fell in love
The fire that once burnt bright is now nothing but a soft dim light
The desire and passion that was once yearned for
Is nothing now but cold hard aggression that fills the air
The desire for affection rarely shows
Seeking attention has even become a challenge
Why do we stay together even though all hope is lost
Can you even remember a time when we felt the same for each other
What happened to the love and desire that used to surround us
What happened to that desire to make things better
None of the reasons now seem to fit

When you find the right person it makes everything better.
The one who makes you smile even after you've had a long hard day.
The one whose smile can take away all the pain.
The one that no matter what will remain by your side, right or wrong.
The one who loves you unconditionally even if sometimes you want to push them away.
The one that comforts you in your time of grief.
The one who says that no matter what "everything is going to be okay".
The one during your darkest hour that will hold you until you've shed all your tears away.
The one who will remain by your side through the fight when you have no one else.
The one who still says "I love you" even though the fighting hasn't stopped.
The one that has and will always keep your heart.

I’m still so in love with him what more can I say. I still remember what he smells like till this very day. The touch of his hand makes me shiver with excitement, the look in his eyes makes me want him with desire. The sound of his voice makes me quiver. I wish I had one not chance to sneak a true romance, but as they say I can set him free like a dove, and call him my one true love.

We all want to run and hide from all the fear and pain we hide inside.
Sometimes we struggle to say all the words that could help take it all away.
We all take pride in knowing that what we feel we aren't always showing.
The pain inside is all too real however, we choose not to feel.
Shutting out the world can be so easy, unless you open up your heart to the ones who care.
You are not alone in this world of hate so open your eyes and look around.
You just might find the path that leads you to the destiny your heart seeks true.

What makes a person think about someone so much it hurts. What about them draws your attention. Is it their smile or maybe the way they look at you like you’re the only person in the world. Could it be their personality or the way they make you laugh at any little thing. How about when they tell you you’re the one and they couldn’t bear to see you with anyone else or maybe when all of their attention is spent on making sure you’ll never be alone. How about when they sing to you and make you feel so special you wanna cry. Or perhaps when you’re lying in their embrace, you feel so safe like nothing can hurt you. I think it’s the way you loved me with everything you had, the way you smiled at me when you saw me after a long day of work, maybe it was the texts you would send me throughout the day making me smile at your every word. The way you centered your whole world around me and took the time to listen to my every word. Even though that feeling is still here and you’re not. After everything said and done, how could you just walk away like we never existed. Do you feel any remorse at all, any pain at all from that day. Do you still think of me when you look at her or does the thought of me even cross your mind. You had me believe things would last forever, promised me you would never leave, but in the end you broke my heart again.

I am the worlds worst when it comes to trust. Once it's gone, it's impossible to get it back. If you claim to love me, do not abuse that trust. Otherwise it will always be broken. I've done my fair share of things in the past that I am not proud of, but I've owned up to everything. So don't be surprised if I don't believe you when you sit there and constantly lie about something. Old patterns and habits always follow you around. It's up to you to own your mistakes and try to learn from them and prevent them in the future.

Remember when the sky was blue, that was the day that I fell in love with you. Seeing you standing there by the door, made my jaw want to hit the floor. Your blue eyes so full of pride, I knew nothing could ever affect your stride. I’ve never felt this way before, and I often find myself wanting more. The way you talk and the motion of your walk, sends chills up and down my spine making me wish that you were mine. Wanting you to notice me, would be harder than parting the deep blue sea.

Walking away. You cut open the wounds that haven't even had a chance to heal. You made me fall right back in love with you and then you disappear. Do you even know what you've done or the pain you have caused. You're not the only one living with guilt but couldn't you at least act like you care. Did you do it only for your pleasure even though at the time you seemed to care. Why would you play with a heart that used to be yours and would still be if you wanted it. How could you be so cruel as not to realize what damage you have caused. Through everything you honestly couldn't seem to care less. I've been so stupid during all these years and through all this pain. Why couldn't the last time be enough and why couldn't I see that you're no longer good for me. Love isn't supposed to be this cruel love can't be this unfair. Maybe I was just a distraction in your game. An innocent pawn used only when there were no other pieces for the win. These feelings are driving me insane, caring for someone who doesn't even seem to care.

It seems I can’t do anything right, so for that I cry all night. It’s like a game, in which I always get the blame. I sit and wonder all the time, to you, why is everything I do a crime? I do everything you tell me to, and when I want to be free, you lock the door. I have so many things to do, but I steadily ask you for more. You say you are ashamed of me, but how can that be. I love you with all my heart, now it’s time to make a new start.

My love for you is deep and strong, in your presence I feel that nothing could go wrong. You make me laugh, you make me smile, but best of all you lift up my life. I need you to be there when it’s cold, I want you with me when I grow old. So baby listen to your heart and know that I loved you from the start.

It started out as just a crush, but then we realized our true feelings. When we touched you whispered in my ear so softly and held me so near, I knew we’d be together forever. As we said our vows, I saw that look I always liked about you and I never knew my life could be complete until the night we spent together. One day I heard you say that you had another. I sat you down and there was a shout and just like that it was over. I often wonder how you are and if you still think about us. Then one day you came to me wanting another try, I wiped your tears and whispered so softly in your ear.... “We’re just two hearts torn apart”

Will you be there for me when I lose my way, or will you make sure I don’t get away. Will you make me stronger with every breath I take, or simply leave me in a state of heartache. Will you be there to confront me when I get real sad, or will you get mad. Will you wait for me in heaven, and look for me around twelve O seven. Will you still love me when I’m gone, or will you simply move on.

Words can’t express what I feel inside, because deep down I know you cried. I told you how I felt and it made your heart melt. Is this love I feel or is it even real? I often ask myself if I can feel the exact same way I felt the day we met. Which one of the two could I be feeling for you? Is this love I feel inside or are you an angel sent to me from up high?

How long will you continue to abuse my heart, it’s obvious that we have grown apart. Over the many years you have brought me to nothing but tears, maybe one day you’ll be able to see all of the hurt  you have caused towards me. As the day starts wasting away, I just don’t know what to say. Please help me forget the past and build a future that will last.

How would it be if I were gone, would you look for me from dusk till dawn? What would you do if I didn’t come home, maybe you would pray that I wouldn’t be alone. I can’t be everything you want me to be, so why are you so ashamed of me? Would you leave me out in the cold or just tell me to do what I was told? Please don’t push me away, tell me you need me and I’ll stay.

Everyday I think of you, wondering what you’re doing now. I’m wanting to know if it’s me you’re thinking of. I couldn’t get enough of your love, and now it seems to be done. Two long years gone down the drain. As tears stream down my face, I suddenly realize how to take time at a different pace. Our love was so strong, how could we have ever gone wrong. Maybe there is hope, or maybe I’ve been handed the short end of the rope. By the way I forgot to mention.... I love you.

What is love? Is it merely a word or possibly a thought. A myth made to satisfy the heart?  
What is love? Is it a challenge or maybe a game. It might be just a thing that never gains fame.
What is love? Could it be a feeling or maybe a tingle you get in your tummy when you feel it?
What is love? How do you know you have it? Does it appear or do you work for it?
What is love? Can you explain it to me? Draw a picture if you must. Just tell me, what is love?

Be Mine. I’ve already asked you once or twice, but I think it would be real nice to hear you say “will you be mine” and let our words so deeply entwine. Hold me in your sweet embrace, and look me on my face. Tell me that you need me for all your life and hold me close with all your might. We have known each other for quite a while, so for you I’d walk the mile. Just to see your smiling face, makes my heart beat at a different pace. I hope you love me just as much because I just can’t live without your touch.