Am I Okay?
Do I look Okay?
Do I feel Okay?
Im not okay...

Well if I say I am okay just know That's a ******* lie because me I am not one to lie on stating facts but to see me okay would be the day my life was great but no its not I am not okay and I will never be okay...

If I say I look okay just know from my false fact is I try to look okay but that will never work depression is seeping through my life and is trying to show the fact that I am not looking okay...

Me...oh well yea I feel okay but im not you need to understand that all this is leading up to a point where the walls are drenched in red and the floor is oozing feircly and everyone around is cry by the sight that I was not feeling okay...

Now as I lay on that bed I feel the pain for others that I've caused and I have prayed to god for I have sinned in his be half and taken my life to sooth the pain but to speak the truth it is the rain that has washed away the ooze on the floor and has made many more seek out for guidance on why I did but just to wonder why this kid had taken his life this day and if I was still there to day I would have said I'm not Okay...

Am I okay?
I feel okay.
Do I look okay?
No well then I guess I'm not okay.
I am not okay I mean I look okay...



For I hear the things people don't want to say I hear the past and the voices yelling at me telling me to just go die there give up telling me I'm not good enough and its not okay I guess and I wish I was okay but sometimes I feel as though I will never be okay...


I want to be okay I want to be the one who looks okay everyday I am sad I try to pull a smile and some days it works and others it don't...


Did you know they yell at me everyday?
Everyday I hear the sounds of death the tormented screams getting louder as they talk and each day I want to end the voices so if you ask if I'm okay here is what I'm going to say....

Im okay but I'm not okay cause if I was okay I would be the death of the pain and the pain is not okay...


I just want to say Im sorry I do want to be okay and I want to be okay with you but I see my past and all I see is hell living hell and I want to get over the abuse and I just can't I want to get over the divorce but I can't all I can do is pray...



All I can do is say I'm not okay.

I am a blue in the group of red people
I am the outcast that hangs outside the steeple

I am one who proclaims to see so but knows absolutely nothing
I am one who sees the world and sees one who means everything

I am the one who does know share his work but learns it
I am one who learns absolutely nothing and does not fit

I am the puzzle piece that will always be missing from the group
I am the one who can't help you but help you speak the truth

I am the one who is against all the gods and has seen his fate
I am the one who know his death to that very date

I am the the one who is missing that one missing glove
I am the the one who has finally sensed and found his one true love.

He's done
He's ******* done
He's losing my mind
He's finally done it
He has been broken to complete sadness
He has heard the voices screaming louder and louder
And here they are screaming in their highest pitch
He wants to take the knife that has made him bleed and cause not pain and misery
For it has made him fall to his knees and made him scream out in mercy
As he cut his wrist he feels it bleed it makes him scream in agony
Makes him cry makes him fall makes him want to punch a wall
But it makes him see what a terrible human being he can be
A killer in the night who doesn't care for his life
He wants to end it all right here but the one he loves has drawn near
And she made here acquaintance as she said hi almost made him want to die
For his soul and hers was meant to keep him together
But now they are no longer and now his mind will always be known as the terror of the night
And yes today he still holds that knife trying to ponder about his life.
But just to realized he has lost the one that he still loves soknife he may contemplate we all feel he will be okay but some just don't know the pain he has been through
For he is the one who may help all but can't help himself...
...for the only thing lies on the blade of his life.

Before you came along life was so much harder.
Life was darker.
I was once so smart
But you have came and took my heart

For you are my future
I would never hurt you
For you are a true beaut
For you are my one and only truth

But ill say i have lied
For  you have raised my pride
And you have made me strive
For I wish not to die but live a long life

Most boys think of *** but not me
I am here to go and set you free
And have you be who you wanna be
I want you to be with me

For you have true beauty
Sod your eyes show true
For you are super cute
I only speak the truth

Cause I love you
And I hope you feel this way too
For day in and day out I'm okay
For your the one who makes my day

You are very special to me
For my love was once free
Until I met you and now its for you
For your my muse

And I need to be honest
Your my true wish
My one and only love
My one missing glove
My one love song

A little birdy told me so
Sitting on my ledge
With a look of displeasement
But far from far fetched

He sang to himself to keep it at peace
As though he was trying to tell me something
A graceful little caw as he flew to me
Stuned me to stumble off my feet

He landed on the ground
Right next to my feet
And started to come closer to me
He look at me With a mindles stare

He kept into the air and started to caw
So I jumped to my feet to follow him
Out the door and down the street
I ran so fast to follow him

I maniac I heard as I was running
Some people even thought it was funny
And Then I saw him start to sink
I quickly began to stop and think

As I look to my right I saw her though
A beauty so unreal and magical
As soon as began to get closer my heart began to sink
So scared to say anything, so Scared to do anything

I walked up to her as she lie on the ground
And as I get closer she awakens from her sleep
Her hair blowing in the wind
The bird laying by her side

The endless memory of her
I walk up to her and grab her hand
To be here forever and till the end
To know she's my prize and my win

So as I relive this day
I will remember her beauty
And I will remember the day
A little birdy told me so

Did you know one thing gives you away?

That one thing is your eyes
They tell truths and they tell lies
For they show you the times
That you need to be prime

How long have you been here for?

13 years
It must bring you to constant tears
To see you life fade and disappear
For you are strong to hide your fears

If you had to choose would you still live today?

I hope so cause I need you so
For you may be the only who knows
It is I who loves you so
I hope this feeling never goes

Do you love me back?

I hope you do but its your choice
I wish to be quiet and not make much noise
For me when I'm around you I feel like a toy
But to be honest I'm no man I'm just a boy

If you could spend your life with me would you?

Maybe big questions to ask
But some may be my last
But my time with you has been a blast
I will be honest my heart is glass

Will you answer these truthfully?

Or will you leave them as a mystery
And hope to leave my soul as empty
For you don't know how happy you've made me
For I know how much you truly love me.

Do you think I feel the same way?

My honest answer is yes
I wish to be by your side when they put us to rest
But my life before I met you was a mess
For I think and feel you are the best
And I will answer yes for I want you to be my final request.