Why do I still miss you so?
Why can't I let you go?
I never wanted you to leave
Why am I so naive ?
You can't choose me
Or our three
You need time to think?
You mean time to drink
I know you too well
My eyes start to swell
I know why
That's why I cry
You say you
love us
Need us
Want us
If that were true
I would have you

Why pretend the trauma never happened?
Why hide the emotional scars?
Why bottle up emotional turmoil ?
For the comfort of others?
To keep family together?
To not offend anyone?
Stop thinking that hiding the truth is better than offending others with the truth ,those that retaliate are comfortable with the lies.
They are the ones that hurt you but convince you that you are the problem.
You are not the problem they are.
You are worthy of ❤️ love.

I wonder....            
Where you are
If you're wishing on a star

I wonder....    
Where you're going
If you're still in Wyoming

I wonder. ..  
What you're doing
If you're still drinking
If you're thinking

I wonder. ...  
Why you roam
When you had a home

I ponder....
How you could leave without say goodbye
You made us cry

I ponder.....
Why you chose the road
Leaving us behind like a heavy load

I ponder......
Why you choose to be cold
Instead of having me to hold

I still wonder......

When im around you my knees get weak my stomach hurts I can hardly breathe fluttering butterfly's when you touch my skin I get goosebumps when you kiss my flesh electricity runs through my veins you're my weakness yet my strength I wish you could see the one you're looking for is me