The weight of my actions haunt me everyday
My mouth is fed up from the lies I have to say
I keep drinking and I know its wrong
I honestly cant stop
Firstly I'm sorry Mum
But its the only end in sight
Even when I lie you know I'm drinking every night
I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect son
But I'm trying my best
Secondly I'm sorry to my Grandad
I know you spirit watches in shame
I really want to stop but addiction is to blame
The liquor hunts me, just like you do
I'm begging for your voice to help get me through
All the addiction and pain that I'm trapped in
I know you taught me better
I know I live in sin
Lastly I'm sorry to the love of my life
This is the year I want to make you my wife
But I'm worried that how I am will bring you down
And it would **** me inside just to see you frown
So please take this as my addiction resignation
I promise to quit for you and for me
Because I CAN'T do this life without you
When I was on my own I didn't have a clue
So I'm sorry for the lies
You all don't deserve this
I had to get this off my chest before it consumed me

Why can I talk when I'm too scared to do it
I have to say 10 times in my head before I go though with it
Sentence after sentence I keep practicing

Making sure I get it right?
Or just... Never mind
I know it won't come out right

Maybe if repeat it one more time I'll be brave enough to speak
Ok I can do this

"I think-"
Oh **** the moment just passed
Now I look stupid

Laying next to you right now
I feel so at peace
The world falls silent
And now you're asleep
You are my world
You are my sun
You give me life
And I sleep well
Knowing you'll be my light
Thank you for the mornings

I love you so much
And I KNOW I'm going to marry you
But I'm scared that I'm not good enough for you
I'm scared that I'll ruin your future as well as mine
I can already feel that I'm going down
A spiral of emotions that I CAN'T control
I'm sorry this is how I am
I'm so so sorry
I'm sorry

I'm living in fear of failure
Scared of taking a chance
Making a change
Driving me insane
**** MY BRAIN
I keep drinking to make myself feel ok
I dont what to say
Why was I made this way?
Lifes going well
And I've got a plan
But why do I feel like I'm escaping hell?
Someone show me the light
Get me through the night
Because I dont see a good ending in sight
I'm scared that I might not see this plan through
I'm scared of how I might effect you
Because I love you so much
And YOU dont deserve this
I dont deserve you
I dont deserve you

I'm scared I'll bring you down

You gave me life
And for that I am grateful
I'm sorry I take if for granted
You taught me right from wrong
And made me who I am
I'm sorry I cross the line sometimes
You're the reason I keep on trying
Even when I dont want to
I cant thank you enough
For everything you've done
I'm sorry for sometimes driving you mad
But I wouldn't ask for another Mum and Dad

A broken record, I love you so much
Low on battery, recharged by your touch
You truly are the omega of my heart
A beautiful painting, Gods work of art
When I'm with you, you cleanse my sin
There's so much to say, where do I begin?
On my darkest days, you get me through the night
When my path is wrong, you put it right
Words cant describe what you mean to me
If perfect was a word, you'd be what I see
Like a broken record, playing on repeat
Only you make my heart skip a beat
I love you so much, I tell you forever
I love you so much, we're meant to be together