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Batchelor Jun 2020
How are you?

I end up funneling warmth to that part of me.


How have you been?

A simple query, to see if you're still there.


I've missed you.

Bitter frost cracks open with the uninvited warmth.
Chained, absolute.

Frozen, sub-zero.

21st of February, 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Subside, O hunger of mine.

Satisfy thyself of cravings,

So we might co-exist just yet.


Play our tunes so fires might just extinguish,

Instead of being set alight once more.
Restraint, all we ever have to deal with being part of society.

December 2017.
Batchelor Feb 2020
She held my hand and I went to places that only I and her knew and it was during such times I knew I loved her and I became someone else and I remembered her warm breath on my cheek and she didn't shy away

Shied away, from the world. Cold air around my lips. I'm someone else, after all that's happened. Places, either burnt down or burning like bridges. Her lips still felt cold.
Her hands gone, only mine left.

She loved to see my smile and I did all I could to keep her smiling told her that her smile would make others envy her for her smile lit up darkest corners of my Earth I couldn't stop holding her

Hated my features, and so I withdrew, attempting to please her. But I know, I existed. She existed. But what for? Shadows return, anyway. The stronger the light, the harder shadows hit..but I'll rewind-
Rewind, to the time there was nothing but perpetual snow.

2013.
Batchelor Apr 2020
We're running out of skin to cover the brittle fingers, the metal clanging underneath the flesh.


he runs his fingers across her face one last time
she breathes out
it is the sweetest thing he has ever tasted


We're looking into the root cause of the dying emotions, our hearts speaking louder than questions and patterns.


the solid clanging echoing ever so empty in his head
she took what was hers
bring him along
please


We're holding up our hands in surrender, our tears streaming down our faces to get closer to the flame.


the empty space beside him
a quiet day within his mind
the disquiet like empty nights again
she left behind the rain
walking away with his last sunshine
The author falls in love again and again with the Lady In Red, to become his Red Queen, scant few months later.
June 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
A queen most fair, with blade poised to serve,

A queen just, years linear on her face.

Dare she speak? Will it bring cause, for the effect?


The matriarch, by wolves, admonished.

When will her sparrow ever come,

Tasting the tears that will never end.
"Shita-kiri Suzume"

December 2017.
Batchelor Feb 2020
Slow piano tunes play out as I walk towards the certainty, this singularity.
My heart heavy, listens to your confession.
"Since when?" I ask, not caring for the answer that I already knew months before.
"Now. Just now."
Grey sepia dandelions flutter, but oh, how beautiful you are still.
"Hi, how does this work?"
Had I known, I would've told you that I didn't know and walked away.
"I don't wanna lie. I can't tell anything but the truth.. it's over."
But, even in this death, you're still so beautiful amongst my molten ashen flowers of love.
Futile, wasn't it? In hoping that you'd stay.
And it made sense.
A purple flower, the red wine, the ashtray, the white flag and me, suddenly so small.
A cruel revelation. And me, still naive.
This bandage.. slowly tearing off my eyes.
The heartbreak I left in the wake of finding sanity,
And naivety giving way to cold purpose.
2013.
Batchelor Apr 2020
I am of little faith.
You have taxed yourself, time & aggression wearing your soul down.
We have still a long way to go, my darling.

Have faith in me.
"And I heard there was a secret chord, that David played and it pleased the Lord, but you don't really care for music do you?"

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Between the both of us, was I trying to save you, or did you save the both of us?
And I'm bonded to you, and I wish you could do the same.

13th of January 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
And if takes a lifetime to hold peace,

And if you teach me what it feels like to be home once more,


I'm happy with what we have.
Will you have them as they are?

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
We're one with the flame
And we burn with the flame
Til we contract the blame.
"I burn, to make you understand."

October 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Despite what you've heard, I'm not quite dead yet.

You might've erased all good in me,
But like how the sea always met the shore,
I'll still be here.

You no longer remind me of anything.
You won't stick by in my soul for long.

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
He shuffled and wiped specks from his eyes, peering into the distance, observing the blue eyes hidden behind melanin.

Picking up scrolls of knowledge unbound, dust devils rolling in his wake.

