I drift away....
I try to pray...
I take my knife and say I'm okay...
But I'm not...
Im in pain...
But its hard to say...
The fact that I go insane...
I hear voices...
They are yelling at me...
I see a demon...
Staring over me...
He drags me down...
Hurts me more...
Makes me cry...
Makes me mad...
Stabs my side...
Chest...
Arm...
Leg...
Sides...
Gives me scars...
Gives me wounds that will not heal...
Makes me bleed...
Makes me give...
Makes me fall...
The voices tell me to go...
Go...
Go...
All I have to do...
Is just say no...
But I don't...
I just look down and cry..
I just give up...
I just give up and...
Die...

Growing up I saw a lot...
I saw pain and misery...
I lost my mind and went insane...
I killed my best friend die...
Watched my grandma pass away...
Saw my friend get hurt...
Saw her...
Fall before me....
I cried and cried...
Cried for hours cried for days...
I was dropped on my head 3 times...
I was born a month early...
When I was told...
When...
She told me...
My brother is going to prison...
I cried and cried...
I make my promise...
Not to lie...
Not to die...
Not to give up...
I hold one person close...
As he is my happiness...
I want to hold her close...
But I can't...
I just cry and cry...
I want her in my life...
But they say no...
They say no...
They say...
I say yes...
She makes me complete...
Makes me whole...
Makes me smile...
Makes me happy...
If only I could hold her close...
I wouldn't cry...
I would smile...
They say I'm not in love..
But they don't know...
I found out some crucial news...
My stepdad...
He is cheating on my mom...
I cried and cried...
I hate him I really do...
I don't understand why....
He is bad...
Blames me for things that I don't do...
He turns my own mom against me...
He hurts me...
He...
There is a line you draw...
When your done...
I drew that line today...
Im not dealing with it...
He can leave...
I don't care...
Get out of my life...
Ruin someone else's life...
Just don't ruin ours...
Now you see I love my mom...
I don't want to see her hurt...
And when she is I cry...
Like last night...
I cried and I cried...
It was all because of him...
I give up...
Im letting go of the rope...
Im falling...
Lower...
And lower...
Deeper and deeper...
Into a void...
Where I can't escape...
It droves me to tears...
It makes me cry...
I'm okay...
I lie...
I just cry...
Cry...
Cry...
Age 17...
Dating a girl...
Love her so...
Dad...
Mom...
Find out...
Dad...
Pins me down...
I can't breath...
All I see...
Is my life...
Early childhood...
Age of 2...
Rock hits me in the head...
Suprisingly not...
Dead...
Age 3 fall bust my face...
Still in pain...
Age 4...
Starting school...
Rivalary for a girl...
Another Zachary...
One girl...
Two Zachs...
Yea I lost...
I smiled...
Age 5...
Got hit in the head...
It bled...
And bled...
Age 6 through 7...
...got hit in the head again...
Lost my memory...
Age 8 through 12...
I lost my childhood...
Worked in a restraunt...
Age 13 through 16...
I...don't wanna talk about that...
Age 17..
Went through depression..
Hit rock bottom...
Felt it all...
Hit a wall...
Died a bit...
Cut my wrist...
Almost died...
Met a girl...
Made me smile...
A lot...
A lot...
Made me smile A lot...
Took the pain...
Now its gone...
Made me whole...
Made me feel compete...
Feel in love...
Again and again...
Now...
We are one...
Im complete...
Happy forever...
In love...
Met my...
Other half...

You say you love her more well I say that's a lie...

My love beats yours and I don't even have to say a word you may say you love her for who she is but no you only love the thought of having her she is an angel sent by the gods and you as the sinner you are wish to drain her life force and make her sad I say no you don't love her at all you just love her to use her to take advantage of her and I will say no you need to give up on the fact of her and move on...

Now you ask me if I love her...

I say Hell yea I love her I would give her the care she needs while she's sick I would be by her side whenever I can my brain turns to mush but I don't care I love her everyday my love meter goes higher and higher it has no limit while you and only you fall and bring her down not realising the true beauty that stands in front of you the way her eyes look around the room the way she walks like she's a kid the way she talks is yet funny but I love it and you look at her like she's garbage like she is the dirt beneath your feet well in fact she isn't she is the most wonderful thing in the world an absolute beaut yet so cute I sometimes wonder how I got so lucky although we have our little fights we still love each other in the end so if you say you love this girl you better think again.


