surely i awaken in a sea of sheets,
filled with broken memories,
cascades flow in between the mountain regions of
my heart and
my love,
viewing all of us through a kaleidoscope,
broken we are never pieced together correctly,
drowning in the memories of the last kiss,
saved by angels calling,
you are my siren,
luring me in with lust,
and destroying me with passion,
surely i die in a sea of your selfishness,
bound by the peninsula of my heart,
your love,
and these hopes,
vastly we fall in love,
forget how to breath solely,
forget how to sleep with the lonely,
until we have to do it all again,
sailing the seas once again waiting to hear the voice
of the siren who once had me mystified,
drowning in her love.

-S.J

All of my friends; they are on ******
I doubt I will see many of them again
Hour by hour they are dropping like flies
Not a day passes where one doesn't die
Can you imagine the pain you have to feel on the inside
A pain so deep it goes far beyond a cry
To stick a needle in your arm just to feel relief
The substance in the needle becomes your only belief
From safe happy children to roaming the streets
Dying again and again every day every week
No logic behind the willingness to throw away all you have
Sell your soul ten times over just for a forty dollar bag
I can relate to the madness that becomes every day
I can relate to the struggle that comes in so many ways
I can relate to the attraction of chemically induced bliss
I know what its like when your whole life is ****
And so the dealers get rich
While my friends fade away
Looking gaunt, hollow, and sick
Passing slowly through nights and days
It makes me sick
Knowing what someone will do for a fix
Once proud sons and daughters now
On the corners ******* *****
Black tar becomes the holy grail
Black tar becomes your heart
It ensures you will always fail
You will pass into a hell of dark
All my friends are on ******
I wont be seeing any of them again
They were noble and proud and right and so good
And they all end up in coffins of satin and wood

Don't you dare mistake me for something that I'm not
Don't ever underestimate all that I am
Every time you think that I'm just an afterthought
I come back like cancer again and again
Ill never stop fighting
To give up is to die
Life is a battle; a beautiful battle
Fighting makes me feel so alive
So strive, everyone reach
For your goals and your dreams
No matter how impossible they might seem
The world will do its best to make sure you break
Show how much you can take and put the world in its place
Do all that you can to not just survive but thrive
It's the journey itself that makes us feel alive
People will mistake you for things you are not
People will underestimate all that you are
Live for yourself, live in the moment
Find your own self in your own heart
Love freely
Fight fiercely
Carve out your place on this earth
And fight for it; you own it
It's what you deserve
Don't let the length of the road ahead
Or the dark twists and turns throw you off track
Be all that you can be; forge ahead
You don't ever have to look back
And if you feel like you are in an inescapable hole
Remember it's all in what you make of it; you don't have to be alone

Behind the purple mountains
Is where my sunset shows
Bringing deep tranquillity
When the last sunshine glows

Slowly the sky will darken
The sun is shying away
Soon its midnight blue
Remember...
In that place where I find you

A change in the atmosphere
The world now serene and peaceful
Like it usually should be
And there beyond the sunset
Lies a home for you and me