Drew the curtains open, spilling golden cloth unto his being, as he wrapped himself in the fading of the light.


Lightly brushing fingertips onto cobwebs long frayed, rot and decay spread, accelerating time and tense til only dust remained.

Dust and memories of a time where he too, once sat as an equal to a young lord, his visions guiding the actions of a fledgling nation.


Now, all remained slipped through his fingers.


He took strides to the door, taking no time to rip open the door that held him in exile.


The Seer In White had returned.
Hail, King.

October 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
It was always about the next woman.
The next thrill, chase, fire.
No excuses no repentance
Like a wide mouth open devouring everything in the path

The hunger was different, difficult and demeaning.

I'm just a boy playing at being a man
For all the **** it did me.

What I mean what I want what I've been searching for
I found it, or rather it found me.
No one can run from it forever.
Nobody can.

My heart beats for the thrill of the hunt
The adrenaline rush
Palpitations of the skin sliding into the next one's collarbones.

Play with fire and you get burnt.
Become fire itself and watch yourself become an eternal witness to the world burning down around you.

I don't breathe the same anymore.

In peace, feel the rhythms cascade.
In war, fan the flames of passion.


We're not the same anymore
We're not young
We're sinners through and through
Why parley with the Line when you could **** up the Borders?

atrast nal tunsha
i will never find my way in the dark
Take me with you.
Without you, everything falls apart.
Hunger beyond relief.
April 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
All I ever was, to find validation from others.

All that I am now , for contentment.
It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

23rd of January 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Extinguish the me

To find the you

Cremate the when

To nourish the now

Cherish the moments

Embrace the life you have.
Leash the self.

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Dance. Or rather the lack of it.

Do it, because you want to, because you need to.

And all the sounds you were looking for,
And all the taste your tongue lost.

Surrender power to desire.
Translate desire into longing.

Crank it up, swallow her voice, digest it and nurture it.

You know what you want.
You know what you are.


We are one.
To find someone else that could understand you..
and then realize you were wrong, eventually.
Slide down the slippery ***** and go mad.
May 2017.
Batchelor Feb 2020
First, we write about vague things involving ourselves.
Secondly, we solemnly promise to never break each other.
Thirdly, we take a bow and dip each other in baptisms of fire.
After all that, we pretend like we had never met.
In the end, we burn down bridges and walk away amongst molten flowers.
Because sometimes preparing yourself for things to end, is much beautiful than enjoying the time you have left.

Here I am, in 2020, living proof yet regretting only a few things.
Batchelor Feb 2020
You are the space in between my thoughts.
You are the grand design in which I am overseer.
Atrast nal tunsha -- may you always find your way in the dark.
You are the electricity that runs in my brain.
Closer and closer your lips pull to mine. And I desecrate your innocence in mine.
You have become the space between sentences. The pause between ragged breaths. The dusk of a million light switches turned off.
The trenches & blood rivers.
The bloodied walls and leather welts.
This is a feeling rarely experienced, rolling sadness on my tongue as expressions reveal pained smiles.
Time itself slows to a crawl, as the sadness screeches to a halt.
My godless self, my red draped black cat, my ashen kiss, the ghost, the illusion, the missed connection, the graveyard soil.
And a secret involvement in your ******. A lifelong commitment to uncertainty. Undertaking love, reciting the future, guarding the past.
"Who are you, that you don't know your own history?" - Lonesome Road
The only thing to be colorless, odorless, not have any physical form yet cuts, wounds and festers as if it was alive.
You exist. In rotting words, putrid flesh and fading art.
You exist. In quivering lips, shivering hands and eternal *******.
You exist. In the covenant of the womb, the atoms racing together to create you & break apart when you end.
I'm coming back home to my lights and shadows.
The beginning of another end, the ending of another beginning. Here the start begins, before The Black King meets The Lady In Black. The story ends, in 2019. But for now, the rollercoaster ride of hell starts.. ever so slowly. Circa 2015, to The Other Half, before she is anointed as The Red Queen.
Batchelor Apr 2020
The shears I borrowed from you were rusty, I told you about them before.

The sheer dumbfounded look on my face when you told me I could keep it,
rust and all.

Only Schweer's sorrow was left, when Schwerte's last few denizens came to bid their farewells to you, the spinster with her shears.
Goodnight, spinster.