Now as I said don't speak you know you have lost but won't accept defeat now imma tell you one more time if you are going to love a girl like her you must treat her like she's the most special girl in the whole world.

I look at life with a smile on my face while deep down I'm so ******* depressed that I see life going down hill love is growing and depression is fading but the only thing I have to do is just keep going

But yes as that love grows and that depression sinks the people who look at me judge more but i don't care because truth be told is that I love you and when they tell me to leave I'm gonna get hurt I just keep going

To those who look and tell me to leave ******* because you don't know if our love is true well guess what we do so when you try to put me down I'll onto you no I don't look to you I look to her the one I love the one who keeps me in my good day the one reason I just keep going

Before I met her I had taken my blade that made me bleed and stuck it in my vein although it may not sound true it was I hid it well and to see that to I knew my angel was about to come to so I looked to her and I just kept going

And if you need to complain do it to me because as you see I'm not mean I am nice but sometimes when you see me the smile on my face is sometimes fake but not with her that is real that is one thing that kept me safe that is why I just keep going

Now tell me do I look like the freak you call me behind my back? Am I the one who is stupid to you? Well guess what...

...do I look like I care? **** no I don't care for you I care for one thing and that one thing is her and if you try to take her away I will go back to my blade go back to that hidden facade that I once knew and that facade is the thing that just won't keep me going

Three lives lost in one day
Four kids in the yard ready to play
As one had walked away
Another just sat and swayed

The one who walked away saw the van pull up
The man who saw the boy jumped him by surprise
We all fear that he lost his life
Cause we all feared he had died

Another boy sat under the tree
And as he did he began to bleed
For there was a hive of bees
For know one knew he was not breathing

Another boy went for a walk
As he was running he found some chalk
But he did not see the car that was driving up
For he did in fact get strucked

The forth boy was swaying in the yard
For he really had a big dog
But the dog couldn't see at all
As the dog walked it saw the blur and killed the kid head in jaws

Now you wonder about the kid in the van
We that kid was me and now I'm a man
I was upset to see my friends dead
But to this day i wish I was dead
Cause now I just sit in regret.

Army Army here I come
Got my pistol got my gun
Watch my brothers die in combat
I just wish we'd all go back

To the days of old when we first met
But now we are all in regret
We understand the battle is home
And some are just left there alone

We fight for what our freedom
To some thats truly dumb
To most its not fun
And I am here just holding my gun

We leave the ones we love at home
Just sitting there all alone
Waiting for us to return to our camp
Waiting for us to return as a man

Althhough we are traumatised by killing
Some of us are even willing
To go out and take a life
Even though I want use my knife

My gun is what keeps me safe
Although I don't feel so great
I take my gun and charge
And into battle to stop the harm

So Army Army here I come
Got my pistol got my gun
I got my family got my friends
But its really nice that we always win.

I look at life with a smile on my face while deep down I'm so ******* depressed that I see life going down hill love is growing and depression is fading but the only thing I have to do is just keep going

But yes as that love grows and that depression sinks the people who look at me judge more but i don't care because truth be told is that I love you and when they tell me to leave I'm gonna get hurt I just keep going

To those who look and tell me to leave ******* because you don't know if our love is true well guess what we do so when you try to put me down I'll onto you no I don't look to you I look to her the one I love the one who keeps me in my good day the one reason I just keep going

Before I met her I had taken my blade that made me bleed and stuck it in my vein although it may not sound true it was I hid it well and to see that to I knew my angel was about to come to so I looked to her and I just kept going

And if you need to complain do it to me because as you see I'm not mean I am nice but sometimes when you see me the smile on my face is sometimes fake but not with her that is real that is one thing that kept me safe that is why I just keep going

Now tell me do I look like the freak you call me behind my back? Am I the one who is stupid to you? Well guess what...

...do I look like I care? **** no I don't care for you I care for one thing and that one thing is her and if you try to take her away I will go back to my blade go back to that hidden facade that I once knew and that facade is the thing that just won't keep me going