This blessing
Or curse
I do not know
For it grows and kills me
As I sprout toward the sun
The further I climb
The sun scorches my leaves
I am alive still
Climbing higher and higher
                                Burning with every inch

this blessing
or curse
i do not know
for it grows and kills me
as I sprout toward the sun
the higher I climb
the sun scorches my leaves
l am alive still
climbing higher and higher
                                burning with every inch

I could be

Dancing in a room
With lights that never sleep
And the heartbeat of a writer
And the bodies in the heat

Soaking in a picture
With a moving color stream
And the stories of a filmer
And the people of a dream

Laughing in a ball
With the chat of distant friends
And the tales of a neighbor
And the night that never ends

Instead I lay here

Lounging on my bed
With the darkness of the dusk
And listening to lovely lyrics
And they flow inside my head

While quietly we talk
With thoughts tenderly entwining
And the bliss that bubbles inside
And erupts in our cores

Sensing the heat of the other
With our bodies that lay so close
And the static energy in the space between
And the euphoria of purely being.

And there is nowhere I would rather be.

Expectations
Dangled.  
Overhead.
Just out of grasp.
So you reach.
Stretch.
Squirm.
Climb.
As hard.
As long.
As you possibly can.
And sometimes, you grasp it.
And sometimes, you don’t.

Shut me out
Close me off
Ignore my mouth
Without a thought.

I sit beside
stare into space
to you my seat
an empty place.

Ideas dumb
Words not there
Beliefs wrong
Brain hot air.

Your tender talk
or should it seem
for i know
is but a dream.

Fool the world
blind their eyes
the shining mask
is your disguise.

Your phantom face
like his is scarred
behind the mask
your kindness marred

Your candy smile
plastic cheeks
casually chats
deception shrieks

Invade my life
Steal my dream
Insult my identity
Inside... I scream

One more person is going to change.
One more person is going to betray.
One more person is going to leave.
One more person is going to die.
The world will shatter into a million pieces.
Leaving me ensnared in space.
Leaving me cold and dark.
Watching the universe.
Watching the black hole.
Swarming around me