October 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
My actual question to myself is this then.

Shall I destroy everything I have built for the sake of starting over, and feeding off the fresh new scars & pain so I can write again?

Will it be worth it?
(Maybe, of course, perhaps)

It doesn't diminish the fact I love her, does it?

Mistakes done twice are a decision.

I'm her filthy little engine of self destruction and hate. Point me in the direction you want me to go, hold me close and steer me well.

It's a forked path.
Maybe even if I do this, I'll end up on the same road I've always been on.

A vicious pronged indecisiveness.

Maybe that's why my heart is no longer with its cruel mistress.
She doesn't satisfy me anymore.
It was never about the ***, it was always the challenge. The subtle nuances she bought out.

And now.
Complacency leads to straying.

Her records stopped scratching.
How long ago, I don't know.
Remember to never **** where you eat.
Or, never project previous failures onto new flesh, old bone.
April 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Fire, fire everywhere once more.

The only difference, in the middle of this tempest,


I am licked and caressed by the coldest flames I've ever felt.
Fall silent

Kiss me goodnight.

21st of January 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Theatres of sounds grating on my nerves

These tunes scrambling all thought

I hope my senses cover themselves tonight.
"I want more body, I want more soul
Flip the switch to automatic, I want control"

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
The girl who printed my heart out on paper, you have my heart.


Your eyes kept scouring for me, yet I remained deliberate aloof : I was tugging on your strings just as hard as your eyes bore holes in my back.


But hey, the black noise covering us was all we needed to look at each other.


That was the closest I've ever come feeling like me : feeling like the boy who once cherished moments like that.


And oh boy, she wants me dead.

Asked if we could become friends, but after the flurry that happened in front of her eyes, answer was no.

No.
No.


Chuckle


It's all a game to me.
Even though she slips away from my fingers, I live for the moment.
The hunter, the boy, the man, the blackguard.
June 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
In the first moment of truth there is brilliance.

In the second moment of truth there is clarity.

In the last moment of truth there is resignation ; the tunnel of darkness exploding into light.
Kiss the world with winter flowers.
Bare my name in frozen hours.

October 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
What can you do when you realize you're the reason things end?
In the belly of the beast, in the mind of the monster.

17th of January 2018.
Batchelor Feb 2020
And the best things about her were never how she dressed.
Neither when she danced circles around me when she held my hand.
It was as simple and unsettling like an open flame, that I held for warmth and to feel.
The line blurred between us for my surrealism and hard drawn lines for reality.
Maybe it was the knife edge she gave me as I traced runes on my left arm.
Mystical experiences that left blood on my lips. Was that it?
I am the child of the sun, and she was the space in between my heavenly Father and just like her signsake, she keeps me in places where I never have been.. and never will again.
I'm where I should be.
And I'll never be again whole.
Just like how movements are fluid, and how feelings are fleeting.
Firespark. Dreamstate. Singing in silence.
That, is the best thing.
And with her.
Me, to you.
The beginning of the merger between The Red Queen and The King In Black, circa 2013.
Batchelor Apr 2020
With the turning of the clock,

And the grooves on your hip,

I'll just toss your stature over my shoulder,


Just to prove a point.
Fun fact, the author can lift people up to 130KG and toss them a distance.

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Recognising the signs of attachment in him,

Jim bought out his handy dandy notebook.

Noting down the signs, taking inspiration from it but shaking on his feet, the feelings were too intense.

Pretense was, he wouldn't get involved at all. That he'd walk away unscathed, that he'd be able to laugh about it while bragging about the good times.


Time and again, he had been shown.
There was no laughing about this.
The hypocrite he was, to not step away from being bombarded with the emotions and torment. A saviour of none.
June 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
A minute to make some noise

A lifetime of tiny cracks

Buttered up, swallowed up stage fright

Bitter, sour sweet milk flowed into her.
Definitely not a SFW star.

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
And if the world should quake

And if the boughs would bend

And if the hearts would break


I'm coming back for you.
I'm crawling back to you.

