Words can’t express what I feel inside, because deep down I know you cried. I told you how I felt and it made your heart melt. Is this love I feel or is it even real? I often ask myself if I can feel the exact same way I felt the day we met. Which one of the two could I be feeling for you? Is this love I feel inside or are you an angel sent to me from up high?

What makes a person think about someone so much it hurts. What about them draws your attention. Is it their smile or maybe the way they look at you like you’re the only person in the world. Could it be their personality or the way they make you laugh at any little thing. How about when they tell you you’re the one and they couldn’t bear to see you with anyone else or maybe when all of their attention is spent on making sure you’ll never be alone. How about when they sing to you and make you feel so special you wanna cry. Or perhaps when you’re lying in their embrace, you feel so safe like nothing can hurt you. I think it’s the way you loved me with everything you had, the way you smiled at me when you saw me after a long day of work, maybe it was the texts you would send me throughout the day making me smile at your every word. The way you centered your whole world around me and took the time to listen to my every word. Even though that feeling is still here and you’re not. After everything said and done, how could you just walk away like we never existed. Do you feel any remorse at all, any pain at all from that day. Do you still think of me when you look at her or does the thought of me even cross your mind. You had me believe things would last forever, promised me you would never leave, but in the end you broke my heart again.

I am the worlds worst when it comes to trust. Once it's gone, it's impossible to get it back. If you claim to love me, do not abuse that trust. Otherwise it will always be broken. I've done my fair share of things in the past that I am not proud of, but I've owned up to everything. So don't be surprised if I don't believe you when you sit there and constantly lie about something. Old patterns and habits always follow you around. It's up to you to own your mistakes and try to learn from them and prevent them in the future.

How did things get this way
One minute we’re in love
And the next we’re not
Treating each other more like distant friends
rather than the people we were when we fell in love
The fire that once burnt bright is now nothing but a soft dim light
The desire and passion that was once yearned for
Is nothing now but cold hard aggression that fills the air
The desire for affection rarely shows
Seeking attention has even become a challenge
Why do we stay together even though all hope is lost
Can you even remember a time when we felt the same for each other
What happened to the love and desire that used to surround us
What happened to that desire to make things better
None of the reasons now seem to fit

Why are you still even on my mind, when the last thing you said to me wasn’t even goodbye. Thinking back to our last conversation, but I can’t seem to recall whether or not you meant it at all. As the thoughts overflow my mind, it makes me wonder if what we shared even comes close to what I felt. It’s usually all fun and games until the truth comes to the surface, and that’s when reality sets in. You couldn’t have meant everything you said, all the while you were talking to me, you were still with her. How can it be that I fell so easily with your words that even in my dreams the tears are so real. I need you to tell me once and for all, everything you said to me, all the laughs we shared, the moments we cried, that it meant nothing to you. I can’t keep going out of my mind for you when everything you told me was just a lie. You took me along for the ride and didn’t even bother to return your love. Instead you fill my mind with thoughts of what used to be and the best times of my life, only to crush my heart again when time runs out. Don’t you see, when you cut me I bleed just the same as you, I feel things the same as you do, and the actions you take bear such consequences. You had no right to open that chapter up again and leave me feeling so empty inside. How dare you use my pain as your personal gain. Shame on you for inflicting these empty promises along with all of your words which fell flat. Even after all the pain, my heart still yearns for your undeserving love. Why can’t the pain you instilled on me be enough for my heart to heal and move on. The torture remains constant and you don’t even lose a nights sleep........

Sitting inside my own silence inside my mind
I can recall the very day in which you let me in
Your mind, body, and soul completely entwined with mine
Gasping for air you take my hand and at that moment I'm completely taken in
Every touch, breath, and moment rushes over me like a crashing wave
I've never been so swept away
I want you to have everything that is me
Take my mind, my heart, and my soul and guard them with your love
I only pray that you don't ever let go and wreck every piece that is my heart and soul
With each broken piece lies a new life meant for the one who will mend my torn soul
On this day from my heart you will be removed never to remain except as a memory

We all want to run and hide from all the fear and pain we hide inside.
Sometimes we struggle to say all the words that could help take it all away.
We all take pride in knowing that what we feel we aren't always showing.
The pain inside is all too real however, we choose not to feel.
Shutting out the world can be so easy, unless you open up your heart to the ones who care.
You are not alone in this world of hate so open your eyes and look around.
You just might find the path that leads you to the destiny your heart seeks true.