December 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
On a lighter note,
Love is a striptease that never ends
Even the most jaded will grudgingly admit
And for the notes that struck the heart
Notes that bring synthesia into the gray
Daring the gloom to seep, weeping into life
Enter joy, endless mirth, for it is how things should be.
Rejuvenating, primordial essence for the soul, and a cool wind for the mind.
Breathe out, and I'll breathe you in.

Autumn Love, Spring Romance Of 2017.

September 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
We're decaying, defeated by promises and kisses long gone.
"Unbreak my heart, uncry these tears."

November 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
I don't know.

How lucky I have it.


Should I?


Thinking positive thoughts,

Thinking of positivity, without thought.


What will this hunger give way to?


Is this lubricant for the gears of future mechanical dice to roll?


I'm an empty box cut out of ash, of killer queens and suns long set.


I'll gather what I can.

Even burnt out, I am more than I was before.
"Walked through the doors of a happy home
Stepped right into find myself alone
I don't know why I feel this way
It ain't supposed to rain on a sunny day"

November 2017.
Batchelor Jun 2020
I caught you lying

I caught you picking your teeth off the floor

Not so pretty now are you?


Now your dead soul calls out again to me.
"That keep calling me
They keep calling me
Keep on calling me
They keep calling me"

20th of February, 2018.
Batchelor Jun 2020
Blue was the sky

On that beach

Blue were your eyes

As I kissed you

Now red is what I see

And we fell apart

Taking each apart
Take me apart. And I'll take you apart, a piece of each other forever lodged, even as we form a pearl for others to take.

5th of February, 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
the wine spills
soft whines to no avail
fake rhinestones scatter into debris
love, wry and wrought,
wracked with distraught.
"Get out!"

December 2017.
Batchelor Feb 2020
A little bit of something I haven't kissed,
A little bit of a line I inch closer to

Help me chain myself
Anchor my soul and body

A gradual slow crawl to a halt
Rolling eyes at the visual premonition
Surely this must be in jest, old feelings emerge and though not mine
Niche tastes flap on my tongue
Inquisitiveness turns to desire
Clamping down on the Beast

Time is a cruel mistress, is she not?
Yesterday bought stability
Now today bought sins to light.
eu sunt dracul *chuckle
With the assistance of the Courtesan, darker heart than night itself, Blood And Tears is off to a roaring start. Temptation slides a bit closer than most.. and the sorrow of the sins are cloaked, a little more longer. January 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Deaden my nerves please.
Hold me so tight I cease to breathe.
Let the burn encompass my being.

Kiss me,
Kiss me again.

Love me,
Love me again.


Love me so hard
I cease to exist

He rises
And he takes control of one last joy spreading through my cooling corpse.
Give me one last kiss, and love me like an alcoholic.

Autumn Love, Spring Romance Of 2017.

September 2017.
Batchelor Jun 2020
In the ruins of previous lives, ghosts meandered. (soft cheer, and laughter.)

With a skylight turned inside out, cracks, fenestrating form. (soft sobbing, and fear.)

On the desk lay stained glass, and the ashes of yesterday. (softer times, and love.)


Just in time, for the air sirens.

Illustrations on the glass, now of resignation.

Musty tomes fluttered, and in the unnatural torrent of gales,

Angels of metal sent love letters, to wash it all away with indifferent flames.
War.

What is it good for?

Absolutely nothing.

23rd of February, 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
This doesn't feel right.

There's a tune that's loose in my mind.

I recognize what I feel it for.

Pain, and this recognition brings the rain.

I don't want to believe it.

But I have to.
Believe in nothing and no one and you'll find not even yourself.

13th of January 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
The grim look he gave me was more than enough,

The time ticking down never felt right.

Dawn came, only that it wasn't soon enough.


His soft purring would never be heard again.
Goodnight, beloved feline.
Goodnight, sweet rascal.

August 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Arm in arm with someone that's not yours : - Intoxicating.

Palms on someone you shouldn't touch : - Exhilarating.

Fingers caressing someone with sensuality thought lost : - Euphorical.
Where did all the time go, in heartbeats?

17th of January 2018.
Batchelor Apr 2020
You are to me, like how blood and wine are interchangeable, mutable.

I am to you, the raging storm passing by the coast, cold relief down your spine.


Both together, hand in hand, an addictive desire to better oneself, and the lust for ruination.


You are the ghost I'll never give up.
Start from nothing, to become something, and finally everything.

Autumn Love, Spring Romance Of 2017.

September 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
I am convinced beyond a doubt that I cannot sustain this.. normal life.

Settling for this domain has always been strange.

Cassette tapes on loop on my natural state of being : Chaos.

Fight this when every inch of my being wants to go where I wanna be?
Oh Lord. I cannot.

kisses down spine
cheeks cupped
lips trailing down


Her book still isn't stained with bile.
Her youth isn't tarnished.


hands snaking to the front
back to forward
his growling
my grunting
her moaning


I am convinced beyond a doubt that I cannot sustain this.. normal life.


I crave the midnight snack
Arms wrapping around her for warmth and sweet scent of sweat
Chewy gum tree taste on my serpent tongue


Music feeding the mood

From desire there is surrender
From surrender, power

Flesh submitting to carnal stimulation
Body realigning to devour the sin
Mandibular advancement on her sweet meat

I crave you.
Memento excoquere et ego vobis.
Hunger beyond satiation,
Love beyond a craving,
A lust beyond fulfillment.
April 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
"Until you became the air in my lungs, the symphony between our steps,
The echoes of your voice in my ears,
The soft embrace of night over day.
You have become, second nature."

"Before, I was one. Now I am less than one, but so much more with you."
The mantle of the Lord Of The Moor is slowly shedding.
June 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Soft juicy tender lips slide apart for the racking of the meat slab in the cavern of the beast moist and juicy it slides into it and ends up giving up its life essence for majestic theatres that blare into the silent ticks between the clock.
*cackle* I do love myself some meat slurping done to me.

October 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
We're fiction as long we're not within grasp
My diction requires your palm on my crown
Your friction may just feed me benediction.


The heart's jurisdiction is a fickle contraption
A not so subtle crucifixion nor constriction
Ensued when I fought against interdiction

You've become my addiction, my mental preoccupied obsession.
A depiction of dereliction's eviction.
Never again will there be remission's nonfiction.
"You've become my addiction, my mental preoccupied obsession.."

Autumn Love, Spring Romance Of 2017.

September 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
Sun, where we began and danced in her light until we grew tired of being and went apart from each other, promising to write snail mail and songs.
Mercury, where we collided and saw each other for the last time, hurtling towards a great unknown.
Venus, where we never knew strife and bargain, to begin with a step back and two steps forward, enchanted by all she had to offer.
Earth, was where we found each other, after walking quite a distance away from each other, only to meet again along the infinite line.
Moon, where the concept of death became alien and we danced to the ebbing of waves on the cold shores lit ablaze by the bonfires in our hearts.
Mars, where the idea of war entered our souls and waged war we did, turning whole empires into ash with our weaknesses and humanity.
Jupiter, where it was decreed our penance would be great, and humility would be in our bones before long.
Saturn, when we knew our time tending to orchards and vineyards for our sins would be over, and we danced until the morning light.
Uranus, whole and plain for us to see, the empty void of unchange making our souls sick, for everyday was exactly the same.
Neptune, where we finally settled on the same shores we met each other at first, and held each other closer than we ever did, as time itself stopped.
A love letter that took almost 6 months to create, since the author was stuck on the Moon line for a bit longer than usual.

Hello, love. My Red Queen.

August 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
A continuous wave of motion into the gloominess of tomorrow.

The layers stripped away, nostalgia be ******.

When we reach the end of this road, in the knowledge we've done all we could.

And I'll know the love unspoken, the fair queen unabashed, naked truth spilling out.


Hoist my shield up high, as I soar to your side once more.

The hunger grows.

Patience stretches off into the horizon.

A king can rule alone, if needed.

He'll wait til the fair queen sits by his side once more.
And I will wait, for you.

October 2017.
Batchelor Apr 2020
All rise, and he's still sitting down.


Arms outstretched, fingers clasped.


They move to the rhythm ingrained.

Sipping on the glass, he waits.


Any of this, he passes up.

Still awaiting for the tattered dress to sweep in the door.
He still dances the best with Love, who's soaked in red and eyes of the green-eyed monster.
June 2017.
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